Mephistophelily
Crazy is...
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He was holding her hand. Even if it was to simply help her to her feet, he was holding her hand. Toph rather liked that. She smiled, standing and refusing to let go. "The shoes," she explained softly as she gestured downward. "Hard to see with the shoes. I'm just.. gonna... keep holding onto you."
Just as Kurzen. She understood that. Some time as just Toph was nice too. But- not too much of Toph. She hadn't shown him her full 'old' self, the one who used to train Aang, the one who figured a tromp through a cloud of dirt was a perfectly acceptable stand-in for a bath, the one who never thought anyone would ever look at her the way he did.
But...
He did.
She had figured she would never understand it. Never know it was happening. After all, she couldn't see other people's faces. She could never get a glimpse of that first look of admiration, that moment of fascination. And she would never be able to have one of her own. At least, that's what she had truly believed. Until he showed up. And thanks to Katara- pesky, annoying, Sugarqueen Katara- she was trying so hard to be what she hoped he wanted. She was never like this before. She never cared before...
"Something wrong, Kurzen?" She raised her head slightly, frowning as she heard him sigh. She clenched his hand a bit tighter. He had asked to not speak of the war, of the events taking place outside these walls. He wasn't a General now, she wasn't a Queen. But still.
Her fingers slipped between his, clutching them.
I know.
When he finally spoke, her smile fell for a brief moment. About her? "Oh, you know. Just typical Earth Kingdom girl, that's me..." She laughed at that, a forced one that barely lasted a few seconds. "My parents... were rich. Doted on me left and right. Treated me like I was going to break, like a little porcelain doll, just because I was blind. Ohh, I thought they went nuts after the whole thing with Aang... When Bumi sent for me? I thought their heads were going to explode... But they got thinking on it, thought it would help to keep me from doing crazy things anymore. I don't think they paid attention to King Bumi's track record very well." She smiled with that, a remincing look on her face. "That crazy old man..." She trailed off, sighing a bit before squeezing again.
"I don't think of myself as a Queen. I'm.... a seat filler. Who has to make decisions once in awhile. Sometimes they work out well. Sometimes- not so much. Advisers are useful then." She groaned suddenly, placing her free hand against her forehead. "Oh man... I'm doing it... I'm sorry. I'm going off on a status rant. I shouldn't be- I mean- ahh. You asked about me. Not all that."
Honesty.
Go for it.
Trying to lie about who you are is only going to cause trouble. You'll slip at some point, unable to hide your true nature. Just tell him.
"I like dirt. I like dirt, I like messes, I like to have mud and grass and rocks all over the place. It's all beautiful to me. It's what I know. It's my element, literally. Not just because I can bend it, but because its the only part of the world I can understand. I feel most comfortable delved into it. This? I wish it were me. I really do." She ran her hand against the dress, shaking her head. "I do it for awhile. For appearances and stuff. And yeah, it can be nice. For a time. But to do it all the time- I can't. I just can't. I'm not like Katara; I'm not the typical girly-girl. I just.... I dunno. I'm just me. I don't know what I'd be labelled as."
She frowned, biting at her lower lip. That may have been way too much to just spout off like that. her hand started to release his, Toph unsure on if he'd still want to hold it after all that. "I'm not the type of girl people would expect a General to be interested in," she added softly, closing her eyes.
Just as Kurzen. She understood that. Some time as just Toph was nice too. But- not too much of Toph. She hadn't shown him her full 'old' self, the one who used to train Aang, the one who figured a tromp through a cloud of dirt was a perfectly acceptable stand-in for a bath, the one who never thought anyone would ever look at her the way he did.
But...
He did.
She had figured she would never understand it. Never know it was happening. After all, she couldn't see other people's faces. She could never get a glimpse of that first look of admiration, that moment of fascination. And she would never be able to have one of her own. At least, that's what she had truly believed. Until he showed up. And thanks to Katara- pesky, annoying, Sugarqueen Katara- she was trying so hard to be what she hoped he wanted. She was never like this before. She never cared before...
"Something wrong, Kurzen?" She raised her head slightly, frowning as she heard him sigh. She clenched his hand a bit tighter. He had asked to not speak of the war, of the events taking place outside these walls. He wasn't a General now, she wasn't a Queen. But still.
Her fingers slipped between his, clutching them.
I know.
When he finally spoke, her smile fell for a brief moment. About her? "Oh, you know. Just typical Earth Kingdom girl, that's me..." She laughed at that, a forced one that barely lasted a few seconds. "My parents... were rich. Doted on me left and right. Treated me like I was going to break, like a little porcelain doll, just because I was blind. Ohh, I thought they went nuts after the whole thing with Aang... When Bumi sent for me? I thought their heads were going to explode... But they got thinking on it, thought it would help to keep me from doing crazy things anymore. I don't think they paid attention to King Bumi's track record very well." She smiled with that, a remincing look on her face. "That crazy old man..." She trailed off, sighing a bit before squeezing again.
"I don't think of myself as a Queen. I'm.... a seat filler. Who has to make decisions once in awhile. Sometimes they work out well. Sometimes- not so much. Advisers are useful then." She groaned suddenly, placing her free hand against her forehead. "Oh man... I'm doing it... I'm sorry. I'm going off on a status rant. I shouldn't be- I mean- ahh. You asked about me. Not all that."
Honesty.
Go for it.
Trying to lie about who you are is only going to cause trouble. You'll slip at some point, unable to hide your true nature. Just tell him.
"I like dirt. I like dirt, I like messes, I like to have mud and grass and rocks all over the place. It's all beautiful to me. It's what I know. It's my element, literally. Not just because I can bend it, but because its the only part of the world I can understand. I feel most comfortable delved into it. This? I wish it were me. I really do." She ran her hand against the dress, shaking her head. "I do it for awhile. For appearances and stuff. And yeah, it can be nice. For a time. But to do it all the time- I can't. I just can't. I'm not like Katara; I'm not the typical girly-girl. I just.... I dunno. I'm just me. I don't know what I'd be labelled as."
She frowned, biting at her lower lip. That may have been way too much to just spout off like that. her hand started to release his, Toph unsure on if he'd still want to hold it after all that. "I'm not the type of girl people would expect a General to be interested in," she added softly, closing her eyes.
