dacoach44
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Its the fantasy..
I love it too, I am Type A in many ways, but to be a sub is exciting. I date the occasional CD, and they enjoy me being the A.
For me, it was a realization as I got older.
I've never been that 'alpha male' in vanilla life, but also I've had an enormous amount of responsibility on my shoulders since I was 18. My first several girlfriends just happened to not drive, many of them not work either, so I had to take care of them financially. Many of them took advantage of me being a 'nice guy', and all of them eventually cheated on me.
It took me years to realize that 'nice' was a bad habit. But anyhoo, I naturally had to be aggressive at workplaces, being ultra responsible, and prove myself reliable in leadership and management roles. I eventually worked my way up to the executive level. All the while, my wife didn't drive, didn't work (she did work when I met her), but something about me made women think they could just sit back and be taken care of, so after many years, I demanded she get her license, and more or less strong-armed her into it. She now works full time, and has for years.
So.. sorry this got long. I realized that I as always a beta-type male, and my first submissive play was simply bliss. No decision making, no responsibility for anyone's pleasure, even my own. I get butterflies when commanded to perform acts, and do so willingly, and feel so perfectly natural being submissive in the bedroom.
In my vanilla life, I am more of a control freak, I know how the world works, and how to get things done, so I am I guess an A-type executive in that world, and fully accept it, but in a different world, where the wife was the high paid executive? Oh yes, I could live in that world, and be her bitch, oh yes.
I love it too, I am Type A in many ways, but to be a sub is exciting. I date the occasional CD, and they enjoy me being the A.