Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[BiBunny]

I can very much relate to being like that.

Over time though, I learned to swim and to not trust others to check that there are life vests and boats and I learned to be very clear and open about my thoughts on the ice berg dead ahead.

I am terrible to talk to about things like this because while I can understand where you are coming from, I can’t really in good concience tell you anything else than that I think it is time to tell him that you will be in the life boat and that he alone is in charge of either staying the course or turning around.
Doesn’t have to mean ending it, but let him know that he knows where you and the presents you spent money and effort on are and that it is up to him where you go from here.

I feel torn about answering, because I know I’ve said more or less the same before and that it might not be what you want to hear, but I also don’t want you to feel that you have to put up with this or think that I’m not sorry or get that it sucks.

And I’m a bit stubborn and loyal and don’t always know when to stop…so do tell me if you would rather want me to stay off the topic. I totally get if that’s the case and I will not get upset.

No, no, no, Iris. I appreciate your input, and I know you're right. I just have a hard time doing anything about it because I default to making excuses for his stupid ass. But he's been wallowing long enough, in my opinion. This has been going on for years.

I think I'll write up a thing to send him, then sit on it for a day or two and look over it again to make sure I like the way it sounds, then send it. He has been content to sit back and let me shoulder the burden of this not-relationship for so long, and I am so, so, so tired.

 

[IrisAlthea]

No, no, no, Iris. I appreciate your input, and I know you're right. I just have a hard time doing anything about it because I default to making excuses for his stupid ass. But he's been wallowing long enough, in my opinion. This has been going on for years.

I think I'll write up a thing to send him, then sit on it for a day or two and look over it again to make sure I like the way it sounds, then send it. He has been content to sit back and let me shoulder the burden of this not-relationship for so long, and I am so, so, so tired.

That sounds like a good plan.

And I totally understand tired.

 

[dreamysub]

Thank you so much.

I know he's very neglectful and not likely to change this late in the game. I also know the only answer is to get out of the relationship, but I'm stubborn and loyal and honestly dumb and will go down with the ship every time.

I know I should get another Daddy. But I don't want another one. I want this one not to suck. I've never been good at replacing one person with another. It's just not the same.

Thank you for being there for me. I have nobody in real life I can really talk to.

Anytime Bunny!

I was thinkin about this you said...
"But I don't want another one. I want this one not to suck. I've never been good at replacing one person with another."

You know if my exhusbad didnt divorce me years ago I would stay with him till he died and I had like million reasons to leave him...., So yes I understand this " I want this one not to SUCK" and the goin down with the ship too.... But then again, even the STRONGEST feelings expire when ignored and taken for granted for too long. We don't walk away to teach someone a lesson. We walk away because we finally learned ours.. Sad, but true.

*Huggs as always*

 

[BiBunny]

Anytime Bunny!

I was thinkin about this you said...
"But I don't want another one. I want this one not to suck. I've never been good at replacing one person with another."

You know if my exhusbad didnt divorce me years ago I would stay with him till he died and I had like million reasons to leave him...., So yes I understand this " I want this one not to SUCK" and the goin down with the ship too.... But then again, even the STRONGEST feelings expire when ignored and taken for granted for too long. We don't walk away to teach someone a lesson. We walk away because we finally learned ours.. Sad, but true.

*Huggs as always*

*Hugs*

Thank you so much. I appreciate yours and everyone's understanding. It means sooooo much.

 

[BiBunny]

Thinking seriously about leaving hell company again and just finding a different place and hoping I'm not jumping out of the frying pan and into the fire.

I feel like an animal caught in a trap at this place, and I'm awfully close to gnawing my own leg off to get loose.

 

[BiBunny]

Sold my first direct dial call today!!!!!

 

[Azuldrgon]

Sold my first direct dial call today!!!!!

Congrats!!!!

 

[BiBunny]

Congrats!!!!

Thank you!

 

[BiBunny]

Omg, I made another direct dial sale!!!! I've sold 25 minutes today!!!!

 

[dreamysub]

Omg, I made another direct dial sale!!!! I've sold 25 minutes today!!!!

Well done, Bunny!

 

[BiBunny]

Well done, Bunny!

Thank you! No idea how it happened, lol.

 

[dreamysub]

Thank you! No idea how it happened, lol.

Because you are GOOD at it! Thats how it happened!!

 

[sinnocence]

Omg, I made another direct dial sale!!!! I've sold 25 minutes today!!!!

Hell yes!

 

[BiBunny]

In the actual spirit of the Stuffie Corner, I hope if anyone gets a stuffie for Valentine's Day, they'll post it in this thread.

 

[BiBunny]

Also, I just emailed my supervisor at hell company to request a leave. I hope I never have to go back, but just in case I do, I'll leave a foot in the door.

 

[BiBunny]

I'm free from hell job, and one of the guys who called my direct dial line this past weekend called again last night.

Hopefully, I've made a good decision here.

 

[dreamysub]

Life is too short to spend it in a job that feels like hell, so I am sure you did a good decision, Bunny! Hope everything will work out the way you desire! *Huggs*

 

[BiBunny]

Life is too short to spend it in a job that feels like hell, so I am sure you did a good decision, Bunny! Hope everything will work out the way you desire! *Huggs*

Thank you! *Hugs*

 

[BiBunny]

Supposedly, caffeine doesn't "give" you energy. It just borrows energy from the future. I think I've borrowed so much at this point that I'm dead in the future, and that's why it's not working anymore.

 

[BiBunny]

Should be getting my first direct dial deposit tomorrow. It's only $37.50, but that's $37.50 that I made on my own. Nobody else can take credit for it.

 

[dreamysub]

Should be getting my first direct dial deposit tomorrow. It's only $37.50, but that's $37.50 that I made on my own. Nobody else can take credit for it.

Well done, Bunny!!

 

[BiBunny]

Daddy twisted his knee trying to keep his dad from falling on the stairs the other day. So he's limping around right now. I told him I'd come take care of him if he'd let me, and he thanked me for it. But I guarantee you, he won't let me take care of him.

He's supposed to take care of everyone else, but nobody is allowed to take care of him.

 

[BiBunny]

So my dad has been steadily going downhill. His face, hands, legs, feet, and stomach are all swollen with fluid. He can't catch his breath. He's dizzy, and the heart monitor he wore a couple of weeks ago said he was in a-fib 16% of the overall time, once for an 11 hour stretch.

We went to back to the cardiologist Friday. Most of his tests came back clear, so there are no blockages in his heart or anything. But the doctor is still concerned, obviously, with these other symptoms. He gave my dad a diuretic to get rid of all the fluid and a med for heart arrhythmias.

My mom said he didn't go to work today. I don't know how well the meds are working. The cardiologist is hoping to rule out heart failure, but I fear that's going to be what the problem is. We go back again to the cardiologist on Friday.

To top it all off, I'm either sick now, too, or having a really bad allergy attack. So frustrating.

 

[BodieOhl]

*Big hugs*

 

[BiBunny]

*Big hugs*

*Hugs back*

Thank you.