First Munch Tips?

[DVS]

*muses*

Which would be more interesting to wear a black bra and panties or white? Assume the rest of my clothes come off that is, which I'm sure they won't, probably.

Fury

Very hard to decide. I'm just jealous I won't get to see you in either. I guess white is my favorite, if you have a tan. And, red ass cheeks show up better against white. But, black is very nice, too. I'm torn.

whatever you would be wearing would be torn from your body, if it were me...just couldn't hold back.

 

[FurryFury]

Very hard to decide. I'm just jealous I won't get to see you in either. I guess white is my favorite, if you have a tan. And, red ass cheeks show up better against white. But, black is very nice, too. I'm torn.

whatever you would be wearing would be torn from your body, if it were me...just couldn't hold back.

*GRINS*



Fury

 

[FurryFury]

I think white would be more surprising but it would show how wet I was more readily. Hmm.

*yawns*

The "plan" this morning is to wait until all the boys are gone, then shower, shampoo and shave. Next I hope to get a nap in before we have to go to the BDSM demonstration and party.

Fury

 

[raven2]

*muses*

Which would be more interesting to wear a black bra and panties or white? Assume the rest of my clothes come off that is, which I'm sure they won't, probably.

Fury

I definitely prefer the black *drool*

 

[raven2]

I think white would be more surprising but it would show how wet I was more readily. Hmm.

*yawns*

The "plan" this morning is to wait until all the boys are gone, then shower, shampoo and shave. Next I hope to get a nap in before we have to go to the BDSM demonstration and party.

Fury

I hope you have a great time. I will be thinking about you especially what underwear you chose. How about letting us know before you go. Better for the imagination that way.

x15

 

[FurryFury]

I hope you have a great time. I will be thinking about you especially what underwear you chose. How about letting us know before you go. Better for the imagination that way.

x15

If I have time and remember to do so, I will give a underthings report.

Fury

 

[babiesmiles]

I hope you have a great time and you wear a black set

 

[FurryFury]

I hope you have a great time and you wear a black set

*L* Thanks!

I hope my husband has a GREAT time!!! Cause I have a feeling I'm going to want to go back to see the demos if not to play. The jury is still out on the playing part. I'm kind of hoping that someone has a violet wand and offers to play with my husband and me. *c*

See the thing is, I think MOST people would wear black or red. I tend to do things that others don't. Like when I went to a vampire party for Anne Rice I work white and silver everyone else was in black. She stopped me to tell me how much she LOVED my dress. It was cut down to there and up to here! *GRINS*

Fury

 

[babiesmiles]

*L* Thanks!

I hope my husband has a GREAT time!!! Cause I have a feeling I'm going to want to go back to see the demos if not to play. The jury is still out on the playing part. I'm kind of hoping that someone has a violet wand and offers to play with my husband and me. *c*

See the thing is, I think MOST people would wear black or red. I tend to do things that others don't. Like when I went to a vampire party for Anne Rice I work white and silver everyone else was in black. She stopped me to tell me how much she LOVED my dress. It was cut down to there and up to here! *GRINS*

Fury

yes I uderstand your point !
It is just that I feel more confortable in black in winter and I just use white in summer when properly tanned ( I have a rather pale complexion even if I am not blonde ) but I love white too .

The thing which is worthy both of you have a lovely time

 

[FurryFury]

Thanks!

*nods*

Yeah I keep forgetting how pale I am. I can see some tan lines still but I am no longer the olive skinned girl I used to be and still see in my mind's eye. Nope, I'm as pale as an English Rose now.

I do hope my darling has a REALLY good time so I won't be dragging him to these things or feeling guilty or getting resentful.

Fury

 

[babiesmiles]

I am sure he will have a good time among other things because he will see you enjoying the party

 

[FurryFury]

I am sure he will have a good time among other things because he will see you enjoying the party

From your post to fate's ear!

Fury

 

[babiesmiles]

 

[raven2]

Thanks!

*nods*

Yeah I keep forgetting how pale I am. I can see some tan lines still but I am no longer the olive skinned girl I used to be and still see in my mind's eye. Nope, I'm as pale as an English Rose now.

I do hope my darling has a REALLY good time so I won't be dragging him to these things or feeling guilty or getting resentful.

Fury

I hoope you wore what you felt most sexy in and that you give us a report of what you saw, did and how you felt about it..

 

[High-Tied]

*muses*

Which would be more interesting to wear a black bra and panties or white? Assume the rest of my clothes come off that is, which I'm sure they won't, probably.

Fury

For extreme comfort, you should go sans bra and panties.

 

[FurryFury]

I hoope you wore what you felt most sexy in and that you give us a report of what you saw, did and how you felt about it..

I wore white. My husband loves white on me, particularly my ass and I asked his help in deciding.

Fury

For extreme comfort, you should go sans bra and panties.

In public? That isn't so comfortable for me. At home, sure I "hang" that way. *L*

Fury

 

[raven2]

I wore white. My husband loves white on me, particularly my ass and I asked his help in deciding.

Fury



In public? That isn't so comfortable for me. At home, sure I "hang" that way. *L*

Fury

I certainly think you did the right thing by consulting your husband. Made him feel more included.

 

[DVS]

I certainly think you did the right thing by consulting your husband. Made him feel more included.

Yes, but was he included in other ways? Did he participate?

 

[raven2]

Yes, but was he included in other ways? Did he participate?

I think the more important question is did she participate?

 

[@}-}rebecca----]

Damn Miss Fury SPILL............................. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

 

[raven2]

Damn Miss Fury SPILL............................. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Uh uh uh.......Patience, patience. I though you knew the teasing and anticipation just makes it better.

 

[FurryFury]

Yes, but was he included in other ways? Did he participate?

I tried to get him to participate but other than cooking a delectable snack for this thing, eating at the restaurant, conversing a bit, and watching, no, he did not want to participate.

Fury

I think the more important question is did she participate?

I'm not sure that is the more important question at all.

Fury

Damn Miss Fury SPILL............................. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

I'm trying time and computer access are not on my side today.

Fury

Uh uh uh.......Patience, patience. I though you knew the teasing and anticipation just makes it better.

I hope so because I love to tease and anticipate but in this case I fear the story will be a BIG let down.

Fury

Okay, so I feel a little funny about talking about all this because I'm not sure how much of this is my story to tell and how much is not and I should keep my mouth shut respecting the privacy of others you know?

Here's what I will say, we went to a restaurant and the first person we were introduced to and who we sat by was the Dom doing the demo which gave my heart a little jot, let me tell you. A pleasant electric type of warm feeling went through me from the shock of being so close to him so soon and without warning.

The food was good. More and more people showed up. Much conversation of mostly but not all vanilla type was had by most. I'm really good at that stuff. I liked talking with a lot of people. I don't normally make the effort to talk with people these days because of the whole public figure thing. It makes me want to just be quiet but here I had an agenda for myself and my husband.

He seemed to enjoy the food. He was also glad I knew that area of town so well since I work there twice a month.

There was a young man there that did not look of age. I found that somewhat jarring but he and the chick he was with, a gorgeous girl were fun to talk with. At one point I mentioned to my husband that my shoulders were pinched up. Next thing I know the young man is giving me an expert and wonderful massage that made me very happy. This is still in the restaurant.

At the location for the demo and party, we put out drinks and snacks, milled around no knowing proper procedure, introduced ourselves to others, had conversations and joined the group official paying dues.

Eventually we made ourselves as comfortable as we could. Some changed or took off clothes and the demo began. It included and I'm going to be somewhat vague here, electricity (something I thought my husband would possibly be the most interested in,) interrogation (something that frightens me and about which I was curious,) fire cupping, blade play and resistance play. We also saw some violet wand action or rather I did, my husband couldn't stand to watch, he said he felt guilty seeing the girl get tortured. (Alarm bells rung for me at that point.) We also got to see a fairly nice dungeon and I enjoyed looking at and touching many of the toys, such as canes, floggers, slappers, crops and more.

I really wanted to try some of these things as well as some of the demo play but there were several problems with that.

One if my husband had problems watching this lovely girl enjoy her experiences how would he deal with watching me?

Two I felt if he tried it he would enjoy the whole thing more but I couldn't tell for sure if he wanted to be pushed or not. I'm not a pushy person.

Again, I say, I would have liked to worry about my emotions ONLY.

The fact was that my emotions were pretty tumultuous but they would have been less if I didn't have to worry about him. As it was I literally feared I might shit myself. I'm dead serious. So tie me up and shock me? Um, maybe that wasn't the right move, right then. Also the interrogation thing. It's not like I have a whole lot to hide mind you but who knows what the fuck he would have asked? My memory sucks.

Would he have believed I couldn't remember X or would he not? Would the stimulation of shocks make me remember, make stuff up, shit myself or orgasm? I don't know but early on I was considering it. I even asked him how nude one had to be to be played with. Cause there was NO way I was getting all nude. Panties and bra were the limit for me, period and I was pretty shaky about that. I told y'all I was shy, I wasn't just whistling Dixie about that.

So, I could have done it. I should maybe have done it. Maybe I hate myself for wussing out. On the other hand I'm not sure my husband could have handled it well if I had.

HIS attitude was that other people got nude so if he did it he HAD to get nude and match or exceed the standard already set. I say bullshit to that. I'm not competing but that is his way.

He was very worried about seeing work people, family or family church friends there, and there was one guy that looked a lot like a guy at work but luckily wasn't.

I saw the book Panic Snap there and asked the hostess if she had read it. She says it's her next book btw. LOL. I guess she isn't part of the book club here yet. I don't think they know I'm FurryFury at Lit yet. I'm not even sure any of them hang here though it stands to reason, at least one of them would.

The first demo subject was very resistant. There is NO doubt he liked to act tough and bring more on himself, not to mention be humiliated.

I was frankly irritated by that attitude, amused at what it wrought and enjoyed all the demos a great deal. It just amazes me how much people will "play" at being bad to get more. I'm just not cut from that cloth. I want it because I want it, not because I'm bad. You want to give it to me, not to punish me but because you want to give it me. That's the way I like to play.

Anyway, I watched and learned a lot. I asked questions and learned more. I LOVED it! LOVED it. I want more.

I feel that I let us both down by not doing anything or making him but in a way it was the right thing to do.

I talked with him on the way home. We had to leave early, say 11-12 because we hoped to get a scene of our own in that night and we had to get up for lunch today after not sleeping enough because of the sleep over party our son had the night before. I was reluctant to leave no knowing if he'd ever want to or agree to go to another one.

I asked him what he thought and on the way home and he said he hated it. I felt my heart plummet right then and there. I didn't know what to do.

He said certain things were interesting but that he was uncomfortable the whole time. I felt so guilty and upset that I started to cry. He didn't know it though and I kept my voice steady when I spoke next. I felt I had mismanaged the whole thing.

Next thing he said was how would I feel about a rape scene there!?!

I'm fucking confused guys. I truly am but then he is the king of mixed messages sometimes.

So . . . questions, comments, do y'all hate me for NOT doing stuff? Did I disappoint ya?

Fury

PS My time using my Son's computer will likely be up soon. Maybe I can use someone else's. *grr*

 

[@}-}rebecca----]

I hope so because I love to tease and anticipate but in this case I fear the story will be a BIG let down.

Fury

It wasn't even the slightest of let down . Bravo for you Miss Fury . Beautifully written and I feel an apology is due from me. I am sorry I 'pushed' in my post above , I was just excited for you.....hugs

Okay, so I feel a little funny about talking about all this because I'm not sure how much of this is my story to tell and how much is not and I should keep my mouth shut respecting the privacy of others you know?

Here's what I will say, we went to a restaurant and the first person we were introduced to and who we sat by was the Dom doing the demo which gave my heart a little jot, let me tell you. A pleasant electric type of warm feeling went through me from the shock of being so close to him so soon and without warning.

The food was good. More and more people showed up. Much conversation of mostly but not all vanilla type was had by most. I'm really good at that stuff. I liked talking with a lot of people. I don't normally make the effort to talk with people these days because of the whole public figure thing. It makes me want to just be quiet but here I had an agenda for myself and my husband.

He seemed to enjoy the food. He was also glad I knew that area of town so well since I work there twice a month.

There was a young man there that did not look of age. I found that somewhat jarring but he and the chick he was with, a gorgeous girl were fun to talk with. At one point I mentioned to my husband that my shoulders were pinched up. Next thing I know the young man is giving me an expert and wonderful massage that made me very happy. This is still in the restaurant.

At the location for the demo and party, we put out drinks and snacks, milled around no knowing proper procedure, introduced ourselves to others, had conversations and joined the group official paying dues.

Eventually we made ourselves as comfortable as we could. Some changed or took off clothes and the demo began. It included and I'm going to be somewhat vague here, electricity (something I thought my husband would possibly be the most interested in,) interrogation (something that frightens me and about which I was curious,) fire cupping, blade play and resistance play. We also saw some violet wand action or rather I did, my husband couldn't stand to watch, he said he felt guilty seeing the girl get tortured. (Alarm bells rung for me at that point.) We also got to see a fairly nice dungeon and I enjoyed looking at and touching many of the toys, such as canes, floggers, slappers, crops and more.

I really wanted to try some of these things as well as some of the demo play but there were several problems with that.

One if my husband had problems watching this lovely girl enjoy her experiences how would he deal with watching me?

Two I felt if he tried it he would enjoy the whole thing more but I couldn't tell for sure if he wanted to be pushed or not. I'm not a pushy person.

Again, I say, I would have liked to worry about my emotions ONLY.

The fact was that my emotions were pretty tumultuous but they would have been less if I didn't have to worry about him. As it was I literally feared I might shit myself. I'm dead serious. So tie me up and shock me? Um, maybe that wasn't the right move, right then. Also the interrogation thing. It's not like I have a whole lot to hide mind you but who knows what the fuck he would have asked? My memory sucks.

Would he have believed I couldn't remember X or would he not? Would the stimulation of shocks make me remember, make stuff up, shit myself or orgasm? I don't know but early on I was considering it. I even asked him how nude one had to be to be played with. Cause there was NO way I was getting all nude. Panties and bra were the limit for me, period and I was pretty shaky about that. I told y'all I was shy, I wasn't just whistling Dixie about that.

So, I could have done it. I should maybe have done it. Maybe I hate myself for wussing out. On the other hand I'm not sure my husband could have handled it well if I had.

HIS attitude was that other people got nude so if he did it he HAD to get nude and match or exceed the standard already set. I say bullshit to that. I'm not competing but that is his way.

He was very worried about seeing work people, family or family church friends there, and there was one guy that looked a lot like a guy at work but luckily wasn't.

I saw the book Panic Snap there and asked the hostess if she had read it. She says it's her next book btw. LOL. I guess she isn't part of the book club here yet. I don't think they know I'm FurryFury at Lit yet. I'm not even sure any of them hang here though it stands to reason, at least one of them would.

The first demo subject was very resistant. There is NO doubt he liked to act tough and bring more on himself, not to mention be humiliated.

I was frankly irritated by that attitude, amused at what it wrought and enjoyed all the demos a great deal. It just amazes me how much people will "play" at being bad to get more. I'm just not cut from that cloth. I want it because I want it, not because I'm bad. You want to give it to me, not to punish me but because you want to give it me. That's the way I like to play.

Anyway, I watched and learned a lot. I asked questions and learned more. I LOVED it! LOVED it. I want more.

I feel that I let us both down by not doing anything or making him but in a way it was the right thing to do.

I talked with him on the way home. We had to leave early, say 11-12 because we hoped to get a scene of our own in that night and we had to get up for lunch today after not sleeping enough because of the sleep over party our son had the night before. I was reluctant to leave no knowing if he'd ever want to or agree to go to another one.

I asked him what he thought and on the way home and he said he hated it. I felt my heart plummet right then and there. I didn't know what to do.

He said certain things were interesting but that he was uncomfortable the whole time. I felt so guilty and upset that I started to cry. He didn't know it though and I kept my voice steady when I spoke next. I felt I had mismanaged the whole thing.

Next thing he said was how would I feel about a rape scene there!?!

I'm fucking confused guys. I truly am but then he is the king of mixed messages sometimes.

So . . . questions, comments, do y'all hate me for NOT doing stuff? Did I disappoint ya?

Fury

PS My time using my Son's computer will likely be up soon. Maybe I can use someone else's. *grr*

Once again ......smiles.......I am not even in the slightest bit disappointed . Observing yet respecting protocols within your own safe limits could not have been wiser. I understand to some degree how you felt in regards to your concern for your husbands reactions and how that would have influenced the evening for you. Its a huge responsibility and you knew in yourself that his reaction was going to reflect on your ongoing involvement. Remember all your previous play as taken place mostly in environments that you have a comfort zone in. Plus it probably pays to consider how much exhibitionist style scening you have been involved in previously. It may well turn out for you to be something you cherish in the longer term but for now its a bit alien so don't be so hard on yourself. Not everyone is cut from the same cloth Miss Fury as you are well aware ......thankfully as diversity is a beautiful thing. You have life experience behind you , history and have taken that into consideration with your future in this area. I for one am very proud of you, I am happy hubby attended with you even though that added to your discomfort at times . It was a Catch 22 situation .

I also think you have intiated a brilliant Thread here and your candor and emotion which you are willing to share so honestly is a resource for those to come.

hugs for you Miss Fury

@}-}rebecca-----

 

[raven2]

I tried to get him to participate but other than cooking a delectable snack for this thing, eating at the restaurant, conversing a bit, and watching, no, he did not want to participate.

Fury



I'm not sure that is the more important question at all.

Fury



I'm trying time and computer access are not on my side today.

Fury



I hope so because I love to tease and anticipate but in this case I fear the story will be a BIG let down.

Fury

Okay, so I feel a little funny about talking about all this because I'm not sure how much of this is my story to tell and how much is not and I should keep my mouth shut respecting the privacy of others you know?

Here's what I will say, we went to a restaurant and the first person we were introduced to and who we sat by was the Dom doing the demo which gave my heart a little jot, let me tell you. A pleasant electric type of warm feeling went through me from the shock of being so close to him so soon and without warning.

The food was good. More and more people showed up. Much conversation of mostly but not all vanilla type was had by most. I'm really good at that stuff. I liked talking with a lot of people. I don't normally make the effort to talk with people these days because of the whole public figure thing. It makes me want to just be quiet but here I had an agenda for myself and my husband.

He seemed to enjoy the food. He was also glad I knew that area of town so well since I work there twice a month.

There was a young man there that did not look of age. I found that somewhat jarring but he and the chick he was with, a gorgeous girl were fun to talk with. At one point I mentioned to my husband that my shoulders were pinched up. Next thing I know the young man is giving me an expert and wonderful massage that made me very happy. This is still in the restaurant.

At the location for the demo and party, we put out drinks and snacks, milled around no knowing proper procedure, introduced ourselves to others, had conversations and joined the group official paying dues.

Eventually we made ourselves as comfortable as we could. Some changed or took off clothes and the demo began. It included and I'm going to be somewhat vague here, electricity (something I thought my husband would possibly be the most interested in,) interrogation (something that frightens me and about which I was curious,) fire cupping, blade play and resistance play. We also saw some violet wand action or rather I did, my husband couldn't stand to watch, he said he felt guilty seeing the girl get tortured. (Alarm bells rung for me at that point.) We also got to see a fairly nice dungeon and I enjoyed looking at and touching many of the toys, such as canes, floggers, slappers, crops and more.

I really wanted to try some of these things as well as some of the demo play but there were several problems with that.

One if my husband had problems watching this lovely girl enjoy her experiences how would he deal with watching me?

Two I felt if he tried it he would enjoy the whole thing more but I couldn't tell for sure if he wanted to be pushed or not. I'm not a pushy person.

Again, I say, I would have liked to worry about my emotions ONLY.

The fact was that my emotions were pretty tumultuous but they would have been less if I didn't have to worry about him. As it was I literally feared I might shit myself. I'm dead serious. So tie me up and shock me? Um, maybe that wasn't the right move, right then. Also the interrogation thing. It's not like I have a whole lot to hide mind you but who knows what the fuck he would have asked? My memory sucks.

Would he have believed I couldn't remember X or would he not? Would the stimulation of shocks make me remember, make stuff up, shit myself or orgasm? I don't know but early on I was considering it. I even asked him how nude one had to be to be played with. Cause there was NO way I was getting all nude. Panties and bra were the limit for me, period and I was pretty shaky about that. I told y'all I was shy, I wasn't just whistling Dixie about that.

So, I could have done it. I should maybe have done it. Maybe I hate myself for wussing out. On the other hand I'm not sure my husband could have handled it well if I had.

HIS attitude was that other people got nude so if he did it he HAD to get nude and match or exceed the standard already set. I say bullshit to that. I'm not competing but that is his way.

He was very worried about seeing work people, family or family church friends there, and there was one guy that looked a lot like a guy at work but luckily wasn't.

I saw the book Panic Snap there and asked the hostess if she had read it. She says it's her next book btw. LOL. I guess she isn't part of the book club here yet. I don't think they know I'm FurryFury at Lit yet. I'm not even sure any of them hang here though it stands to reason, at least one of them would.

The first demo subject was very resistant. There is NO doubt he liked to act tough and bring more on himself, not to mention be humiliated.

I was frankly irritated by that attitude, amused at what it wrought and enjoyed all the demos a great deal. It just amazes me how much people will "play" at being bad to get more. I'm just not cut from that cloth. I want it because I want it, not because I'm bad. You want to give it to me, not to punish me but because you want to give it me. That's the way I like to play.

Anyway, I watched and learned a lot. I asked questions and learned more. I LOVED it! LOVED it. I want more.

I feel that I let us both down by not doing anything or making him but in a way it was the right thing to do.

I talked with him on the way home. We had to leave early, say 11-12 because we hoped to get a scene of our own in that night and we had to get up for lunch today after not sleeping enough because of the sleep over party our son had the night before. I was reluctant to leave no knowing if he'd ever want to or agree to go to another one.

I asked him what he thought and on the way home and he said he hated it. I felt my heart plummet right then and there. I didn't know what to do.

He said certain things were interesting but that he was uncomfortable the whole time. I felt so guilty and upset that I started to cry. He didn't know it though and I kept my voice steady when I spoke next. I felt I had mismanaged the whole thing.

Next thing he said was how would I feel about a rape scene there!?!

I'm fucking confused guys. I truly am but then he is the king of mixed messages sometimes.

So . . . questions, comments, do y'all hate me for NOT doing stuff? Did I disappoint ya?

Fury

PS My time using my Son's computer will likely be up soon. Maybe I can use someone else's. *grr*

Hate You? Come on now, you know us better than that.

You did what you felt you needed to do because your husband was there. It is very hard to juggle your desires with his, since he went there under a little duress. You must have felt like a kid in a candy store with a really mean parent who wouldn't let you have any. And I don't mean that as a knock against your husband. He has his own comfort levels and they were obviously pushed.

There is nothing you could do to disappoint me. You did what you had to. I find it more upsetting that you are disappointed that you did not get to try the things you wanted. You had some personal concerns, but if your husband had not been with you, you would have been free to try the things you liked. Don't be disappointed with yourself for not trying, be happy with what you learned and the connections you made. there will be other times.

The last thing about the rape scene, certainly is a mixed message and certainly you have every right to feel confused. Perhaps he was trying to shock you or perhaps after he thought about it a while, he found something he liked. Or perhaps he was trying to make an offering to you with something he felt he could do since he seemed so uncomfortable with a lot of the ideas of electric play etc.

Anyways just some things to consider.

Remember, I if was there with you, you would have had a hell of a lot of encouragement. Especially with the white undies.

Raven

 

[FurryFury]

It wasn't even the slightest of let down . Bravo for you Miss Fury . Beautifully written and I feel an apology is due from me. I am sorry I 'pushed' in my post above , I was just excited for you.....hugs

Once again ......smiles.......I am not even in the slightest bit disappointed . Observing yet respecting protocols within your own safe limits could not have been wiser. I understand to some degree how you felt in regards to your concern for your husbands reactions and how that would have influenced the evening for you. Its a huge responsibility and you knew in yourself that his reaction was going to reflect on your ongoing involvement. Remember all your previous play as taken place mostly in environments that you have a comfort zone in. Plus it probably pays to consider how much exhibitionist style scening you have been involved in previously. It may well turn out for you to be something you cherish in the longer term but for now its a bit alien so don't be so hard on yourself. Not everyone is cut from the same cloth Miss Fury as you are well aware ......thankfully as diversity is a beautiful thing. You have life experience behind you , history and have taken that into consideration with your future in this area. I for one am very proud of you, I am happy hubby attended with you even though that added to your discomfort at times . It was a Catch 22 situation .

I also think you have intiated a brilliant Thread here and your candor and emotion which you are willing to share so honestly is a resource for those to come.

hugs for you Miss Fury

@}-}rebecca-----

Thanks Miss Rebecca! *hugs*

You don't need to apologize. *smiles* It feels good to have people want to know the things that I have to share.

I really am not that kind of exhibitionist, to get naked in public. I don't know what it would take to get me comfortable getting nude there or any public places.

I might have wanted to try something just because, it's a long held wish of mine to be used by a Dom and I might never get to go back.

However, my husband said that he will go back because and only because he knows it's important to me and loves me. That's really sweet but I'm not sure I want to pull him to places at which he is uncomfortable and unhappy.

Fury

Hate You? Come on now, you know us better than that.

You did what you felt you needed to do because your husband was there. It is very hard to juggle your desires with his, since he went there under a little duress. You must have felt like a kid in a candy store with a really mean parent who wouldn't let you have any. And I don't mean that as a knock against your husband. He has his own comfort levels and they were obviously pushed.

There is nothing you could do to disappoint me. You did what you had to. I find it more upsetting that you are disappointed that you did not get to try the things you wanted. You had some personal concerns, but if your husband had not been with you, you would have been free to try the things you liked. Don't be disappointed with yourself for not trying, be happy with what you learned and the connections you made. there will be other times.

The last thing about the rape scene, certainly is a mixed message and certainly you have every right to feel confused. Perhaps he was trying to shock you or perhaps after he thought about it a while, he found something he liked. Or perhaps he was trying to make an offering to you with something he felt he could do since he seemed so uncomfortable with a lot of the ideas of electric play etc.

Anyways just some things to consider.

Remember, I if was there with you, you would have had a hell of a lot of encouragement. Especially with the white undies.

Raven

Thanks Raven!

I hate to feel I didn't live up to the full potential of the situation last night or for that matter any situation. I can't blame my darling for my decisions, not really. Those were the decisions I made for a lot of reasons. If I had gone alone I honestly don't know what decisions I might have made then, it might have been the same, I might have done less or more. *shrugs*

Anyway, I did learn a lot. I am so glad I went even though I felt so guilty about all this that I couldn't come when we scened at home last night. If I had to do it all over again, I'm not sure I'd change anything though to be honest. In many ways I felt I made the right decisions.

My husband is usually uncomfortable with most new things. Sometimes he warms up to things. At this point I don't think there is any doubt that I am much more into BDSM than he is. It's a really deep thing for me.

Fury