You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[Richard49]

I am home
the trip down was ok
stoped at an herb store I had heard about
it had been opened since the 50s

than stopped at a spice store
WoW

The day at the hospital was one cluster fuck after another
the scope up the dick was very painful
never again will I agree to that procedure

The trip home was without event

and yes kc are you telling us your a pain slut?

 

[RJMasters]

Welcome Back Richard.

Glad you made it back ok.

I am home
the trip down was ok
stoped at an herb store I had heard about
it had been opened since the 50s

than stopped at a spice store
WoW

The day at the hospital was one cluster fuck after another
the scope up the dick was very painful
never again will I agree to that procedure

The trip home was without event

and yes kc are you telling us your a pain slut?

 

[Kajira Callista]

and yes kc are you telling us your a pain slut?

ya think?

 

[FurryFury]

ya think?

*chuckles*

Fury

 

[Richard49]

If Denise were alive we would be talking about our yards
we both pandered to the birds and theose four legged fury things called squerrils
I use to fight them fury rodents and found it was easier to pander to them and the birds

my croucoses (sp) are in bloom in one part of my yard
they are like small bouquets

the birds have been have been here all winter to some extent
one of the last picture Denise sent me was taken from the behind
one of her cats looking out a window at her winter birds

Now i have cardnals, gold finish, doves, house finish, purple finish, chickdees,
etc.

no two legged pink pussy birds

 

[FurryFury]

If Denise were alive we would be talking about our yards
we both pandered to the birds and theose four legged fury things called squerrils
I use to fight them fury rodents and found it was easier to pander to them and the birds

my croucoses (sp) are in bloom in one part of my yard
they are like small bouquets

the birds have been have been here all winter to some extent
one of the last picture Denise sent me was taken from the behind
one of her cats looking out a window at her winter birds

Now i have cardnals, gold finish, doves, house finish, purple finish, chickdees,
etc.

no two legged pink pussy birds

Sounds beautiful!

This time of year is so lovely!

Each day I see things that make me want to cry and paint.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

Sounds beautiful!

This time of year is so lovely!

Each day I see things that make me want to cry and paint.

Fury

paint?
sounds to much like work

though Denise would repaint her fountian and other yard items

 

[FurryFury]

paint?
sounds to much like work

though Denise would repaint her fountian and other yard items

I no longer have the talent to paint what calls to me or the beautiful things I see in nature. I wish I did.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

I no longer have the talent to paint what calls to me or the beautiful things I see in nature. I wish I did.

Fury

so you are talking about like painting a picture?

 

[Richard49]

the more my yard comes into spring the more I miss my conversations with Denise

I am finding more everyday that I just do not fit in any where
part of it is that I am getting old
but it is more
I have never fit in

when i joined into the D/s community the community was nto cool
so I was i nthe minorty
now the community has been raped and I do not fit into the community

where I worship
I am in the minorty

my home
my neighbors could care less about mulching and caring for nature
so they make remarks about what I do
(mostly have done for me cause I can not)

tomorrow
Thrusday
the VA Dr here wants to see me about the tests I have had done
he usually just has a nurse call me with the results

kc
where is that thread about prayer that Denise use to go to?

 

[FurryFury]

so you are talking about like painting a picture?

Yes, I am talking about painting pictures of the beauty I see around me. Beauty that nearly makes me weep. How I wish I could capture it but of course it can't truly be captured by mortals.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

I saw the VA clinic Dr today
in the past he has just had a nurse call me with test results
so I was woried going in
and the worry was justified

they found pre cancerious cells on/in my prstrate

a lesion on each of my kidneys

not one but three anyrisums(sp) in the artery in my stmach

etc etc

I did not want to come home and be alone but alas
no one I know was available

 

[FurryFury]

I saw the VA clinic Dr today
in the past he has just had a nurse call me with test results
so I was woried going in
and the worry was justified

they found pre cancerious cells on/in my prstrate

a lesion on each of my kidneys

not one but three anyrisums(sp) in the artery in my stmach

etc etc

I did not want to come home and be alone but alas
no one I know was available

Wow, that is a lot of bad news.

*HUGS*

Fury

 

[Richard49]

Wow, that is a lot of bad news.

*HUGS*

Fury

shoot me

 

[FurryFury]

shoot me

No deal.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

No deal.

Fury

why not?

 

[FurryFury]

why not?

I care and I don't savor spending time in jail, plus I'm so tired I can barely keep breathing.

Fury

 

[Richard49]

Are there any ane women left in this lifestyle?
Are there any women that can communicate openly and honestly?

shaking my head

just had two unpleasant ending to unline communications with women
from another site ....

yup
I have no buiness trying to have a big R relarionship with any woman

Denise would understand

I have not decide what to do with my profile and this thread
I am still very much leaning to asking for them to be elemenated
I promise kc I would think on this and I guess I am still thinking

 

[Kajira Callista]

Are there any ane women left in this lifestyle?
Are there any women that can communicate openly and honestly?

shaking my head

just had two unpleasant ending to unline communications with women
from another site ....

yup
I have no buiness trying to have a big R relarionship with any woman

Denise would understand

I have not decide what to do with my profile and this thread
I am still very much leaning to asking for them to be elemenated
I promise kc I would think on this and I guess I am still thinking

 

[Richard49]

 

[Richard49]

I will be leaving Friday (tomorrow) and returning Sunday
I will be at a men's spiritual retreat in Carey, Ohio

 

[Kierae]

Richard,

I hope you find some peace and maybe an answer or three at your retreat this weekend. I am sorry to hear the news about the test results. It is rough when everyone around us (including ourselves) is getting hit with the cancer/health gone awry news in some form or another. It sucks to age and have the numbers increase even more amongst our friends and family. Forever the optimist (glass half full kinda gal that I am), there are women and men who can be open in their communications - we just don't always have our paths cross with those folks for some reason or another. I truly believe that those opportunities present when we aren't looking and yes, we tend to miss them.

I have been thinking about you and Denise alot - been tending to my garden as my health allows, listen to the birds do their thang in the morning, and thank god that I still have my health and my friends (no matter what our healths are at the moment) around me.

I hope you stick around Richard but if you don't, this old bird will understand.

~kierae

 

[Richard49]

I am home
the retreat was good
it was my fourth year

It is suppose to be a place of mircles
with left behind wheel chairs etc
I just find the time refreshing spiritualy

The traveling took it's toil
when i arrived home last night I was so exhuasted
it hurt to breath

kierae thank you for your message

(old my foot)

 

[RJMasters]

I am home
the retreat was good
it was my fourth year

It is suppose to be a place of mircles
with left behind wheel chairs etc
I just find the time refreshing spiritualy

The traveling took it's toil
when i arrived home last night I was so exhuasted
it hurt to breath

kierae thank you for your message

(old my foot)

I miss those kind of retreats. I am glad it was a good time for you. I hope you are relaxing and recouping.

 

[Richard49]

I miss those kind of retreats. I am glad it was a good time for you. I hope you are relaxing and recouping.

I am still very tired
traveling is harder on me all the time

Next Tuesday
I have to be in Ann Arbor for a 15 minute appointment at the VA hospital
I need to see a vacular surgion