Wake for Byron: All that and a bag of chips...

[digitalia]

I guess I was just lucky until now not to witness it.

Right.

More like until now I haven't commented on the dead dude you worship.

He's dead. He doesn't care anymore. Stop being so touchy and, instead, raise your rates to at least $50.

 

[Noor]

Right.

More like until now I haven't commented on the dead dude you worship.

He's dead. He doesn't care anymore. Stop being so touchy and, instead, raise your rates to at least $50.

Contrary to your experience or lack thereof, relationships and intimacy are not normally monetary exchanges.
I can understand how you might think so if you are used to paying or getting paid for sex but this is really not the case.

I miss Byron, I don't worship him. I am not alone in missing him, he was a pretty incredible guy. Not everyone's cup of tea, but if he was yours, the world and this place feels strange without him here.

 

[pensivepoet]

I guess I was just lucky until now not to witness it.

Sadly, this is reason enough for me to stalk you.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[chillywilly2]

I know this is a mistake but....WTF is a Mr Bear

 

[Que]

I know this is a mistake but....WTF is a Mr Bear

Mr. Bear? Did you want to field this one?

 

[Moo_the_Sapient]

Mr. Bear? Did you want to field this one?

Mr. Bear is off looking at trains, the 261 actually, as we are planning an excursion soon and he is researching.

Our thread may be of some help in explaining Mr. Bear.

 

[digitalia]

...

See, I told you it was all about the dead guy.

I took plenty of direct shots at By-By when he posted here, and haven't since you say he died. If you choose to take my he's dead, he doesn't care anymore comments as such an crass attack on what you claim is your non-worhsip of him, then you simply betray yourself for that lie.

Hate to break the news to you, Noor, but plenty of folks on the GB interacted with By-By without any connection to you whatsoever. If you're so needy that you cannot now honor that truth which had absolutely nothing to do with you, without taking such illogical personal offense, you should simply not bring up By-By in any way, shape or form here on the GB to spare yourself such self-inflicted stabs.

At least when By-By was alive and posting here, he could speak for himself...

 

[Noor]

See, I told you it was all about the dead guy.

I took plenty of direct shots at By-By when he posted here, and haven't since you say he died. If you choose to take my he's dead, he doesn't care anymore comments as such an crass attack on what you claim is your non-worhsip of him, then you simply betray yourself for that lie.

Hate to break the news to you, Noor, but plenty of folks on the GB interacted with By-By without any connection to you whatsoever. If you're so needy that you cannot now honor that truth which had absolutely nothing to do with you, without taking such illogical personal offense, you should simply not bring up By-By in any way, shape or form here on the GB to spare yourself such self-inflicted stabs.

At least when By-By was alive and posting here, he could speak for himself...

Yes, of course this thread is all about Byron, the title itself should have given you a clue to that.

Your repeated insinuation that I am/was a prostitute is what is crass.

If missing someone and posting about them is worship to you, well then... whatever floats your boat. You are just as free to believe whatever you wish as I am.

I know plenty people here interacted with him, so what? Whether any of those people also interacted with me is irrelevant. I don't care and I don't really understand why it is important to you.

I don't dispute that Byron was his own person here and I would have never wanted him any other way.

Not sure why you are getting so bent out of shape about this. You are certainly free to not read this thread or put me on ignore.

I imagine if Byron could reply to you, it would be way less civil that I am being.

So maybe the dead don't care, but the point is that I still care and Byron lives on in my memory and those of his friends. Even if I was alone in this, it doesn't matter. I don't need anyone else's validation to miss Byron. He rocked!

 

[butters]

Yes, of course this thread is all about Byron, the title itself should have given you a clue to that.

Your repeated insinuation that I am/was a prostitute is what is crass.

If missing someone and posting about them is worship to you, well then... whatever floats your boat. You are just as free to believe whatever you wish as I am.

I know plenty people here interacted with him, so what? Whether any of those people also interacted with me is irrelevant. I don't care and I don't really understand why it is important to you.

I don't dispute that Byron was his own person here and I would have never wanted him any other way.

Not sure why you are getting so bent out of shape about this. You are certainly free to not read this thread or put me on ignore.

I imagine if Byron could reply to you, it would be way less civil that I am being.

So maybe the dead don't care, but the point is that I still care and Byron lives on in my memory and those of his friends. Even if I was alone in this, it doesn't matter. I don't need anyone else's validation to miss Byron. He rocked!

yes, yes he did! and even now, when he's no longer with you in the flesh, the diversity, quality and entertainment-value of his posts far outstrip the jealous, mealy-mouthed pistings of the poster you quoted. that one's just plain ugly through and through.

 

[digitalia]

Not sure why you are getting so bent out of shape about this.

You should ask your wadded-up panties before projecting so.

I imagine if Byron could reply to you, it would be way less civil that I am being.

Again: he's dead and he doesn't care anymore; how you need to imagine he'd reply in any way is totally irrelevant because...

YOU'RE NOT HIM.

I fully understand you not being able to let him go enough yet, and it's also fully understandable you still need to bring him to this Board so much...

But you have no honest, no relevant business on this Board speaking/thinking/imagining for him in the least because...

YOU'RE NOT HIM.

What morbid insecure deal lives inside you that you can't stop yourself from speaking/thinking/imagining for him so much on this Board?

You can't let your love go in your personal life? Cool.

But he's still dead, this is still the GB, and you should have enough respect for both to STOP fantasizing you can possibly speak/think/imagine for anyone but yourself.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[butters]

 

[Noor]

You should ask your wadded-up panties before projecting so.



Again: he's dead and he doesn't care anymore; how you need to imagine he'd reply in any way is totally irrelevant because...

YOU'RE NOT HIM.

I fully understand you not being able to let him go enough yet, and it's also fully understandable you still need to bring him to this Board so much...

But you have no honest, no relevant business on this Board speaking/thinking/imagining for him in the least because...

YOU'RE NOT HIM.

What morbid insecure deal lives inside you that you can't stop yourself from speaking/thinking/imagining for him so much on this Board?

You can't let your love go in your personal life? Cool.

But he's still dead, this is still the GB, and you should have enough respect for both to STOP fantasizing you can possibly speak/think/imagine for anyone but yourself.

What are you talking about?

Is this all because I said he would want me safe and happy and you content he couldn't want that because he is dead? Are you upset when I refer to him as my ghost?

I know that he would want me safe and happy because we discussed death before he died and that was what he said he wanted for me if he should die first. I choose to continue to believe that.

His ghost is not a serious thing, I know it might upset people that I can have a sense of humor about his being dead, but I do. I doubt it causes his ashes to roll over.

I am free to imagine whatever I wish. I know how he was when someone was taking pot shots at someone he cared about, what makes you think he would have spared you?

I know I am not him, I never said I was him. Would it make you happier if I was him?

 

[digitalia]

Noor is being exceptionally polite and gracious to you, and I am not renowned for my teeth, but...

...who cares.

That best thing about By-By being dead is he can never be the person Noor insists on holding eternal prisoner in her own mind as only she can think of and imagine him. Her selfish fantasy never has to change; By-By will never dump her, never betray her, never fall in love with someone else as happens all the time in the real world.

Nope, poor By-By, no matter how he actually presented himself here on the GB in different ways to different people, is nothing now and forevermore anyone but Noor's sock puppet, frozen in time to only her wishes, appearing now on the GB only as she speaks/thinks/imagines for him.

And although Annie Wilkes must be dripping somewhere today, and remembering By-By for how original and independent he presented himself here (with no connection to Noor at all), I can certainly understand why the freedom of actual death from such misery seems so becoming to some.

 

[Fata Morgana]

The whole Seanipoo and By By names thing is really fucking creepy. It's like he's talking to children.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[Fata Morgana]

I can see relationships probably do end badly for you. But it is possible for some people not to cheat, for relationships to last. It's possible for someone you didn't get on with to have a wonderful relationship with someone else too.

It seems to me Noor is speaking for herself. I have only seen her (and actually have seen others too) call to mind also what Byron might have said or thought, and others seem to concur.

Noor and I first interacted over the topic of grief. It's something that impacts on my ( extended) family quite seriously.

As to who cares? Noor cares. People here who are reading this and like noor might care. It seems butters might care. I care.

And EVEN if you were right, ( something Noor and I spoke of the dangers of in early interaction ) who would she be harming, other than herself, by living in a fantasy? I don't think she is, she is progressing with her health needs, she is interacting, she is here talking to people who knew him.


You casually insult people and people put up with your difficulties in life but your behaviour is atrocious. In your own odd threads it's tolerable and part of life's tapestry.

They probably start badly too, with chloroform and rope.

 

[Noor]

I don't get to change our relationship either.
I made a promise which I can't renegotiate because he isn't here to do that with.

I would rather he be alive because even if he were to dump me, betray me, whatever, he would be still ALIVE!

People here knew, others suspected, but it doesn't matter.
He is indeed frozen in time, but his posts here over the years continue for him.
He was independent and original, as am I, being in a relationship doesn't change that and I wouldn't want it to.

I am not sure how I am being selfish. Am I denying anyone else's right to mourn his loss? As I wrote early I know I am not alone.

I am well aware that I am not him.

 

[Noor]

The whole Seanipoo and By By names thing is really fucking creepy. It's like he's talking to children.

Yes, it keeps reminding me of when Byron would post "quiet... adults are talking"

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[Fata Morgana]

Yes, well. It was poorly edited as I went. I am trying to be reminded of how I would like to behave and thankfully Noor sets good example. I will continue to aspire.....and delete as I go.

Fuck that. He's a cunt.

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[La damnee elle la licorne]

 

[Fata Morgana]

I thought we were cunts?

In a good way.