ccs29745
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Normal days will come again princess. You've got lots of friends in here with big shoulders ready for whenever you need or want one.I have been incredibly emotional lately. I find myself hiding more when I am. I've noticed a lot more change in how friends treat me. They hold back from telling me their shit because they don't want to add to my plate. Yet all I want is to feel normal. I saw this same change with the breast cancer too. It just happened sooner. It's like I am the disease. They are afraid they will catch it.
I feel like I am in decline because I can't find relief. I'm worried about what these pains might be.
I will forever worry with every ache and pain I feel. But I hate depending on pain meds. I hate not being able to go out for simple things. Depending on my family for almost everything. I can't just jump in the car, put the top down and drive over the mountains and enjoy the beauty.
I just want a good cry fest. I just want a normal day once in a while.