Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[BiBunny]

My mom bought my broke ass some groceries today. Then, my friend at the metaphysical store made me a tea that's supposed to help lower blood pressure. (I'm drinking it now; it's really damn good.) While I was picking up my tea, she gave me the contact info for a lady who wants some crochet commissions. I have to email her in a bit, then go to work.

All in all, not a bad day.

 

[BiBunny]

Got a couple of things accomplished already. The only downside is my bp is currently 188/100.

 

[Saythewords]

Sorry to keep updating today, guys!

I went for my walk again today. I skipped yesterday, but I did Monday, Tuesday, and today.

God, it was tough today. I don't know what my problem was, but I was almost completely exhausted at the end of a quarter mile. I almost gave up. It took everything I had to drag my fat ass around that track a second time to make the half mile.

But I did. No clue why it was so difficult today. My blood pressure is near-normal and has been all day, but now my legs feel like someone dipped them in concrete!

It's embarrassing how out of shape I am.

Not embarrassing. You pushed and finished. That’s nothing to be embarrassed about

 

[NuclearFairy]

Got a couple of things accomplished already. The only downside is my bp is currently 188/100.

At first I wanted to react with a and then I felt it needed a so you get this message instead.

 

[BiBunny]

So either I'm doing something wrong when I take it, or my cuff is wrong, or my bp is EXTREMELY FUCKING SCREWY because it was 110/69 a little while ago.

Anyway, I went to the park and did my walking. It involved a hit of the albuterol inhaler, but I was able to do three laps today for a total of 3/4ths of a mile. I'm pretty sure my legs would've held out for another lap, but by that time, my back was hurting, so I decided not to push my luck.

Came home, made a no-bake cheesecake, and now I'm relaxing in the bathtub. I'll go back to work before too long.

Thank God the bp came down!

 

[BiBunny]

Bp has been all over the place today. Last I checked (maybe 20 minutes ago), it was back up to 164/104. There is either something wrong with me, or the bp cuff I have is inaccurate. I don't know which one it is, but it has to be one or the other to explain the wild fluctuation.

I'm gonna head to bed and hope it comes down. There are two bp meds in my nighttime medications, and I just took those, so hopefully, it'll cooperate.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Bp has been all over the place today. Last I checked (maybe 20 minutes ago), it was back up to 164/104. There is either something wrong with me, or the bp cuff I have is inaccurate. I don't know which one it is, but it has to be one or the other to explain the wild fluctuation.

I'm gonna head to bed and hope it comes down. There are two bp meds in my nighttime medications, and I just took those, so hopefully, it'll cooperate.

Do you have any stores near you with one of the BP chairs?

 

[BiBunny]

Do you have any stores near you with one of the BP chairs?

I do, but I wasn't smart enough to think of that. May do that today and see what's up with it.

 

[NuclearFairy]

I do, but I wasn't smart enough to think of that. May do that today and see what's up with it.

If you can, bring a long your own as well so you can do an in store comparison.

 

[BiBunny]

So my dad is financing us a trip to the beach this week. I'm just gonna tag (brokely) along. Made the reservations today. Going to my parents' house Wednesday evening and leaving from there Thursday morning. (They're farther south than I am.) Will be home Sunday, but will keep yall posted in the meantime.

 

[BiBunny]

Well, the inevitable crash from not taking the antidepressants for several days came again.

I feel damned if I do and damned if I don't. Not taking them doesn't seem to improve the bp very much. So what do I do? Take them and risk a stroke? Don't take them, feel like shit, and still risk a stroke?

I can't even just call the stupid clinic and ask someone to advise me. I tried that last time and got told I had to make an appointment. I don't have the funds for another appointment and more medication and God knows what else.

So what do I do, again? It's 177/97 right now. I know that's not emergency level bp, but still. If it goes up more, do I fucking go to urgent care and hope it's cheaper than the emergency room that I know I can't go to because I would literally be in debt the rest of my life? (Yes, I know they offer payment plans and reduced rates for the uninsured, but having to pay 40% of tens of thousands of dollars is still way more money than I'm ever gonna have.) Do I just keep my broke ass at home and lay in bed and hope it goes down?

This country sucks, and this state sucks worse. At least in (some) other states, they try to sort of mitigate how much the federal government doesn't give a fuck. Here, they just double down on it. If you're poor in Alabama, they just want you to die and not bother them.

And even though I try not to think about it, I've been having pain in the area of my kidneys for several months now. It's always there and never goes away. So I wouldn't be shocked if they're crapping out on me, between the high bp and the diabetes. But I can't really afford any tests, so that's going to have to be a problem for future me.

Yes, I'm aware I'm being pessimistic because I'm spiraling without the meds. But even when I'm on them, the future is still pretty bleak for my broke ass.

I'm sorry I can't do better today. It's taken all I've got not to just break down in tears over all this shit. I'll try to do better tomorrow, but I think I'm just gonna take my night meds and go to bed. Today has sucked.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Well, the inevitable crash from not taking the antidepressants for several days came again.

I feel damned if I do and damned if I don't. Not taking them doesn't seem to improve the bp very much. So what do I do? Take them and risk a stroke? Don't take them, feel like shit, and still risk a stroke?

I can't even just call the stupid clinic and ask someone to advise me. I tried that last time and got told I had to make an appointment. I don't have the funds for another appointment and more medication and God knows what else.

So what do I do, again? It's 177/97 right now. I know that's not emergency level bp, but still. If it goes up more, do I fucking go to urgent care and hope it's cheaper than the emergency room that I know I can't go to because I would literally be in debt the rest of my life? (Yes, I know they offer payment plans and reduced rates for the uninsured, but having to pay 40% of tens of thousands of dollars is still way more money than I'm ever gonna have.) Do I just keep my broke ass at home and lay in bed and hope it goes down?

This country sucks, and this state sucks worse. At least in (some) other states, they try to sort of mitigate how much the federal government doesn't give a fuck. Here, they just double down on it. If you're poor in Alabama, they just want you to die and not bother them.

And even though I try not to think about it, I've been having pain in the area of my kidneys for several months now. It's always there and never goes away. So I wouldn't be shocked if they're crapping out on me, between the high bp and the diabetes. But I can't really afford any tests, so that's going to have to be a problem for future me.

Yes, I'm aware I'm being pessimistic because I'm spiraling without the meds. But even when I'm on them, the future is still pretty bleak for my broke ass.

I'm sorry I can't do better today. It's taken all I've got not to just break down in tears over all this shit. I'll try to do better tomorrow, but I think I'm just gonna take my night meds and go to bed. Today has sucked.

Occasionally when I'm researching for my stories, I'll encounter medical sites with free chat consultations. I can't remember the names of those sites, but it would be worth looking into if you have no other option.

 

[BiBunny]

Occasionally when I'm researching for my stories, I'll encounter medical sites with free chat consultations. I can't remember the names of those sites, but it would be worth looking into if you have no other option.

I may have to. I am foregoing NSAIDs, two antidepressants (which is going exactly as well as you think it would), caffeine, and albuterol, all of which I really kinda need, and it's still high as a giraffe's ass.

 

[BiBunny]

My crochet work is gonna be featured in a (local) magazine!

 

[BiBunny]

My crochet work is gonna be featured in a (local) magazine!

Well, "featured" is the wrong word. "Pictured with a credit to me" is more like it. Sorry, I worded that badly.

 

[BiBunny]

We made it to the hotel. It's still another ten or so miles to the actual beach. I'm resting my back from the drive, then we're going back out, lol.

 

[BiBunny]

The first two are from yesterday, and the last three are from this morning.

The first one is near one of the jetties. The second is under one of the bridges, where my dad wants to go fishing. And the last three are from the Gulf State Park Pier. (Sorry, guys, a photographer, I am not.)

 

[BiBunny]

Yes, I am a pirate, 200 years too late. The cannons don't thunder; there's nothing to plunder. I'm an over-40 victim of fate, arriving too late...arriving too late....

 

[BiBunny]

Ok, so, y'all, I have a new mission in life.

Sailboats, used ones, the kind you can live on, are apparently dirt-cheap. A boat slip on the bay is less per month than my rent.

I might be able to become a pirate, after all!!!

 

[NuclearFairy]

Ok, so, y'all, I have a new mission in life.

Sailboats, used ones, the kind you can live on, are apparently dirt-cheap. A boat slip on the bay is less per month than my rent.

I might be able to become a pirate, after all!!!

I used to want a house boat when I was a teen. But such things are crazy expensive where I used to live.

 

[BiBunny]

If any of these pics turned out ok, it was an accident. Like I said, I'm no photographer. But it's beautiful here, and nighttime is the best time to go to the beach, in my opinion.

 

[BiBunny]

I love the ocean, and I love being here. And I'm not trying to be ungrateful. But if listening to my dad bitch about something CONSTANTLY is the price I have to pay to come down here, I'd just about rather stay at home.

Yes, I know complaining is what old men do, and I also know he's probably depressed, as old people often are. But that does not make it any easier to deal with. We're in one of the most beautiful places in the world. I don't want to listen to you spoil it by bitching about food prices, traffic, and (mostly) my mother. I came to get away from my troubles, not harp on them, ffs.

We're sitting by the Intracoastal Waterway now. He's fishing, and I'm just sitting. Going back to the beach/pier a bit later. Wish I didn't have to go back tomorrow, but alas, I do.

I was born to live on/by the water, but forced to live six hours away from it.

 

[13Fantasies]

Ok, so, y'all, I have a new mission in life.

Sailboats, used ones, the kind you can live on, are apparently dirt-cheap. A boat slip on the bay is less per month than my rent.

I might be able to become a pirate, after all!!!

One of my friends just bought a house boat and is refurbishing it. She says its great

 

[M4titties]

I love the ocean, and I love being here. And I'm not trying to be ungrateful. But if listening to my dad bitch about something CONSTANTLY is the price I have to pay to come down here, I'd just about rather stay at home.

Yes, I know complaining is what old men do, and I also know he's probably depressed, as old people often are. But that does not make it any easier to deal with. We're in one of the most beautiful places in the world. I don't want to listen to you spoil it by bitching about food prices, traffic, and (mostly) my mother. I came to get away from my troubles, not harp on them, ffs.

We're sitting by the Intracoastal Waterway now. He's fishing, and I'm just sitting. Going back to the beach/pier a bit later. Wish I didn't have to go back tomorrow, but alas, I do.

I was born to live on/by the water, but forced to live six hours away from it.

I love water. I feel like I could be a fish in it. Sorry your dad is being so depressing.

 

[BiBunny]

Well, we have to go back today.

I wish running away to sea were still a valid option!