Uncontrollable Desires

[bottomshooter]

Interested in hearing from men with similar thoughts. After years of fighting it, a few years ago, I accepted my homosexual thoughts and fantasies are not only a key part of who I am sexually. They are now predominant, if not totally exclusive, in my thoughts as I sexually pleasure myself. When I first started watching porn, I would usually have an orgasm and then put it away and go about my day. For years, once I started reading and watching gay porn, playing with men in IM, voice, and vid, I can never totally put it away. Before gay porn and interaction, cum once and done, sometimes for days, sometimes for weeks. With gay porn and interaction, it is everyday and often multiple times. In the last 10 years, I have cum more to gay porn and gay interaction with men on-line more than I have my wife -- A LOT MORE. Over that 10 year period, probably 25:1. Over the last 2 years, probably 100:1. I can't help it. Hard cocks, cocks in male asses, men kissing, cum flying and men just being dirty together just makes me constantly horny.

 

[GentlemanJedi63]

Same here

Very similar desires and experiences for me as well. It took a long time for me to accept my desires, then another period of time before I allowed myself to identify them for what they were: homosexual. But, once I accepted them as part of my sexual being, not as a preference nor an orientation, I began enjoying a freedom, a self honesty, that I had never experienced. Nowadays, I can chat with a man online, and be honest about my gay interests and preferences, I can enjoy watching gay porn, and I can enjoy looking at nude men with no guilt, shame or embarrassment.

 

[bi_cpl_with_crossdresser]

I can relate 100% to this. When I was younger I would at times look at the gay ads in the porns I read and would get super excited and hate myself after. After I met my wife we started renting gay porn together and she liked it. I learned my desires were not bad to something to be ashamed of.

I only watch gay porn now.

 

[honestWithWifie]

Me? I'm bi. What all of you said above me PLUS women. Cocks, pussies, asses, panties, tits. I can't see eliminating 50% of sex partners. Bring everybody. Come one, come all.

 

[yukonnights]

Very similar desires and experiences for me as well. It took a long time for me to accept my desires, then another period of time before I allowed myself to identify them for what they were: homosexual. But, once I accepted them as part of my sexual being, not as a preference nor an orientation, I began enjoying a freedom, a self honesty, that I had never experienced. Nowadays, I can chat with a man online, and be honest about my gay interests and preferences, I can enjoy watching gay porn, and I can enjoy looking at nude men with no guilt, shame or embarrassment.

I'm so glad you said that part that I highlighted. This self-acceptance and self-honesty truly is an important element toward a settled peace with one's self. I've found that searching out the more scientific/medical information on human sexuality is a good start toward a better self-understanding. By whatever means one may secure this self-acceptance / self-honesty, it is important and worth the effort.

 

[klippert]

Just when i'm hands free hard thinking about sucking a thick cut cock, licking his smooth balls and ass....thinking about pushing into his hole...the next image is a beautiful natural curvy woman, smooth pussy...and my mind turns to her.
I'm 80% women 5% Men 5% 5% both...')

My hard-on for men is driven because the lack or no interest in sex from my wife.
My 6 inches of thought.

p.s.
I should also mention...those desire are under control. nearly three yrs in college I didn't control them..')

 

[GentlemanJedi63]

I'm so glad you said that part that I highlighted. This self-acceptance and self-honesty truly is an important element toward a settled peace with one's self. I've found that searching out the more scientific/medical information on human sexuality is a good start toward a better self-understanding. By whatever means one may secure this self-acceptance / self-honesty, it is important and worth the effort.

It took a very long time to get to this point, but it so satisfying. I denied myself for so long, and I began researching about male sexuality to get more info, but as long as I denied what I was feeling, then I wasn't helping myself. Admitting my desires was a first step,but I didn't find the peace with myself until I accepted my sexuality as part of who I am.

 

[carln3346]

It took a very long time to get to this point, but it so satisfying. I denied myself for so long, and I began researching about male sexuality to get more info, but as long as I denied what I was feeling, then I wasn't helping myself. Admitting my desires was a first step,but I didn't find the peace with myself until I accepted my sexuality as part of who I am.

Well said - I went though the same thing. Took years . . .

 

[erectologist]

Very compelling posts

 

[BBCfan]

I kinda delve into it in my first story but I think my bi oral curiosity started when reading porn in my teens. At that horny awakening age women were intimidating and seemed almost unattainable so the idea of shared Male sexuality was exciting to delve into and there was a comradeship and understanding surrounding that scenario.

For me always only j/o and oral were enticing. Once I got pussy though, those thoughts and ideas disappeared completely.

Wasn't until late 20s they reemerged very slowly. Was hard to understand yet the desire became obsessive and I craved playing it out.

Over the next 20 years I delved into it but was still always confused and very insecure about it. With research and finding a partner that found out everything I've been able to understand and be comfortable with it.

I no longer search for experiences, but I'm comfortable with desires and fantasy,without feeling as confused or question my masculinity as a pussy loving guy as well.

For me it seems more fetishism than bi or gay but the desires will never go away . To suppress or deny them is unhealthy I believe.

My wife has been a godsend with her support and love . The abiliity to roleplay with her has been an unexpected outlet that allows the desires to feel less uncontrollable.

 

[Dkskier]

Always was aware of my bi tendencies. But limited my gay activities, and married a woman in my mind twenties. When my marriage fell apart, have pursued both sexes for the past ten years.Have never been happier! I do admit that the more gay sex I have, the more I lean in that direction! Would absolutely love to find a kinky girl to allow both of us to play with others!!!

 

[Cbear56]

After some experimentation in college, I got married, career, kids etc. Once the ex decided she was not interested in sex, I re-visited my gay/bi side. I find gay sex MUCH more satisfying and gay images much more arousing. Gay stories, porn, chat always end with jerking off to completion. My regular FB moved out of state and I am looking for a new male playmate.

I want someone to go to the bathhouses, gay bars and ABS with me. I am a fan of voyeurism, exhibitionism and outdoor sex. If it involves sex with a man, I am interested.

 

[saintcero]

Literotica and SilverDaddies helped me with my desires. I came to understand that there were others like me and that helped me a lot. The internet has helped 'normalize' things that were once forbidden. I have now played for the other team and I enjoyed it, a lot. Glad this post was started.

 

[Astroman72]

My desires for gay sex came with puberty, right along with my desires for straight sex. With the porn images and stories I first came across, nice hard cocks turned me on just as much if not more than nice pussies.

But I would never say I was ever confused or inwardly ashamed about my sexuality. Right from the beginning, I never had any romantic interest in men anything like the way I felt with women. I always knew my desire for cock was purely physical, pleasurable in the same way as masturbation. Because I never felt like it was at the core of my being, I never found it difficult to compartmentalize it and keep it totally private.

I do remember one funny thing, though. I never had a drink of alcohol in high school, so I had no idea what its effects would be on me---in movies and TV people were always drinking and losing all control, and then not remembering what happened the night before. When I got to college and drinking was more common, I remember the first couple of weeks being really scared of getting drunk and telling everyone how much I loved cock and wanted to give blowjobs!

I've pretty much chosen to be celibate with regard to gay sex over the years, because I know I don't want a gay relationship, and I'm not really a casual sex, random hookup guy. For the most part masturbation, porn and toys keep me reasonably satisfied on that front, and I don't feel a need to take it further than that.

Now if the ideal situation presented itself, and I found a totally discreet, trustworthy buddy with a big cut cock who needed to be serviced regularly, I probably wouldn't be able to resist it. But if it never happens, that's okay too.

 

[LoftyCraig]

After some experimentation in college, I got married, career, kids etc. Once the ex decided she was not interested in sex, I re-visited my gay/bi side. I find gay sex MUCH more satisfying and gay images much more arousing. Gay stories, porn, chat always end with jerking off to completion. My regular FB moved out of state and I am looking for a new male playmate.

I want someone to go to the bathhouses, gay bars and ABS with me. I am a fan of voyeurism, exhibitionism and outdoor sex. If it involves sex with a man, I am interested.

i agree bear

 

[FeelingLikeMyself]

Me? I'm bi. What all of you said above me PLUS women. Cocks, pussies, asses, panties, tits. I can't see eliminating 50% of sex partners. Bring everybody. Come one, come all.

100% although I prefer my men to be on the more feminine side of looks

 

[Marty Fisher]

Interested in hearing from men with similar thoughts. After years of fighting it, a few years ago, I accepted my homosexual thoughts and fantasies are not only a key part of who I am sexually. They are now predominant, if not totally exclusive, in my thoughts as I sexually pleasure myself. When I first started watching porn, I would usually have an orgasm and then put it away and go about my day. For years, once I started reading and watching gay porn, playing with men in IM, voice, and vid, I can never totally put it away. Before gay porn and interaction, cum once and done, sometimes for days, sometimes for weeks. With gay porn and interaction, it is everyday and often multiple times. In the last 10 years, I have cum more to gay porn and gay interaction with men on-line more than I have my wife -- A LOT MORE. Over that 10 year period, probably 25:1. Over the last 2 years, probably 100:1. I can't help it. Hard cocks, cocks in male asses, men kissing, cum flying and men just being dirty together just makes me constantly horny.

Suppression is a not so funny thing. The more we're told we can't or shouldn't have something, the more we're interested in having it. I'm betting if you look back on your life, you, like so many other men, probably had some type of interest or curiosity about sex with other men, at least in some format. Those feelings more likely got suppressed and you lived a strictly hetero lifestyle. Now that the hetero part has died down, your desire for sexual pleasure still exists and the thing that you suppressed for so long is front and center. You're really not unusual here, there are 100s of thousands of men like you. Embrace it and have fun with it even if it's only in your fantasies....

 

[Marty Fisher]

Me? I'm bi. What all of you said above me PLUS women. Cocks, pussies, asses, panties, tits. I can't see eliminating 50% of sex partners. Bring everybody. Come one, come all.

A-fucking-men!!! Why play on only one side of the fence while starring at the other side and wondering what-if?!? I really think bisexuality is where we ALL should start and then go wherever it feels right to you (and cum back over and over if you change your mind). We are constantly evolving and we grow through experience, not suppression! Variety is the spice of life - mix it up peeps and enjoy!!!

 

[BradG2365]

For the past couple of years when i look at porn I fantasize about being the woman in the picture, I no longer see myself as taking the man's role. I'm still attracted to women and only want to kiss a woman, but I also cant stop thinking about being on my knees and sucking a big hard juicy cock or being on my hands and knees and feeling a big hard cock fucking my ass. I've also become addicted to masturbating to sissy porn.

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[Pines]

After some experimentation in college, I got married, career, kids etc. Once the ex decided she was not interested in sex, I re-visited my gay/bi side. I find gay sex MUCH more satisfying and gay images much more arousing. Gay stories, porn, chat always end with jerking off to completion. My regular FB moved out of state and I am looking for a new male playmate.

I want someone to go to the bathhouses, gay bars and ABS with me. I am a fan of voyeurism, exhibitionism and outdoor sex. If it involves sex with a man, I am interested.

Also very interested in going to the bathhouse, ABS and outdoor play. Looking forward to places opening back up again.