The Betticus is totally nuts thread.

[Betticus]

Okay. So I finally gave up and went to the doctor. After my sister informed me that everyone else in my family has bipolar disorder to some extent except for my father. My doc agrees that I have some of the classic signs with the killer highs of emotion followed by the manic lows. The phantom smells that no one else can smell, the auditory hallicination with hearing snips of sound/music out of nowhere. The sometimes visual ones. The inability to associate with the feeling of others sometimes.

It seems that in the end I have some very serious problems that require professional medical attention. I'm on some new antidepressants that while wonderful for keeping me centered they also allow me to pull away from reality a bit and my fantasies seem more real.

So, if I start to slant off into la la land someone here better message me and tell me to check myself. Or to go to see my doc.

 

[graceanne]

So . . . what's it like in lala land?

 

[Betticus]

*hands over cookies* take a seat little girl and listen.

Lala land is not so much a place as it is floating sensation. Everything is confused, thoughts come and go without much control. You can function just fine, you can perform but it feels like you are controlling things from a space in your mind that isn't in touch with the world. It's like you are driving a body like a truckdriver, looking out through your own eyes but the reality of the world doesn't quite touch you. You can't quite feel it. You can see it, touch it, taste it, smell it but it's twice removed as if you were sensing everything through a movie.

That's lala land. Your psyche retreats to a bulletproof bunker in your mind and sees the world from behind the heavy glass. It's a safe place but I can see the potential for it to be too comfortable a retreat. It's safe but dangerous at the same time, I wouldn't want to spend too much time here, detached from reality.

 

[graceanne]

Sounds like dilauded land. it's a nicesafe place.

 

[HB1965]

Betts you aren't totally nuts. You just had an epiphany that you needed help is all

 

[Betticus]

Betts you aren't totally nuts. You just had an epiphany that you needed help is all

Anyone who disagrees with me deserves a spanking!

 

[HB1965]

Anyone who disagrees with me deserves a spanking!

Hehe Promises Promises.

 

[danimouse]

Anyone who disagrees with me deserves a spanking!

I totally disagree with you!

Dani

 

[danimouse]

Sounds like dilauded land. it's a nicesafe place.

I want to go to delauded land!

Dani

 

[Betticus]

I totally disagree with you!

Dani

You get random nice spankings just because You're mine!

 

[northwoods_sub]

Bett, I know this lala land that you speak of, its where I go when I don't take care of my depression. I haven't been there in a very long time because I keep an eye on how well I am fuctioning very closely. I have gotten close to being there but I have learned to recognize the warning signs of when I need to seek help.

It sounds to me like you and your family saw the warning signs and you are getting the help you need. I know it is not always fun to admit you need help with something as simple as thinking but I am glad that you are on a path to a better you.

 

[danimouse]

You get random nice spankings just because You're mine!

Yay! It's good to be me.