Wild_Honey_66
sweet freak
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Hey everyone! *waves* I'm Honey
I hang on the PG, mostly, and in AmPics when I have time. I consider myself a sub, but really I think pleaser is a more accurate description.
I've recently found myself in a situation that is really stretching me, and so I'm biting the bullet and *gasp!* posting for the first time, hoping I can get some helpful input.
Not long ago, I was approached out of the blue by a switch who wanted me to act as his Mistress. Being pretty open-minded about giving things a whirl before saying No, I agreed to try it on a trial basis and see. Well, the Mistress thing really didn't work for me--I couldn't find enough in that role for me to identify with. I was very close to calling it off when by happenstance, we hit upon something that opened a door for both of us, and now I am his Mommy.
There. I said it. *giggles*
Because I am a mother irl, a lot of this is second nature to me, and I can almost run on auto-pilot. Ironically, these are often the areas in which his Dom side is most likely to question me, and I have to be stern and tease him a little with something like, "Are you the mommy now?"
But it can be helpful that he is able to access his Dominant qualities so quickly, because there are some areas in which he really needs me to lead, and "please" myself over him, and I often get stuck and my natural tendency is to withdraw from play and go quiet. I am thankful that he is able to pick up on that quickly and we keep talking until I find a way through.
I'm not a Domme---I think perhaps "service top" is the term that applies here? It's challenging for me, but I like learning new skills, and experiencing things from another perspective, and getting inside other folks' heads. {hee hee}
I'm wondering if there are others who are/have been in a similar situation, in which they were choosing to "play against type" to a certain degree, and how they worked out the issues which most required them to behave differently than their natural bent.
To be clear, I am not trying to be something I'm not. My natural desire to nurture and care for people is very strong, and that has become the foundation for our relationship. There has been a marked difference in the dynamic since we shifted to this approach; for the most part it flows really well, and I think we're both pleased with that.
I hang on the PG, mostly, and in AmPics when I have time. I consider myself a sub, but really I think pleaser is a more accurate description.
I've recently found myself in a situation that is really stretching me, and so I'm biting the bullet and *gasp!* posting for the first time, hoping I can get some helpful input.
Not long ago, I was approached out of the blue by a switch who wanted me to act as his Mistress. Being pretty open-minded about giving things a whirl before saying No, I agreed to try it on a trial basis and see. Well, the Mistress thing really didn't work for me--I couldn't find enough in that role for me to identify with. I was very close to calling it off when by happenstance, we hit upon something that opened a door for both of us, and now I am his Mommy.
There. I said it. *giggles*
Because I am a mother irl, a lot of this is second nature to me, and I can almost run on auto-pilot. Ironically, these are often the areas in which his Dom side is most likely to question me, and I have to be stern and tease him a little with something like, "Are you the mommy now?"
But it can be helpful that he is able to access his Dominant qualities so quickly, because there are some areas in which he really needs me to lead, and "please" myself over him, and I often get stuck and my natural tendency is to withdraw from play and go quiet. I am thankful that he is able to pick up on that quickly and we keep talking until I find a way through.
I'm not a Domme---I think perhaps "service top" is the term that applies here? It's challenging for me, but I like learning new skills, and experiencing things from another perspective, and getting inside other folks' heads. {hee hee}
I'm wondering if there are others who are/have been in a similar situation, in which they were choosing to "play against type" to a certain degree, and how they worked out the issues which most required them to behave differently than their natural bent.
To be clear, I am not trying to be something I'm not. My natural desire to nurture and care for people is very strong, and that has become the foundation for our relationship. There has been a marked difference in the dynamic since we shifted to this approach; for the most part it flows really well, and I think we're both pleased with that.