Find I find men on web sites,web cam pornos so sexy but when I see a male in the street or work I just cant imagine me being attracted to man on man sex. Have been bi curious for around 2 years now, but just cant force myslf to go that final step.
Why do I??
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Etoile
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Well, society tends to condition you against it, for one thing. Also, men on the web and in porn are inaccessible to you...it's safe to fantasize about them because you can't really have them. When you see a man you CAN have, you get nervous - it's quite normal.
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I know just how you feel, I was the same way. Got a little intoxicated one night and ended up in a motel with another guy, I took the lead and sucked his cock. Instead of being upset about this I felt relieved. Before the night was over I sucked him 2 more times, by the way I did swallow his cum each time. Now I can enjoy sex with men as well as women.
I ask myself the same question.
I wonder if it is just narcissism. When I am by myself, I read gay porn stories here and fantasize about sex with a man. When I am out of the house, I almost never think about sex with men. I was in the gym the other day and a guy cruised me (I think) and I was not interested in him in any way. I had seen a woman on the tread mill on my way into the locker room and I wanted her. And then there was a guy in the locker room that I would have liked to take into a private shower, but I only noticed him after the other guy seemed to show interest in me.
I think I am more interested in women emotionally than men. I'm just bent a little sexually and don't fit the normal society molds.
I had sex with one guy, a guy I met through Craigslist and it was an experience I will not repeat. He said he wanted a top and I thought that, "Okay, I can do that". I went to his place and after a bit we were in bed, naked, and I was going down on him. When it came time to fuck him, I really didn't feel like it. There was no emotional connection. The last woman I had sex with before him was a woman who really hit on me and I thought that I could go through the motions with her, that maybe having sex without commitment on a regular basis would be okay. After a while, it was like work. I didn't get any joy out of it. Same with this guy. No joy.
I could probably have sex with a guy, but I'm at a place in my life where I need to have some emotion in it. Otherwise, I would rather just jerk off.
I wonder if it is just narcissism. When I am by myself, I read gay porn stories here and fantasize about sex with a man. When I am out of the house, I almost never think about sex with men. I was in the gym the other day and a guy cruised me (I think) and I was not interested in him in any way. I had seen a woman on the tread mill on my way into the locker room and I wanted her. And then there was a guy in the locker room that I would have liked to take into a private shower, but I only noticed him after the other guy seemed to show interest in me.
I think I am more interested in women emotionally than men. I'm just bent a little sexually and don't fit the normal society molds.
I had sex with one guy, a guy I met through Craigslist and it was an experience I will not repeat. He said he wanted a top and I thought that, "Okay, I can do that". I went to his place and after a bit we were in bed, naked, and I was going down on him. When it came time to fuck him, I really didn't feel like it. There was no emotional connection. The last woman I had sex with before him was a woman who really hit on me and I thought that I could go through the motions with her, that maybe having sex without commitment on a regular basis would be okay. After a while, it was like work. I didn't get any joy out of it. Same with this guy. No joy.
I could probably have sex with a guy, but I'm at a place in my life where I need to have some emotion in it. Otherwise, I would rather just jerk off.
