Hello all. I think I might be gay, but I am not sure. Can you help me find out if I am gay or not?

let's get naked and in bed together...depending on how you respond, you will know then for sure.....
 
My wife of 54 years loves that I am a bi sissy CD, so yes there are women out there for guys like you. She is bi herself and prefers women to men and we both love to dress up in sexy somewhat slutty outfits so it works out well.
can i join you two??
 
I am from Bulgaria. My father moved in Spain when I was 12 and then I was left to live with my mother and my sisters and everywhere in our house there were so many girly things, clothes, lingerie, bras and I was watching them and wonder how they feel. Then my mother moved with my father and my sisters became students, so I was 15 years old and left alone to live on my own. I decided to try on some panties and thongs and it felt great immediately, then I tried a bra, a dress, leggings and it felt so good and I liked everything. Then watching porn, I watched how the girls suck cocks and are getting fucked and I started to wonder how and what they feel. Then I tried putting objects in my ass and it felt good too, I started fucking myself with all kinds of objects. And with all that I started to have a real desires, fantasies about sucking cocks, having sex with a man. But even tho I have these desires, I liked girls, I wanted to find real love and a serious girl.

I was romantic with them, good, caring and nice, but I couldn't have a girl that liked me too, I am not ugly, but they all sayed that I was a great guy, but they don't like me and that I will make some girl really happy. All that affected me, because I started to feel real bad, rejected, alone, sad. And maybe thats why the thoughts about men came. And I was and I am a manly man in reality, I played football too. So I finished school and became student and I thought that then I will find a girl to be with, to fuck or anything, but no. There were more rejections and I became even more depressed. So then, I brought myself some thongs and girls clothes, maked pics of me and register myself in a dating site, but to find a man. And I found one, he was 40+ and fat. So, he came in my apartment, I was wearing thong, leggings, bra and a t-shirt,I just fell to my knees and waited for his cock. But he was soft and small (imagine my disappointment, haha) and I started jerking him off, then sucking him, I was trying so hard and I felt great honestly. I liked being in my knees in front of him, but for 10 minutes he couldn't get hard (I think he had an erection problem) and we gave up. After that I had other chances to meet with him, with other men too, so I wanted to meet with another, I arranged some meetings, but every time just before the meeting I quite and cancelled it, because of my fears, shame and stress.

Then I met a girl and I fell inlove again with a girl. I was 22, she was my first and only one for now. I told her about all of these things and she reacted ok, we talked and came to a conclusion that I am not gay and I had these desires, because I was virgin, but now that I am with her and I liked being with her, these desires are gone and we are happy. So yes, we were. We started living together almost immediately. First couple of months were amazing, first year was too, then we moved to a different city, both working, having troubles with money tho, you know everydays stuff, she was working in the weekends and resting in the week days, I was the opposite of that, so when I was alone in the weekends I started having again desires about men, about wearing her thongs and etc. So, I started wearing some of her panties and watching cocks over the internet, when she was at work. In the same time I was happy with her, I really loved her and I wanted to spent my whole life with her. I proposed to her, she said yes. And everything was great, but one day I forgot to delate photos of my butt wearing her thong on our laptop and she came back from work and saw them. And she was angry, but didn't wanted to talk with me, she just said that she don't want me to do that anymore and I told her ok. Then the times passed, we even had a date for our wedding, but suddenly she left me 3 months before our wedding (in the end we lived together for 3 years).She said that she don't want to marry, she wanted to live more and etc, that there isn't anyone else, but two weeks after she left me, I saw her with another man. So after that, I became really sad, depressed, broken and damaged.. I started drinking a lot, I missed her. But the thoughts about men and cocks came back and even stronger. She left a couple of panties, clothes, so I started wear some of them that could fit me, brought my own too and continue chatting with men, fantasizing and etc, but still I didn't do anything. She left me in july 2017, it have been 5 years and I am not having any sex, haha.

In September 2019 I moved in Spain too in order to find more work, to gain more money and etc, but then the virus happened and that slowed the things. For the moment I live here with my folks, so I can't dress up, but I have some thongs and I wear them sometimes, then hide them and thats it, haha. I am still not sure if I am gay or not. I think I can fell inlove with a woman again, but for the moment I don't have any sexual desires towards women. Maybe if I am inlove, I will desire the girl, but for the moment-no, nothing. I notice girls over the streets, I like them, I like how they look and etc, but instead of wanting to be with them, I imagine myself like them, to have a sexy ass, to dress sexy too, to be like them and be with a man, hehe. And I don't know if I like men in their faces, but I love cocks, haha. And I started to like looking at naked men over the internet, I mean not just for their cocks, but for their bodies, strong arms, muscular hands and chest and etc. And I know that I have big desire to have sex with a man, to be in the girl's role, sucking his cock and getting fucked by him. So thats why I think I am gay, but thats why I am not sure either.. :(
Hey there sweetie I think I would love to have you under my wing.You are one hell of a person in explaining in how you feel and act because I've had that same feeling a long time back myself and i still do this very day because I'm a open minded type person myself.I don't feel as I'm gay I feel as whom i am at times wanting to have sex with another man and being that gurl wearing them panties and nylons and heels and etc. Your avatar and story has gotten me started again sugar ;) You do have a nice ass baby:kiss::kiss:;):love:
 
Just be you, just be happy. Fuck who you want and enjoy all the sensations. Let's not put a label on anything and live happy
 
I am from Bulgaria. My father moved in Spain when I was 12 and then I was left to live with my mother and my sisters and everywhere in our house there were so many girly things, clothes, lingerie, bras and I was watching them and wonder how they feel. Then my mother moved with my father and my sisters became students, so I was 15 years old and left alone to live on my own. I decided to try on some panties and thongs and it felt great immediately, then I tried a bra, a dress, leggings and it felt so good and I liked everything. Then watching porn, I watched how the girls suck cocks and are getting fucked and I started to wonder how and what they feel. Then I tried putting objects in my ass and it felt good too, I started fucking myself with all kinds of objects. And with all that I started to have a real desires, fantasies about sucking cocks, having sex with a man. But even tho I have these desires, I liked girls, I wanted to find real love and a serious girl.

I was romantic with them, good, caring and nice, but I couldn't have a girl that liked me too, I am not ugly, but they all sayed that I was a great guy, but they don't like me and that I will make some girl really happy. All that affected me, because I started to feel real bad, rejected, alone, sad. And maybe thats why the thoughts about men came. And I was and I am a manly man in reality, I played football too. So I finished school and became student and I thought that then I will find a girl to be with, to fuck or anything, but no. There were more rejections and I became even more depressed. So then, I brought myself some thongs and girls clothes, maked pics of me and register myself in a dating site, but to find a man. And I found one, he was 40+ and fat. So, he came in my apartment, I was wearing thong, leggings, bra and a t-shirt,I just fell to my knees and waited for his cock. But he was soft and small (imagine my disappointment, haha) and I started jerking him off, then sucking him, I was trying so hard and I felt great honestly. I liked being in my knees in front of him, but for 10 minutes he couldn't get hard (I think he had an erection problem) and we gave up. After that I had other chances to meet with him, with other men too, so I wanted to meet with another, I arranged some meetings, but every time just before the meeting I quite and cancelled it, because of my fears, shame and stress.

Then I met a girl and I fell inlove again with a girl. I was 22, she was my first and only one for now. I told her about all of these things and she reacted ok, we talked and came to a conclusion that I am not gay and I had these desires, because I was virgin, but now that I am with her and I liked being with her, these desires are gone and we are happy. So yes, we were. We started living together almost immediately. First couple of months were amazing, first year was too, then we moved to a different city, both working, having troubles with money tho, you know everydays stuff, she was working in the weekends and resting in the week days, I was the opposite of that, so when I was alone in the weekends I started having again desires about men, about wearing her thongs and etc. So, I started wearing some of her panties and watching cocks over the internet, when she was at work. In the same time I was happy with her, I really loved her and I wanted to spent my whole life with her. I proposed to her, she said yes. And everything was great, but one day I forgot to delate photos of my butt wearing her thong on our laptop and she came back from work and saw them. And she was angry, but didn't wanted to talk with me, she just said that she don't want me to do that anymore and I told her ok. Then the times passed, we even had a date for our wedding, but suddenly she left me 3 months before our wedding (in the end we lived together for 3 years).She said that she don't want to marry, she wanted to live more and etc, that there isn't anyone else, but two weeks after she left me, I saw her with another man. So after that, I became really sad, depressed, broken and damaged.. I started drinking a lot, I missed her. But the thoughts about men and cocks came back and even stronger. She left a couple of panties, clothes, so I started wear some of them that could fit me, brought my own too and continue chatting with men, fantasizing and etc, but still I didn't do anything. She left me in july 2017, it have been 5 years and I am not having any sex, haha.

In September 2019 I moved in Spain too in order to find more work, to gain more money and etc, but then the virus happened and that slowed the things. For the moment I live here with my folks, so I can't dress up, but I have some thongs and I wear them sometimes, then hide them and thats it, haha. I am still not sure if I am gay or not. I think I can fell inlove with a woman again, but for the moment I don't have any sexual desires towards women. Maybe if I am inlove, I will desire the girl, but for the moment-no, nothing. I notice girls over the streets, I like them, I like how they look and etc, but instead of wanting to be with them, I imagine myself like them, to have a sexy ass, to dress sexy too, to be like them and be with a man, hehe. And I don't know if I like men in their faces, but I love cocks, haha. And I started to like looking at naked men over the internet, I mean not just for their cocks, but for their bodies, strong arms, muscular hands and chest and etc. And I know that I have big desire to have sex with a man, to be in the girl's role, sucking his cock and getting fucked by him. So thats why I think I am gay, but thats why I am not sure either.. :(
think about how you would kiss him... that is a very easy way to know if you are gay

everybody loves cock and hard bodies
 
I only really discovered I was gay in my thirties and after having two kids. I fucked around, trying to prove to everyone I was a slut and reassure myself I was straight.

I hid my true feelings and confusion by having sex with men.

I wish I had been brave enough to come out, or experiment earlier. I love being me. I love sleeping with women, and I'm so in live with my partner now. I never dated, not properly, and never had a relationship before I came out.

I'm relieved and so fucking happy.

I know your post is old, but I hope you find happiness and being who you want to be.
 
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