The Other Real Black Bird.

[Black_Bird]

It was about a year ago I was making out with her; sucking on her neck, licking her nipples, staring into her eyes. I asked her, "Should I? Do you want me to?" She didn't answer. I started pulling down her pants and her undergarment, but I stopped and asked her again, "Should I? I want to... please say yes." She didn't answer. I pushed down a little further and was rubbing the tip of my prick just above her clit and asked one more time; "Please answer me; I don't want to hurt you."

"No," she said.

I didn't. We didn't. A month later, she lost her virginity to a guy she knew for only a week. We were suppose to lose our virginity together. That was my last sexual experience.

Before this, I was comfortable in my skin. After her, I was no longer stable in any sense of the word. This isn't the worst thing she did; I ended up seeing a psychologist for a good period after the last time we were together.

My own lack of sexual experience had become a shameful little secret... and it's taken a long time for me to feel comfortable with my virginity again. Now, once again, don't care anymore what people think; I chose long ago to only have sex with those I really cared about, and it is an admirable choice.

*THAT* is the purpose behind this thread; to finally do away with this little secret which I've felt ashamed of for so long. It doesn't make me any less of a man, any less desireable, or any less of a sexual being. I am all of these, regardless of my exprience.

Any one who says other wise can eat shit and die, for all I care. I'm not looking for a pitty party either. I'm not looking for offers to "remedy" my "problem," because it isn't a problem at all. It is who I am...

 

[freakygirl]

and *hugs*

 

[Zedd]

Black Bird I admire your resolve, you shouldnt be ashamed of your virginity. you should be proud and wear it like a crown. your decision to wait untill you find someone special is a very admirable one.

 

[Black_Bird]

... Freaky prodded you, didn't she? LOL!

Wear it like a crown? No. That would *still* be using it as a distiction. There is no such thing as "innocence" in this regard; we are all sexual being. Some choose to make sex mean something more then what it is - I do so because I am a very long term oriented type of person. Some choose to see sex as it is - Ruby, for example, sees it as pleasure. To make one better then the other is to slander the other.

 

[Zedd]

actually no she didnt, when she told me to read your post. I had a lot of respect for your decision to post it

I do see your reasoning. and retract the statement that you should where it like a crown.

but you should still hold your self respect and know that what you are doing will stand for something when you meet your soul mate

 

[scylis]

It was about a year ago I was making out with her; sucking on her neck, licking her nipples, staring into her eyes. I asked her, "Should I? Do you want me to?" She didn't answer. I started pulling down her pants and her undergarment, but I stopped and asked her again, "Should I? I want to... please say yes." She didn't answer. I pushed down a little further and was rubbing the tip of my prick just above her clit and asked one more time; "Please answer me; I don't want to hurt you."

"No," she said.

I didn't. We didn't. A month later, she lost her virginity to a guy she knew for only a week. We were suppose to lose our virginity together. That was my last sexual experience.

Before this, I was comfortable in my skin. After her, I was no longer stable in any sense of the word. This isn't the worst thing she did; I ended up seeing a psychologist for a good period after the last time we were together.

My own lack of sexual experience had become a shameful little secret... and it's taken a long time for me to feel comfortable with my virginity again. Now, once again, don't care anymore what people think; I chose long ago to only have sex with those I really cared about, and it is an admirable choice.

*THAT* is the purpose behind this thread; to finally do away with this little secret which I've felt ashamed of for so long. It doesn't make me any less of a man, any less desireable, or any less of a sexual being. I am all of these, regardless of my exprience.

Any one who says other wise can eat shit and die, for all I care. I'm not looking for a pitty party either. I'm not looking for offers to "remedy" my "problem," because it isn't a problem at all. It is who I am...

HAH!!

i KNEW it! (we can spot our own kind, after all... )

 

[Black_Bird]

actually no she didnt, when she told me to read your post. I had a lot of respect for your decision to post it

Well... thank you.

And you, Freaky, for talking to a total stranger about something so, um, awkward?

 

[freakygirl]

... Freaky prodded you, didn't she? LOL!

Wear it like a crown? No. That would *still* be using it as a distiction. There is no such thing as "innocence" in this regard; we are all sexual being. Some choose to make sex mean something more then what it is - I do so because I am a very long term oriented type of person. Some choose to see sex as it is - Ruby, for example, sees it as pleasure. To make one better then the other is to slander the other.

no I didn't..

I'm innocent this time..

 

[Black_Bird]

Re: Re: The Other Real Black Bird.

HAH!!

i KNEW it! (we can spot our own kind, after all... )

Actually, I lied. I lost my virginity to Reznor. So, you can put your pink lightsaber away now.

 

[freakygirl]

Well... thank you.

And you, Freaky, for talking to a total stranger about something so, um, awkward?

does anyone else hear the tune from the Twilight Zone?

 

[scylis]

it's purple, gawddamnit!!

 

[freakygirl]

it's purple, gawddamnit!!

no, it's pink

 

[Black_Bird]

I still say you look better with pink.

 

[Silverlily]

no, it's pink

worse, it's magenta

 

[scylis]

it's purple! PURPLE!

 

[Black_Bird]

it's purple! PURPLE!

Actually, I change my mind. It is sort of purple.

AND pink - so Kitten Eyes hit it square on the nose when she said magenta.

 

[freakygirl]

yeah

magenta.. that's it

 

[Silverlily]

AND pink - so Kitten Eyes hit it square on the nose when she said magenta.

babydoll, I've spent many years in the clothing business, I know my colors.

scylis, I'm sorry but it's a little pink and a little purple .

 

[scylis]

baaaah

 

[Black_Bird]

Oh well; there goes Scylis's virginity...

To a goat.

 

[scylis]

don't talk 'bout yo mama that way!

 

[Black_Bird]

don't talk 'bout yo mama that way!

My momma was a bird... see? Feathers.

 

[freakygirl]

sorry to interupt

I just have one thing to say

Black Bird has an incredibly sexy voice

I had to change my panties after our phone conversatioin

*back to the original intent of this thread*

 

[Black_Bird]

I just have one thing to say
Black Bird has an incredibly sexy voice
I had to change my panties after our phone conversatioin

 

[SXCRgirl]

All I can say to you is... *HUGS* It was extremely brave of you to bare it all. I admire your soul.