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Ryota
As he waited quietly for a response, those blue eyes of his gazing over at the female bender, the young tribesman soon noticed the way she was looking at him. It was a look of understanding, of seeing something not evident on the surface, yet able to be viewed even when hidden deep inside by another. When she started to speak, Ryota briefly contemplated a forced change of subject, seeing as it wasn't a subject he felt comfortable in discussing amongst others. However, Katara promptly assuaged at least part of those fears by showing a consideration which should be expected of the at times overbearing, but always thoughtful Water Tribe native.
"Sokka, Angst."
Blinking a few times, Ryota glanced back and forth at the pair, looking as if he wanted to say something but only being able to manage an "Um…" before Sokka got his sisters message and went to work.
"Quickly, Momo! The angst-mufflers!"
And with just those words, the Avatar's pet and companion went to work on supplying an ample amount of fur in order to block out whatever may come of the conversation between their bending travel mates.
Staring in slight disbelief at how in unison that man and the lemur could be, the dark-haired male slumped into his shoulders a bit; feeling a short lived bout of embarrassment as he whispered, "You didn't have to put it so….truthful."
Letting a partial smile ghost the corner of his lips, Ryota's demeanor remained fairly light, considering how much was on the young man's mind at this time. At the same time, it was obvious that many factors weighed heavily upon his shoulders and within his heart as his full attention returned to Katara once she was finished with her brother. Yes, he could tell this was likely to be a rather emotionally draining conversation.
"We're searching for a target, something outside of ourselves. We're 'on the hunt.'
"But my... Aang," she mused, choosing her words carefully, "and your--" she didn't know what Xia was to Ryota at this point, and at this point, she suspected, neither did Ryota "--friend, they're searching for... they're searching for themselves."
His friend. He supposed that was the easiest and most accurate way of putting things. They were friends, if nothing else. She was certainly someone he came to care about in the short time they've known each other; as evident by the way the young man continued listening with undivided attention to Katara's words. Outside of the Avatar himself, there were perhaps few others in this world who could better grasp at what a person in Xia's predicament was going through.
"It can be a difficult quest, searching for yourself. Searching your Spirit for something... missing. It can be a hundred times more dangerous and frustrating and fruitless than this, well, wild dragon-goose chase."
He allowed himself a faint smile at her choice of description for their fruitless search, even as his eyes became tinted, the brows furrowed ever so slightly as he took in what she said about the trials of the search his….friend, was facing even as they speak. Why couldn't he have done more for her while they were together? What could he have done differently to at least feel like their time together wasn't a potential mistake?
"You're worried about her. I can empathise."
His eyes darted up, slowly searching the female bender's expression and feeling a light ping of guilt, but also sympathy as he spoke, "I'm sorry, Katara. I know you've worried yourself about the Av…about Aang. I'm also concerned about what's happened to him. He seems a good man, and has done so much for the world. It's just…"
Another moment of hesitation, brought on by both an attempt at finding the right words and trying to decide on if he should bare his thoughts and feelings to his Southern cousin. Ryota had known Katara and her brother for some time prior to the four nations meeting in Ba Sing Se, but wasn't exactly on a level where they poured their hearts out to each other. Still, as he continued gazing at the young Waterbender, Ryota found it difficult to keep the words from spilling out.
"I wish I could have done something to help her. But as she talked about her life, about the trials she'd faced growing up with those abilities, I couldn't think of anything to say nor do that would help in anyway other then a granting her a few fleeting moments of happiness…if even that." The young man finally confessed, letting Katara know this despite it having been himself who volunteered to join in as part of the search efforts in locating Azula.
Letting out a somewhat frustrated sigh over the situation, he turned his head toward Appa's tail end in order to gaze in the direction they were leaving; as if trying to seek out any trace of the Fire Nation Palace where they departed long ago. It was an old habit the water tribesman picked up whenever he grew homesick during lengthy trips with others at sea.
"Part of me wanted to stay behind. To travel with her, to stand by her side, to offer a friendly ear if she should ever want one." His further admission came out slowly, calm, gazing out at the passing clouds in the sky and trees below before giving a halfhearted shrug while adding, "In the end, however, it felt as if I'd only serve as a distraction from her finding the answers she needs."
That was perhaps the best he could do for her during this time. Allow her space rather then placing any pressure, unintended as it may be, for Xia to try and define what they were when she should be focusing on training and performing her own searching. There could be a certain level of comfort found in that decision, he supposed.
Taking in and releasing a deep, relaxing breath; Ryota turned toward the lady Waterbender and gave a slight chuckle over his admitted angst, "Sorry, I must sound pretty self-centered, huh? Talking about how her problems are making me feel." A half-smile remained on his features as he moved a hand to rub at the back of his neck; feeling a little shame over his feelings as he stated with complete certainty, "No matter how she does it, I just want Xia to find peace with whatever going on inside of her. Regardless of my feelings, that's the more important thing."
Ryota's own feelings aside, that really was what mattered the most. Even weeks removed of that night, he could still remember, quite vividly, the way she spoke of her unusual bending abilities. The sadness in her voice, the look in her eyes, the tears which streamed down her face. If there was any way to keep Xia from feeling that way again, he'd do it in a heartbeat. If only there was such a miracle remedy for easing the unique strain placed upon that aching heart.
"It's just….not easy, is it?" His voice suddenly picked back up, sounding a little closer to its usual tone as he looked over at Katara, giving her a small, yet understanding smile as he finished, "Caring about someone who carries such a unique burden, rooted so deeply inside of them."
As he waited quietly for a response, those blue eyes of his gazing over at the female bender, the young tribesman soon noticed the way she was looking at him. It was a look of understanding, of seeing something not evident on the surface, yet able to be viewed even when hidden deep inside by another. When she started to speak, Ryota briefly contemplated a forced change of subject, seeing as it wasn't a subject he felt comfortable in discussing amongst others. However, Katara promptly assuaged at least part of those fears by showing a consideration which should be expected of the at times overbearing, but always thoughtful Water Tribe native.
"Sokka, Angst."
Blinking a few times, Ryota glanced back and forth at the pair, looking as if he wanted to say something but only being able to manage an "Um…" before Sokka got his sisters message and went to work.
"Quickly, Momo! The angst-mufflers!"
And with just those words, the Avatar's pet and companion went to work on supplying an ample amount of fur in order to block out whatever may come of the conversation between their bending travel mates.
Staring in slight disbelief at how in unison that man and the lemur could be, the dark-haired male slumped into his shoulders a bit; feeling a short lived bout of embarrassment as he whispered, "You didn't have to put it so….truthful."
Letting a partial smile ghost the corner of his lips, Ryota's demeanor remained fairly light, considering how much was on the young man's mind at this time. At the same time, it was obvious that many factors weighed heavily upon his shoulders and within his heart as his full attention returned to Katara once she was finished with her brother. Yes, he could tell this was likely to be a rather emotionally draining conversation.
"We're searching for a target, something outside of ourselves. We're 'on the hunt.'
"But my... Aang," she mused, choosing her words carefully, "and your--" she didn't know what Xia was to Ryota at this point, and at this point, she suspected, neither did Ryota "--friend, they're searching for... they're searching for themselves."
His friend. He supposed that was the easiest and most accurate way of putting things. They were friends, if nothing else. She was certainly someone he came to care about in the short time they've known each other; as evident by the way the young man continued listening with undivided attention to Katara's words. Outside of the Avatar himself, there were perhaps few others in this world who could better grasp at what a person in Xia's predicament was going through.
"It can be a difficult quest, searching for yourself. Searching your Spirit for something... missing. It can be a hundred times more dangerous and frustrating and fruitless than this, well, wild dragon-goose chase."
He allowed himself a faint smile at her choice of description for their fruitless search, even as his eyes became tinted, the brows furrowed ever so slightly as he took in what she said about the trials of the search his….friend, was facing even as they speak. Why couldn't he have done more for her while they were together? What could he have done differently to at least feel like their time together wasn't a potential mistake?
"You're worried about her. I can empathise."
His eyes darted up, slowly searching the female bender's expression and feeling a light ping of guilt, but also sympathy as he spoke, "I'm sorry, Katara. I know you've worried yourself about the Av…about Aang. I'm also concerned about what's happened to him. He seems a good man, and has done so much for the world. It's just…"
Another moment of hesitation, brought on by both an attempt at finding the right words and trying to decide on if he should bare his thoughts and feelings to his Southern cousin. Ryota had known Katara and her brother for some time prior to the four nations meeting in Ba Sing Se, but wasn't exactly on a level where they poured their hearts out to each other. Still, as he continued gazing at the young Waterbender, Ryota found it difficult to keep the words from spilling out.
"I wish I could have done something to help her. But as she talked about her life, about the trials she'd faced growing up with those abilities, I couldn't think of anything to say nor do that would help in anyway other then a granting her a few fleeting moments of happiness…if even that." The young man finally confessed, letting Katara know this despite it having been himself who volunteered to join in as part of the search efforts in locating Azula.
Letting out a somewhat frustrated sigh over the situation, he turned his head toward Appa's tail end in order to gaze in the direction they were leaving; as if trying to seek out any trace of the Fire Nation Palace where they departed long ago. It was an old habit the water tribesman picked up whenever he grew homesick during lengthy trips with others at sea.
"Part of me wanted to stay behind. To travel with her, to stand by her side, to offer a friendly ear if she should ever want one." His further admission came out slowly, calm, gazing out at the passing clouds in the sky and trees below before giving a halfhearted shrug while adding, "In the end, however, it felt as if I'd only serve as a distraction from her finding the answers she needs."
That was perhaps the best he could do for her during this time. Allow her space rather then placing any pressure, unintended as it may be, for Xia to try and define what they were when she should be focusing on training and performing her own searching. There could be a certain level of comfort found in that decision, he supposed.
Taking in and releasing a deep, relaxing breath; Ryota turned toward the lady Waterbender and gave a slight chuckle over his admitted angst, "Sorry, I must sound pretty self-centered, huh? Talking about how her problems are making me feel." A half-smile remained on his features as he moved a hand to rub at the back of his neck; feeling a little shame over his feelings as he stated with complete certainty, "No matter how she does it, I just want Xia to find peace with whatever going on inside of her. Regardless of my feelings, that's the more important thing."
Ryota's own feelings aside, that really was what mattered the most. Even weeks removed of that night, he could still remember, quite vividly, the way she spoke of her unusual bending abilities. The sadness in her voice, the look in her eyes, the tears which streamed down her face. If there was any way to keep Xia from feeling that way again, he'd do it in a heartbeat. If only there was such a miracle remedy for easing the unique strain placed upon that aching heart.
"It's just….not easy, is it?" His voice suddenly picked back up, sounding a little closer to its usual tone as he looked over at Katara, giving her a small, yet understanding smile as he finished, "Caring about someone who carries such a unique burden, rooted so deeply inside of them."