I don't know if this has been discussed here, but I have been reading about hair whorls recently.
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/06/26/sexuality/index.html
http://nymag.com/news/features/33520/
I checked my whorl and it is counterclockwise. I check my fingers.
My index finger is longer than my ring finger. A bunch longer.
I was the fifth of five boys born to my mother.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fraternal_birth_order_and_sexual_orientation
When I discovered ejaculation (by accident), it took about two months before I was thinking about sex with men while masturbating. Specifically, I was a submissive in the situation, first with women, then with men. My fantasies would start off straight, but if I didn't cum quickly enough, I would add kinky elements and one would be submissiveness. That always got me off. Over the years, I went from being 'forced' to try gay sex in my masturbation fantasies, to being a cock slut in them.
I have always liked women, even though I have had the worst luck with them. Just this weekend, I was getting my hair cut and I looked in the mirror to watch the girl behind the cash register. She was wearing white pants and a thong (nice shadowy contrast in the crotch, no VPL) and all I wanted to do was pull those pants down and dip my cock into the shadows between the tight globes of her ass.
My fantasies lately is being with a woman who isn't turned off by a bisexual man and helps him try gay sex in a safe way.
All of my adult life, I have been torn between these poles and thinking something is wrong with me for my desires; trying to figure them out without damaging relationships with people around me. I have encountered enough people who were once gay and are now straight to make me think that this is not an easy question to answer. The problem for me is that if I tell my friends that I am thinking about having sex with men, I think some of them would drop me. When I got divorced five years ago, I told some family friends, a lesbian couple, that I was going to try men and that was basically it for them. They stopped returning my calls and emails (we were neighbors and we both moved at the same time, about 10 miles apart, so I don't see them very much). Also, I worked with a guy who was laid off recently when the company downsized. After that, another co-worker mentioned that this guy was bi and there was a lack of respect in the co-worker's tone. Yeah, I know, that is his problem, not mine, but there is an old saying "birds don't shit in their own nest." I wouldn't want it to get back to my office that I have these sexual identity issues.
Thoughts?
http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/06/26/sexuality/index.html
http://nymag.com/news/features/33520/
I checked my whorl and it is counterclockwise. I check my fingers.
My index finger is longer than my ring finger. A bunch longer.
I was the fifth of five boys born to my mother.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fraternal_birth_order_and_sexual_orientation
When I discovered ejaculation (by accident), it took about two months before I was thinking about sex with men while masturbating. Specifically, I was a submissive in the situation, first with women, then with men. My fantasies would start off straight, but if I didn't cum quickly enough, I would add kinky elements and one would be submissiveness. That always got me off. Over the years, I went from being 'forced' to try gay sex in my masturbation fantasies, to being a cock slut in them.
I have always liked women, even though I have had the worst luck with them. Just this weekend, I was getting my hair cut and I looked in the mirror to watch the girl behind the cash register. She was wearing white pants and a thong (nice shadowy contrast in the crotch, no VPL) and all I wanted to do was pull those pants down and dip my cock into the shadows between the tight globes of her ass.
My fantasies lately is being with a woman who isn't turned off by a bisexual man and helps him try gay sex in a safe way.
All of my adult life, I have been torn between these poles and thinking something is wrong with me for my desires; trying to figure them out without damaging relationships with people around me. I have encountered enough people who were once gay and are now straight to make me think that this is not an easy question to answer. The problem for me is that if I tell my friends that I am thinking about having sex with men, I think some of them would drop me. When I got divorced five years ago, I told some family friends, a lesbian couple, that I was going to try men and that was basically it for them. They stopped returning my calls and emails (we were neighbors and we both moved at the same time, about 10 miles apart, so I don't see them very much). Also, I worked with a guy who was laid off recently when the company downsized. After that, another co-worker mentioned that this guy was bi and there was a lack of respect in the co-worker's tone. Yeah, I know, that is his problem, not mine, but there is an old saying "birds don't shit in their own nest." I wouldn't want it to get back to my office that I have these sexual identity issues.
Thoughts?
