Depression. It's a silent killer.

I would like to chat about a big problem that not too many people discuss. Sorry to be a downer. But there are too many people out there who are dying because they are depressed. I suffer from depression (not sure why) but I wouldn't think of killing myself. I've always been told that is a perminant solution to a temporary problem. I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know.
I know why I am down. And it is NOT a killer or I would not be here anymore. more dr lies
 
I was diagnosed with PDD with disthymia some 14 months ago following therapy and it's shocking to realise I've been dealing with this for 24 years now.

Having the diagnosis is a major help - along with the ongoing therapy - as for awhile I thought I'd completely lost my mind.

Depression is a bastard - don't let anyone tell you otherwise. I know therapy (CBT and IPT) aren't the way for some folks but it worked for me.
I had that diagnosis -- dysthemia. Now it is major depression.
 
Morning all. My life has settled into a hurry up and wait holding pattern. I hate that.

I hope you have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
It's been over a week since I last posted on this thread, and at least a couple days since I posted on the forum at all. A new project has been keeping me quite busy, a fun but challenging one!

That being said, once I'm done with said project, I don't really intend to go back to posting on the forum at all. I've come to realize that the validation I seek can never come from here, I know, it's crazy to even think that I ever could find it here at all. I have to be my own source of validation, God knows I get it nowhere else, not even in my personal life. I was heading in a positive direction but relapsed, and relapsed hard.

I have no hard feelings toward anyone. I am not owed validation from others, nor will I beg for it. This is something I have to provide for myself, checking to see if people respond to my DMs and feeling let down that they haven't will only hinder me. I can't keep being so desperate for a connection that I get my expectations up so high only to have them come crashing down. I'm not supposed to desire connections, "having" SPD, but I'm beginning to suspect that the doctor who diagnosed me as a Schizoid was full of shit.

So who knows when or if I will ever post anything on the forum again. Again, no hard feelings to anyone, this is just something I need to work away from here. To all of you who post on this thread, who fight this depression shit, I hope all of you find the peace of mind you deserve, you deserve the best!

Take care, much love, and peace to you all!
 
Boundaries. Mine are being challenged every day. It’s like being threatened when someone keeps pushing at you. Then you’re the asshole for pushing back. I’m wondering how long I can be in this situation until I have to move.

Be safe out there.
Love you
 
Sunday. Always the most boring day of the week.
I hope you have the best day you can.
Be safe out there.
Love you.
 
It's a national UK holiday today. The plan is getting away from the struggle by being out in the country. Out in the wilds is some welcome serenity. Especially as I aim to be surveying for butterflies and roosting moths.

And I shall be trying out my new Flow unit. It stimulates part of the brain with electrical impulses. Reputed to help with depression, so will be reading the instructions and starting with that...
 
My surgery is tomorrow and its all I can think about. It's outpatient surgery, but I'm still pretty scared. My usual distractions aren't working. Today has been another day that I just have to endure and I know I'm not going to sleep tonight.
 
My work wants me to call the EAP line due to some things I've said. I told them starting out 136 man hours short, then getting the people we need and constantly averaging 45 hours a week for couple months burns people out. On top of that, from February to June, no vacation requests will be approved. They want to know why I have an attitude. Had one from corporate flat out ask why I'm so negative.
 
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