Why Are You Like This?

I can't say that I've had a doctor tell me that, but it would help explain things.
("Doc, I've been super horny lately."
"How long have you felt like this?"
"Oh, about thirty years.")

Doc: I see. Just put your feet in the stirrups and try to relax.

Background music: Bow Chicka Bow Wow.

(Sorry @BongoGal couldn’t resist)
 
Years of trauma, an everpresent fear of and hatred of ridicule. Massive nerd interests.
 
why am I like this?

what are you, my fuckin therapist?

no seriously.
Since I am so profoundly self-aware,
I am like this because I am closer to death than birth.
All my "ride or die" are in this box,
and I have nothing to lose.

And xanax.
 
A dear friend asked me this question this morning. I've been thinking about ever since. The truth is that I have no idea why I'm like this. If a stranger approached you and asked, "Why are you like this?" What would your answer be. (btw I'm going to do this to random strangers today. Why am I like this??)
I am the way I am because of all the decisions I have made in my life as well as some of the trauma and damage I have seen. My therapist said last May when I started seeing her that it took this many years to get to now and will take just as long to find a better path.
 
I just started dinner. I set the oven for 350, by coincidence it was exactly 3:50 pm.

The display read:

3:50 3:50

I had a brief but palpable existential meltdown.
Why am I like this?
 
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