Anonymous Secrets Thread

[tiedtits4me]

At this point I have stopped mocking the hurricane, just in case it angers it.


It's a lot more rain than I was expecting, but the wind isn't so bad. Anyway I assume I will be loosing power soon.

I think that's a wise idea lol.

 

[Kat73]

I am a worrier as well. I do tend to worry about friends and family, but I try to push it aside and not be a nagger about it.

I have been in two major earthquakes (Cali girl my whole life) and a ton of tiny ones. Major wind storms and a few fires as well.

 

[Kudram123]

You and me both Bux.

It's a mild hurricane. But it is stalled out over new Orleans and dumping huge amounts of water on the state. I think it is likely that I will loose power and or cell service at some point.

However that falls under the category of inconvenience. At no point will my life be in jeopardy.

I don't the world MILD and HURRICANE should be used in one sentance!

Well kudram to answer your question I worry about everything and everyone. I am a worrier. A lot of it is the job and the training, but that's an excuse. I am what I am.

I used to think I knew what worrying was before I had kids.

Now that they're both driving and out with friends, I have a whole new category of fear.

Other than that, being on a plane, being on a ship, being in a car all cause me great stress and worry.

Like others...I am just a natural worrier.

I was a "latch key kid" and if it was about time for my mom to get home from work and I heard an ambulance I would get nervous that something happened to her. Even today if I call my mom and she doesn't answer my mind starts inventing reasons why (only child and widowed mom living a few states away = always worrying lacandy!).

And along with Ella, things only grow exponetially when kids are added to the mix. Reading about the driving thing just made my stomach flip flop! Good Lord I am not looking forward to that whole thing, I'll be a giant bag of worry when that happens. *wonders if I can keep them wrapped in bubble wrap until I die*

I am a worrier as well. I do tend to worry about friends and family, but I try to push it aside and not be a nagger about it.

I have been in two major earthquakes (Cali girl my whole life) and a ton of tiny ones. Major wind storms and a few fires as well.

And damn there are a lot of worriers here!

I worry about all your worries
Not good for the heart!

 

[neruda]

Hurricane update

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

 

[sunshinegirl05]

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. *HUGS*

 

[njoyndesire]

I don't the world MILD and HURRICANE should be used in one sentance!


And damn there are a lot of worriers here!

I worry about all your worries
Not good for the heart!

Another worrier here!! I worry about everything... I am better than I used to be and try to keep it to the things under my control. When I was in high school I called my aunt and uncle looking for my parents... They sent out my cousins who finally found them at a bar and grill having dinner and a drink.

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

Was thinking about you earlier today... Stay safe.

 

[Ellafun]

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

Thank you for the update...stay safe!

 

[Lily13]

I feel a need to post this, in this thread, because the nick is anonymous enough & because during previous visits to Lit I have found that one can speak one's mind here without being judged & find support

My secret is that the last 6 years of my life/marriage have been a lie. I was not happy, felt imprisoned and manipulated & couldn't get out because I felt guilty for not being able to live up to the standards that were set for me.

I tried so hard to please everyone ( i.e. my partner ) but it never was good enough, things that went wrong always were my fault and I accepted that even when it was not true. He said so, so it had to be true. I even went to therapists so I could be "fixed" to his liking.

My world was limited to my family and work. I had no friends, no social life and therefor no frames of reference to compare my situation with. In hindsight : exactly the way he liked it. At times I tried to flee & get away in virtual environments but it got too hard keeping that a secret as well, and ofcourse I never found there what I was looking for.

I felt like I was wearing a mask, had to wear a mask because the real me wasn't acceptable. At the same time I didn't know who I really was but I knew the real me was there somewhere & not being able - and not being allowed - to surface.

And then, a few years ago, I lost everything. The secret of the heart had indeed continued to grow & fester & eat me up from the inside and it blew up in my face.

At present, I am living alone, divorced, and with the help of a therapist of my choosing finally finding out who I really am.
I now have freedom of mind, freedom to be who I want to be, I have two very dear & close friends, and the freedom to be so unbelievably fucking mad at my former partner for dominating and manipulating me for such a long time.
Pieces of the puzzle keep falling into place faster than ever and I am finally able to see him objectively. It's not a pretty sight at all.

I now know I am not a "bad person". There is nothing wrong with me, and I *am* strong. It's OK for me to be who I am & be true to myself first. So no more secrets and subsequent lies.
This is me, and if you don't like it, fuck off

( Thank you neruda for providing the opportunity to get this off my chest )

I am soooo happy for you. There's absolutely nothing wrong with you. You are now free to be whatever you want.

 

[Kat73]

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

Good to hear that you are safe. Keeping you and everyone around you in my thoughts!

 

[GracieLove]

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

Best wishes to you and I hope that everything gets back to normal for you soon!

- Gracie

 

[JennyNo1]

Very quiet thread today. Not even any not-quite-anonymous secrets?

 

[LeChatNoir]

Very quiet thread today. Not even any not-quite-anonymous secrets?

Maybe neruda really did lose internet access.

-LCN

 

[tiedtits4me]

Maybe neruda really did lose internet access.

-LCN

He did

 

[Kudram123]

Very quiet thread today. Not even any not-quite-anonymous secrets?

It is!

And I have been really thinking hard on a secret.... but all I could come up with..

20's - male, I ate the last piece of chocolate the other day! nobody knows it was me.

I'm dull I know!

 

[NymphMyosotis]

It is!

And I have been really thinking hard on a secret.... but all I could come up with..

20's - male, I ate the last piece of chocolate the other day! nobody knows it was me.

I'm dull I know!

Hahaha, that's a cute confession Kudram!!

I really do enjoy teasing...and am somewhat of an exhibitionist..but damn, that's no secret..lol

 

[Kudram123]

Hahaha, that's a cute confession Kudram!!

I really do enjoy teasing...and am somewhat of an exhibitionist..but damn, that's no secret..lol

I was hoping for a chuckle,

and indeed. That is no secret!

 

[xBuxombabex]

My not-so-secret - I'm sitting looking at Lit when I have LOADS to do - I've got actual paid work to do & I've got to clean the house for hubby's family coming round tomorrow - argh! Why am I still here???

 

[tiedtits4me]

I didn't lose my virginity till i was mid twenties.

 

[GracieLove]

A lot of people have expressed concern privately and I am very thankful. I wanted to drop a line on the public thread so everyone knows. I may not have time for a lot if private messages.

I still have power, thank god. (I hate the heat). But I lost Internet a few hours ago. I can only use my iPad at this point, and cell service is really spotty right now. I hear there are about three towers in the city down already.

The point is that this will probably be my last update for a while. But worry not, I'm safe and sound and dry and cool.

I didn't lose my virginity till i was mid twenties.

19 for me. I have to admit I succumbed to peer pressure and curiosity, and I DIDN'T like the experience SO much, that I didn't venture down that path again for another 8 months..

 

[neruda]

Maybe neruda really did lose internet access.

-LCN

I did, but I'm back.

 

[neruda]

My not-so-secret - I'm sitting looking at Lit when I have LOADS to do - I've got actual paid work to do & I've got to clean the house for hubby's family coming round tomorrow - argh! Why am I still here???

I don't know either, but I'm glad you are.

 

[Ellafun]

40's, Female....I drank too much last night while hanging out at my neighbor's house. His wife was asleep, my husband was home...yeah, let's just leave that little teaser right there for now.

Welcome back to the interwebs, N!!

 

[neruda]

Okay, so I did really loose internet access. I'm back thought.

I will say that I think most of the city is still recovering, and I may loose power or internet at any time for the next couple of days. so let me see how many secrets I can get up as quickly as possible.

Also, Start sending your secrets to me again. I need some material to post!

 

[neruda]

-20, Female - I have touched myself thinking of some of the secrets on this thread. It's so voyeuristic.

 

[neruda]

-50, Male - When I was in junior and senior high school I had a female friend that I was rather close to. We did have a couple make out sessions but that was all. One summer I helped her and her then boyfriend run away from home by letting them stay at the family cottage the first night and knew that they were taking off together. Then a couple days later I called her house to talk to her as if I had no idea what was going on. Of course her parents were besides them selves with angst. I never let on that I knew anything. I hung out at her house daily, consoled her parents. Her father was a Capt in the military, at that time in charge of SAR (Search and Rescue) for the base he was stationed at. Of course he had connections with the police and was able to track down his daughter and boyfriend and with in a couple weeks was able to bring them home - only after boyfriend crashed his truck. After she came home I was scared shitless that she had confessed
and told all to her parents and that her dad would come looking for me. He never did. This family before during and after this runaway incident had taken me in like one of their own. I ate more dinners at their table than at home. I was too ashamed of myself to confess to her mom and dad that I was involved in her running away. I, to this day, have no idea if they ever found out my involvement. Her parents have since passed away. I will continue to carry the guilt and shame over this to my grave. There is nothing that I have done in my life that I regret more, or feel more shame and guilt over than this. I have never told anyone about this.