ChasNicollette
Allons-y Means Let's Go.
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"Lift Your Burdens Up"
He was beautiful.
He cleaned her. Cleaned inside of her, even, and her whole body trembled at the alien, mystic, wholly unprecedented sensation of living breathing Water moving within secret, treasured places...
(...she thought, for an instant, that she might climax again, clutching the seat-backs for dear life, might climax again just from the thought and the feel of his Waterbending inside of her...
...she didn't, perhaps obviously, didn't climax again just from that. But she thought for a moment that she could have...)
"There, all done." The water tribesman softly announced as he retracted the stream of bending material, smiling up at the Earth girl as he deposited this portion of liquid into his pouch which remained on one of the numerous seats around them, "Hope that wasn't too weird for you? But I figured it's the most, well, thorough way of cleaning each other up before getting dressed to leave."
"Right," she breathed, her voice a chuckle in the background of disorientation and incredulity. "Very practical. Very efficient."
I want you to do that again very soon.
"Not, uh, too weird."
And then the shoe was on the other foot for a moment as he gave himself the same treatment and she almost laughed aloud at the look on his face...
She didn't. Laugh at him. But she thought for a moment that she could have.
"OK, that certainly was....interesting." Ryota begrudgingly admitted as he again smiled at Xia, only this time with a hint of a smirk on the corner of his lips while he again deposited of the final amount of bending water he pulled out earlier.
Her smirk mirrored his, and a twinkle danced in the Earthen depths of her eyes. "'Interesting.' Yeah, that must've been the word I was looking for."
From there, it was only a matter of getting dressed...
She stole secret glances at him while they did this. And she wondered, not for the first time, not for the last time, what he was thinking. Airbender, Waterbender, what she wouldn't give to be a Mindbender, to peer through the veil that kept his thoughts private. Wondered what he thought of her, that she would give herself up so willingly to him with only a modicum of acquaintance...
Wondered if he really was as good as he seemed.
She thought so. She thought so.
She'd panic later, if he wasn't.
And then, just as they'd stood together naked moments previously, they stood together clothed.
"Shall we? I'm pretty sure we could both go for a good nights sleep after the day we've been through." The young man suggested after he strapped the water pouch around his waist; making for the last article of clothing or personal belonging which he brought into the theatre.
Xia smiled a little smile. "I could go for a good year's sleep, really. After the day we've been through. But I'll take a night's, if that's what's on offer."
She paused, though, and glanced up towards the front of the theatre, curiosity killing the bearded cat, something still bothering her from earlier... "Um. Just. One quick sec."
She considered just jumping the distance, but before she quite considered it she was already weaving her way through the rows of seats up towards the front. She paused, there, behind the seats of honour that had been installed up at the first row, and examined the engravings on the backs thereof. In particular, she scrutinised the characters which she'd not been able to make sense of from the greater distance. The name of the person to whom this place had ostensibly been dedicated.
'For Ursa.'
She wondered who Ursa was. Who Ursa was to them who'd commissioned this place? Wife? Mother? Daughter-in-law?
She wondered. She ran her fingers over the character of the name.
And she smiled softly, and murmured, under her breath: "Hope I've not offended you, Ursa, with our, um, borrowing this place."
"Thank you for letting me find happiness here. Happiness and... happiness and a good man. For however long it lasts... for whatever it winds up signifying... I'll always be grateful to you for this one moment."
"(Thank you.)"
...and then she straightened, and hurried sheepishly back to Ryota's side.
"Um. Sorry. Just had to. Pay my respects to our hostess."
Once they were ready, Ryota led the way out of the theatre, hesitantly pushing open the door which led out of the room and peaking about in a brief attempt to avoid any questions from potentially curious passerby's. While the water tribesman held no shame or regret over what they did, he wasn't exactly in a hurry for anyone to discover any details such as the whereabouts of where it took place. It was an ultimately halfhearted attempt, however, as he promptly led the way out of the room; closing the door behind them before starting to lead Xia toward his temporary bedroom.
Idle chit chat was shared along the way. Nothing too personal, which meant the majority of it was about the Palace itself and perhaps a few general questions about the living conditions in their respective Nations. The pair eventually did reach the doorway of his room as Ryota promptly took hold of the handle, pulled open the door and stood by while allowing Xia to enter first in a gentlemanly manner.
The room was dim, and not dark.
It seemed subtly and profoundly warmer than the room from which she'd fled to sit alone and frantic on the roof of the Palace. But otherwise it was very much the same.
"Ta-da! Probably not much different from the room assigned to you. Basic bed, small table, closet, dresser and armchair combination. Only with myself thrown into the mix, of course."
"What's the word?" she murmured softly, contemplating him, contemplating his room, her thoughts more like ghosts than concrete concepts, wondering little irrational philosophies. "'Imbue.'"
I think, Ryota, that you imbue this room with something.
The same kind of maddening mysterious something that's so aggravating and so endearing about you. That's so infuriatingly delightful about you.
You make this room better just by being in it.
I rather thought you might.
Then again, there was only one bed.
"Um, I'm not sure how you feel about the sleeping arrangements, but I'm fine with having the floor for the night." The young man offered as he reached a hand behind his head to rub at his neck; letting out a brief chuckle while also offering up a genuine, reassuring smile as he spoke honestly of his sleeping habits, "Trust me, after some of the places I've slept during my years in both the Northern and Southern Water Tribes, a soft and carpeted surface in a place like this is a luxury."
Giving a slight shrug of his shoulders, Ryota gazed over at the young woman, fully prepared to respect any wishes she may have when it comes to their arrangements for the night as he assured the girl, "Whatever you feel the most comfortable with doing, Xia."
Reservations and bewilderment flooded Xia's face at exactly the same moment that they flooded her Spirit. Because she really did. Want to be near him. She really did not want to be away from him. Wanted to be in sight of him, wanted him in sight of her.
But at the same time, she needed space. She needed... she needed elbow room.
She needed to watch this man and to decipher him and to see if he was a good man after all, as if she could possibly do that. But he had comforted her and he was comforting to her and she couldn't be away from that, not now, not yet.
She crossed her arms over her stomach and her face crumpled with the effort of thinking...
"Maybe. Maybe that's not such. A bad idea. I just. I mean, I've slept on my share of floors and rooftops, I could sleep on the floor..."
A pang of pure selfishness shot through her and while she felt ashamed of this, she couldn't deny it, either. She gnawed her lower lip-- rather than his shoulder --and she nodded quietly.
"Um. Yes. If that's okay with you. I'll take the bed. And... and you'll take the floor. And if we're both okay with that, then that'll be, ah, that'll be okay."
She went up on tip-toes and she kissed him softly on the cheek, though she was hardly certain what such a gesture should mean to herself, let alone to him. "Ryota. Thank you. For... for everything. Um. Sleep, um, sleep well, I guess? And I'll see you in the morning."
Xia found her way into bed, though, really, she just curled up atop the covers, unwilling to shed her recently-donned clothing and unwilling to fully dirty his sheets with her scuffed up stained clothing...
She lay on the bed and she watched him.
She watched him as he lay on the floor, watched him as he lapsed into unconsciousness. And for a time, before sleep claimed her wild brain also, before dream found her, she watched him as he slept.
She didn't love him.
Not now.
Not yet.
But she thought for a moment that she could do.
Her eyes sank closed, and he was the last thing she saw...
...and when she opened her eyes again, there in the time of dawn not-quite gathered, she was alone.
She sat up with a start, bewildered, instantly stung that he would part from her without a word, instantly panicking that he'd already packed up and made haste for the Far North where she could never ever find him.
Fuck.
But then she saw the outfit. Hanging there by the door to his room. And there was a note pinned to it.
Yeah, fuck. As in: 'What the...?'
...she rose to her feet and she crossed the room in an eyeblink.
There detailed, in a servant's hand, shaped by neat and formal calligraphy, was an explanation. There were funeral services, for all who had been... for all whose possibilities had cried out and then fallen silent... And all still living were invited, no matter the Nation, all were guests of The Royal Family.
And they had seen fit to provide the injured with a modicum of formal-wear, because one could hardly stagger into a royal funeral wearing Lower Ring scraps, especially ones torn by battle.
...and the services were starting...
She looked again at the sky, the particular shade of dark slate grey it had turned.
The services were starting like right now.
(Must be where he's gone. Chivalrous. Of course he's gone to honour the dead.
I should honour the dead.
Them that cling to life should ever honour the dead.)
She tore her way out of her clothes and bit her lip as she reached for this new outfit.
What the Hell am I gonna do with my hair?
...the ground flew past under her sandals as she ran.
She ran not at Airbent speed, not at full tilt, but as fast as powerful legs would carry her.
The Ocean seemed quite far away, and she was still struggling to pin up her own improvised updo as she went. She looked borderline shabby, but that was at least borderline notshabby, so maybe that was okay. Maybe that was okay.
She saw them there.
Priests and Royals at the head of it, at the edge of The Ocean itself, and the head priest-looking fellow was intoning, reciting, invoking...
Xia hesitated.
Her dark eyes danced through the crowd, flitted. She could see The Dragon up front, wearing the uniform in which he'd freed Ba Sing Se. But he was there with his family, she couldn't infringe on that.
Where was he, where was he, where was the maddening idiot with whom she'd found such strange peace the preceding night...
...and there. She found him.
Dressed in similar formal garbs, though standing with The Water Tribes' contingent.
Looking, well, like a fish out of Water.
And she smiled softly at the sight of him, and she shook her head in wonder.
She wondered what she saw in him. But at the same time, she knew she saw it...
Quietly and as unintrusively as she could manage, she wove through the crowd. Again, it would be so much easier just to jump the distance, but she would cause such an uproar, cause so much dishonour.
She found him, then. They were dressed alike. The same colours.
Though his eyes were still as blue.
She ached to talk to him. This was so awkward that it was actually tangibly physically painful. She wanted to ask him what he was thinking, she couldn't Mindbend any more than she could Earthbend.
She wanted to tell him what she was thinking.
Wanted to tell him that she might not love him yet. But she could. And probably would, if they got half a chance.
But she didn't have the words for it, and she couldn't have said any of them even if she had had them, because they were at a funeral and she didn't dare even whisper.
The head priest guy finished his sermon, and Xia felt a thrum of guilt because she hadn't heard a word.
And then The Sun rose. And the men Bent Fire upon the departed beloved.
And without a word, because she had no words and could speak none, Xia slipped her hand into Ryota's hand and held it tight. Held on to him.
Xia held Ryota's hand. And she hoped to gods and Spirits and forces and powers and Buddhas and The Universe that in the absence of words, this would be enough.
She held his hand and hoped this said it all.
She was alive, and she honoured the dead, and she held Ryota's hand.
It is written:
'Neither fire, nor moisture, nor wind
can destroy the blessing of good deeds,
and blessings enlighten the whole world.'
'Neither fire, nor moisture, nor wind
can destroy the blessing of good deeds,
and blessings enlighten the whole world.'
-from The Gospel of Buddha.
He was beautiful.
He cleaned her. Cleaned inside of her, even, and her whole body trembled at the alien, mystic, wholly unprecedented sensation of living breathing Water moving within secret, treasured places...
(...she thought, for an instant, that she might climax again, clutching the seat-backs for dear life, might climax again just from the thought and the feel of his Waterbending inside of her...
...she didn't, perhaps obviously, didn't climax again just from that. But she thought for a moment that she could have...)
"There, all done." The water tribesman softly announced as he retracted the stream of bending material, smiling up at the Earth girl as he deposited this portion of liquid into his pouch which remained on one of the numerous seats around them, "Hope that wasn't too weird for you? But I figured it's the most, well, thorough way of cleaning each other up before getting dressed to leave."
"Right," she breathed, her voice a chuckle in the background of disorientation and incredulity. "Very practical. Very efficient."
I want you to do that again very soon.
"Not, uh, too weird."
And then the shoe was on the other foot for a moment as he gave himself the same treatment and she almost laughed aloud at the look on his face...
She didn't. Laugh at him. But she thought for a moment that she could have.
"OK, that certainly was....interesting." Ryota begrudgingly admitted as he again smiled at Xia, only this time with a hint of a smirk on the corner of his lips while he again deposited of the final amount of bending water he pulled out earlier.
Her smirk mirrored his, and a twinkle danced in the Earthen depths of her eyes. "'Interesting.' Yeah, that must've been the word I was looking for."
From there, it was only a matter of getting dressed...
She stole secret glances at him while they did this. And she wondered, not for the first time, not for the last time, what he was thinking. Airbender, Waterbender, what she wouldn't give to be a Mindbender, to peer through the veil that kept his thoughts private. Wondered what he thought of her, that she would give herself up so willingly to him with only a modicum of acquaintance...
Wondered if he really was as good as he seemed.
She thought so. She thought so.
She'd panic later, if he wasn't.
And then, just as they'd stood together naked moments previously, they stood together clothed.
"Shall we? I'm pretty sure we could both go for a good nights sleep after the day we've been through." The young man suggested after he strapped the water pouch around his waist; making for the last article of clothing or personal belonging which he brought into the theatre.
Xia smiled a little smile. "I could go for a good year's sleep, really. After the day we've been through. But I'll take a night's, if that's what's on offer."
She paused, though, and glanced up towards the front of the theatre, curiosity killing the bearded cat, something still bothering her from earlier... "Um. Just. One quick sec."
She considered just jumping the distance, but before she quite considered it she was already weaving her way through the rows of seats up towards the front. She paused, there, behind the seats of honour that had been installed up at the first row, and examined the engravings on the backs thereof. In particular, she scrutinised the characters which she'd not been able to make sense of from the greater distance. The name of the person to whom this place had ostensibly been dedicated.
'For Ursa.'
She wondered who Ursa was. Who Ursa was to them who'd commissioned this place? Wife? Mother? Daughter-in-law?
She wondered. She ran her fingers over the character of the name.
And she smiled softly, and murmured, under her breath: "Hope I've not offended you, Ursa, with our, um, borrowing this place."
"Thank you for letting me find happiness here. Happiness and... happiness and a good man. For however long it lasts... for whatever it winds up signifying... I'll always be grateful to you for this one moment."
"(Thank you.)"
...and then she straightened, and hurried sheepishly back to Ryota's side.
"Um. Sorry. Just had to. Pay my respects to our hostess."
Once they were ready, Ryota led the way out of the theatre, hesitantly pushing open the door which led out of the room and peaking about in a brief attempt to avoid any questions from potentially curious passerby's. While the water tribesman held no shame or regret over what they did, he wasn't exactly in a hurry for anyone to discover any details such as the whereabouts of where it took place. It was an ultimately halfhearted attempt, however, as he promptly led the way out of the room; closing the door behind them before starting to lead Xia toward his temporary bedroom.
Idle chit chat was shared along the way. Nothing too personal, which meant the majority of it was about the Palace itself and perhaps a few general questions about the living conditions in their respective Nations. The pair eventually did reach the doorway of his room as Ryota promptly took hold of the handle, pulled open the door and stood by while allowing Xia to enter first in a gentlemanly manner.
The room was dim, and not dark.
It seemed subtly and profoundly warmer than the room from which she'd fled to sit alone and frantic on the roof of the Palace. But otherwise it was very much the same.
"Ta-da! Probably not much different from the room assigned to you. Basic bed, small table, closet, dresser and armchair combination. Only with myself thrown into the mix, of course."
"What's the word?" she murmured softly, contemplating him, contemplating his room, her thoughts more like ghosts than concrete concepts, wondering little irrational philosophies. "'Imbue.'"
I think, Ryota, that you imbue this room with something.
The same kind of maddening mysterious something that's so aggravating and so endearing about you. That's so infuriatingly delightful about you.
You make this room better just by being in it.
I rather thought you might.
Then again, there was only one bed.
"Um, I'm not sure how you feel about the sleeping arrangements, but I'm fine with having the floor for the night." The young man offered as he reached a hand behind his head to rub at his neck; letting out a brief chuckle while also offering up a genuine, reassuring smile as he spoke honestly of his sleeping habits, "Trust me, after some of the places I've slept during my years in both the Northern and Southern Water Tribes, a soft and carpeted surface in a place like this is a luxury."
Giving a slight shrug of his shoulders, Ryota gazed over at the young woman, fully prepared to respect any wishes she may have when it comes to their arrangements for the night as he assured the girl, "Whatever you feel the most comfortable with doing, Xia."
Reservations and bewilderment flooded Xia's face at exactly the same moment that they flooded her Spirit. Because she really did. Want to be near him. She really did not want to be away from him. Wanted to be in sight of him, wanted him in sight of her.
But at the same time, she needed space. She needed... she needed elbow room.
She needed to watch this man and to decipher him and to see if he was a good man after all, as if she could possibly do that. But he had comforted her and he was comforting to her and she couldn't be away from that, not now, not yet.
She crossed her arms over her stomach and her face crumpled with the effort of thinking...
"Maybe. Maybe that's not such. A bad idea. I just. I mean, I've slept on my share of floors and rooftops, I could sleep on the floor..."
A pang of pure selfishness shot through her and while she felt ashamed of this, she couldn't deny it, either. She gnawed her lower lip-- rather than his shoulder --and she nodded quietly.
"Um. Yes. If that's okay with you. I'll take the bed. And... and you'll take the floor. And if we're both okay with that, then that'll be, ah, that'll be okay."
She went up on tip-toes and she kissed him softly on the cheek, though she was hardly certain what such a gesture should mean to herself, let alone to him. "Ryota. Thank you. For... for everything. Um. Sleep, um, sleep well, I guess? And I'll see you in the morning."
Xia found her way into bed, though, really, she just curled up atop the covers, unwilling to shed her recently-donned clothing and unwilling to fully dirty his sheets with her scuffed up stained clothing...
She lay on the bed and she watched him.
She watched him as he lay on the floor, watched him as he lapsed into unconsciousness. And for a time, before sleep claimed her wild brain also, before dream found her, she watched him as he slept.
She didn't love him.
Not now.
Not yet.
But she thought for a moment that she could do.
Her eyes sank closed, and he was the last thing she saw...
********
...and when she opened her eyes again, there in the time of dawn not-quite gathered, she was alone.
She sat up with a start, bewildered, instantly stung that he would part from her without a word, instantly panicking that he'd already packed up and made haste for the Far North where she could never ever find him.
Fuck.
But then she saw the outfit. Hanging there by the door to his room. And there was a note pinned to it.
Yeah, fuck. As in: 'What the...?'
...she rose to her feet and she crossed the room in an eyeblink.
There detailed, in a servant's hand, shaped by neat and formal calligraphy, was an explanation. There were funeral services, for all who had been... for all whose possibilities had cried out and then fallen silent... And all still living were invited, no matter the Nation, all were guests of The Royal Family.
And they had seen fit to provide the injured with a modicum of formal-wear, because one could hardly stagger into a royal funeral wearing Lower Ring scraps, especially ones torn by battle.
...and the services were starting...
She looked again at the sky, the particular shade of dark slate grey it had turned.
The services were starting like right now.
(Must be where he's gone. Chivalrous. Of course he's gone to honour the dead.
I should honour the dead.
Them that cling to life should ever honour the dead.)
She tore her way out of her clothes and bit her lip as she reached for this new outfit.
What the Hell am I gonna do with my hair?
...the ground flew past under her sandals as she ran.
She ran not at Airbent speed, not at full tilt, but as fast as powerful legs would carry her.
The Ocean seemed quite far away, and she was still struggling to pin up her own improvised updo as she went. She looked borderline shabby, but that was at least borderline notshabby, so maybe that was okay. Maybe that was okay.
She saw them there.
Priests and Royals at the head of it, at the edge of The Ocean itself, and the head priest-looking fellow was intoning, reciting, invoking...
Xia hesitated.
Her dark eyes danced through the crowd, flitted. She could see The Dragon up front, wearing the uniform in which he'd freed Ba Sing Se. But he was there with his family, she couldn't infringe on that.
Where was he, where was he, where was the maddening idiot with whom she'd found such strange peace the preceding night...
...and there. She found him.
Dressed in similar formal garbs, though standing with The Water Tribes' contingent.
Looking, well, like a fish out of Water.
And she smiled softly at the sight of him, and she shook her head in wonder.
She wondered what she saw in him. But at the same time, she knew she saw it...
Quietly and as unintrusively as she could manage, she wove through the crowd. Again, it would be so much easier just to jump the distance, but she would cause such an uproar, cause so much dishonour.
She found him, then. They were dressed alike. The same colours.
Though his eyes were still as blue.
She ached to talk to him. This was so awkward that it was actually tangibly physically painful. She wanted to ask him what he was thinking, she couldn't Mindbend any more than she could Earthbend.
She wanted to tell him what she was thinking.
Wanted to tell him that she might not love him yet. But she could. And probably would, if they got half a chance.
But she didn't have the words for it, and she couldn't have said any of them even if she had had them, because they were at a funeral and she didn't dare even whisper.
The head priest guy finished his sermon, and Xia felt a thrum of guilt because she hadn't heard a word.
And then The Sun rose. And the men Bent Fire upon the departed beloved.
And without a word, because she had no words and could speak none, Xia slipped her hand into Ryota's hand and held it tight. Held on to him.
Xia held Ryota's hand. And she hoped to gods and Spirits and forces and powers and Buddhas and The Universe that in the absence of words, this would be enough.
She held his hand and hoped this said it all.
She was alive, and she honoured the dead, and she held Ryota's hand.