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Committment seems to be a cruel joke! hear me out...
I've been in a relationship which lasted about 1 and 1/2 years in which I have been "badgered" about saying I love you after two weeks into it, worked my tail off at college, but that wasn't good enough cause I wasn't with her much in that time period. I've been this girls father figure, psychiatrist, friend, lover etc, only to have this boil down to a relationship where we argued constantly over nonsense issues, leaving a small percentage of happy times. Then to ice the cake, her mother convinces her to go back to her ex-boyfriend because he has the house, job, car etc, and I being a poor college student do not HAVE those things. I left this situation because no matter how much effort I put in, I was still the "bad guy". So stupid "fool in love me" took her back years later after she had a kid with her ex and separated. For nearly a year I treated this kid like my own, gave her lots of my time and was again her "sounding board".
So once again I get badgered about commitment. You see how self-centered commitment is. Not once was I included here about my desires and interests. My new motto is why give a damn. Work hard and get shit, or be a lazy ass and get shit.
Of course we split again cause I cannot commit to this, but lately I'm finding committing to my own life as a single life is far more rewarding. At least I'm committing to being happy again, and that is a rewarding committment unlike the scenario of these modern "demanding" go-nowhere selfish relationships I've seen. Mine was not unique, I know dozens of people in these kind of relationships, or who have been there. Go figure why there's so many single guys and girls still out there!? Were all scared shitless! Commitment! hah!! what a cruel joke indeed!!!!
I've been in a relationship which lasted about 1 and 1/2 years in which I have been "badgered" about saying I love you after two weeks into it, worked my tail off at college, but that wasn't good enough cause I wasn't with her much in that time period. I've been this girls father figure, psychiatrist, friend, lover etc, only to have this boil down to a relationship where we argued constantly over nonsense issues, leaving a small percentage of happy times. Then to ice the cake, her mother convinces her to go back to her ex-boyfriend because he has the house, job, car etc, and I being a poor college student do not HAVE those things. I left this situation because no matter how much effort I put in, I was still the "bad guy". So stupid "fool in love me" took her back years later after she had a kid with her ex and separated. For nearly a year I treated this kid like my own, gave her lots of my time and was again her "sounding board".
So once again I get badgered about commitment. You see how self-centered commitment is. Not once was I included here about my desires and interests. My new motto is why give a damn. Work hard and get shit, or be a lazy ass and get shit.
Of course we split again cause I cannot commit to this, but lately I'm finding committing to my own life as a single life is far more rewarding. At least I'm committing to being happy again, and that is a rewarding committment unlike the scenario of these modern "demanding" go-nowhere selfish relationships I've seen. Mine was not unique, I know dozens of people in these kind of relationships, or who have been there. Go figure why there's so many single guys and girls still out there!? Were all scared shitless! Commitment! hah!! what a cruel joke indeed!!!!
