*True Confessions*

[Curious_Fem]

Re: Re: 6000

I'll avoid the Levitra and Viagra. Can't have you putting me on ignore.

Just keep posting those pics, I'm pretty sure the Levitra and Viagra won't be needed.

 

[gina3]

Re: 6000

Think I talk too much? Don't answer that.



Jeff, didn't your mom ever tell you it's not nice to brag? Keep it up and you must go on ignore again. Wait, I can't do that or I won't be able to see the yummy thread I just stumbled across. Damn it all.

Is IS quite yummy!!!

Only it would be even better if there were a few yummy pics of the thread starter too.....

 

[Curious_Fem]

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Is IS quite yummy!!!

Only it would be even better if there were a few yummy pics of the thread starter too.....

*nodding*

Maybe we'll even get to see pics of them together.

On a side note, the President is just about to fly out of Columbus. Good riddance.

 

[gina3]

Re: Re: Re: 6000

*nodding*

Maybe we'll even get to see pics of them together.

On a side note, the President is just about to fly out of Columbus. Good riddance.

Yes, pics of them together would be sublime


I know I'm bad Lord, but I just can't help it.....LOL

 

[gina3]

Confession...

I posted this in my thread, but I also thought it was perfect for the confessional.

As if you couldn't tell...
I've been really out of sorts lately. I'm not quite sure what to do, don't know if the decision I've made is right. I guess we never do really know if we're making the right decisions. It would be so much more simple if I didn't love him so- if I could hold back my feelings for him. If those eyes didn't melt me every time I look into them. But I don't seem to be able to do that. I am powerless against it. I can't help but shout from the rooftops my love for him. And I hate myself all the more for it. I've learned that leaving myself so open and vulnerable leads to nothing but pain and heartache for me. So I must be an idiot because it doesn't stop me. He has my heart, my body, my soul, my devotion- all the love that I have to give. And he knows it because I can't seem to keep my mouth shut. I can't hide the love in my eyes. He can't envision the future with us, but that's all I've been able to see. I'm afraid I've frightened him, pushed him too far- all without meaning to.

So I've taken a step back, a huge step back. I've tried to harden my heart, to steel my spine against the hurt, to be strong. But it's hard. Every day it's hard. But I love him enough to give him some room, to not weigh him down with my need. To give him time to discover what he wants, if I am in fact what he wants. We are still together and seeing each other and we still have a great time together. But I have definitely taken a different direction with my actions- not out of spite or punishment because he doesn't feel the same way I do, but out of love and respect for him. But the walls have come back up around my heart. I don't know that I'll ever feel safe enough to bring them down again.

All I want in life is to make him happy, as happy as he has made me. I want to stand by his side, help him build his dreams, be his comfort from the pain, be the safe harbour for his feelings. I want to share my life with him. Will I have that? I don't know. But I suppose nobody ever knows what they're going to get(insert Forrest Gump quote here) I am grateful for the love I have, the joy he has brought me and the wonderful times we continue to have with each other.

Thank you for enduring my rambling, because even I don't know what it is I'm trying to say here. But I appreciate you taking the time to read it and trying to understand where I'm coming from. I know you're here to see my pics first and foremost so I'll go back to my regularly scheduled programming

 

[DreamOfSun]

(((( Gina )))) I wish I had the right words for you. All I can say is that life leads us where we are meant to be, and you will find your way. Just follow your heart. I can only imagine how difficult it is for you right now.

And just so you know, I think he is a fool.

X12

 

[DreamOfSun]

Well, I just got home and there was a message on my machine regarding the job. They want to make an offer, but now I have to wait until morning to talk to them.

Confession: I am very impatient.

 

[gina3]

(((( Gina )))) I wish I had the right words for you. All I can say is that life leads us where we are meant to be, and you will find your way. Just follow your heart. I can only imagine how difficult it is for you right now.

And just so you know, I think he is a fool.

X12

Thank you sweetie I'm just trying to see where each day leads me. It has helped to try to sort out my feelings here.

And see? I KNEW you'd get that job! CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!


Now it's time to celebrate

 

[nrcma98]

Well, I just got home and there was a message on my machine regarding the job. They want to make an offer, but now I have to wait until morning to talk to them.

Confession: I am very impatient.

You? Impatient?!?!

Never!

Congratulations, Love!

 

[nrcma98]

Re: Re: Re: Re: 6000

Yes, pics of them together would be sublime


I know I'm bad Lord, but I just can't help it.....LOL

Together?!?

I don't think any of those exist

<whistles innocently>

 

[omahaman2]

http://cards.webshots.com/resources2/1/7231.jpg

will write more after i get done holding jenny in my arms!!
ok lets say, i might post later!!

 

[1fiestyredhead]

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Together?!?

I don't think any of those exist

<whistles innocently>

for some reason you can't seem to pull off that innocent act Jeff...


Dreamy- congrats girl! They knew quality and class when they saw it. And your good luck seems to be helping my job search too, after 3 weeks of nothing, I finally got three calls on resumes and applications I've sent out.

Oman- Welcome home..enjoy your homecoming!!

Gina- I know it's such a hard situation to be in. I agree that he's a fool not to grab you tight and never let go. And if he doesn't he'll be the one with the regrets someday, because you are destined to find someone that will give you exactly what it is you need. I hope he wakes up before it's too late. *hugs*

C_F- thanks for the good luck wishes...It's an entirely new experience for me and I am taking it one day at a time. My past experiences have left me a bit cautious and I'm still afraid to embrace this too quickly. I've learned hard lessons and I don't want to get hurt again. But for the time being, it does feel good.

 

[omahaman2]

TY FIESTY
its great to be back
with you all
oh and also
with what's her name!

 

[tonitits]

(((((((((((Oman))))))))))) welcome home! Enjoy your time with Jenny.

Dreamy - Congratulations on the job.

Fiesty - hang in there.

Gina - I know what you are going through, sort of. Hang in there and I know that some day the right man will come along, if this is the one you want... I hope he wises up and realizes it before it is too late. Good luck.

To everyone else hope you have a wonderful weekend.

If I forgot someone...sorry. Gotta go for now. Take care.

 

[Wintermute]

I'm off

Going up to Minneapolis to get the kids for a few weeks. While I'm there, I'm staying with my ex-wife and her new husband. They got married Tuesday, just in time for me to get there. Coincidince? Maybe. But I can't help but think that the new man may be a little afraid of the old husband, to whom she was married to for 14 years, may want to come in and reclaim what was his. I have absolutely no interest in doing that.

Anyhow, I'll be off the boards for the next three days. Just in case anyone misses me.

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Re: I'm off

Going up to Minneapolis to get the kids for a few weeks. While I'm there, I'm staying with my ex-wife and her new husband. They got married Tuesday, just in time for me to get there. Coincidince? Maybe. But I can't help but think that the new man may be a little afraid of the old husband, to whom she was married to for 14 years, may want to come in and reclaim what was his. I have absolutely no interest in doing that.

Anyhow, I'll be off the boards for the next three days. Just in case anyone misses me.

In case anyone misses you? You know I'll miss you! Have a safe, fun trip hun!!

 

[SecretScribe]

Just a momentary stop to hello to everyone.

Went to the doc this morning to see what was up with the new set of MRIs / Xrays ... his response (paraphrased) ... these look excellent ... why are you in pain?

 

[gina3]

SS- that has to be frustrating to the extreme- when they can't tell you what's wrong with you! I honestly hope he can figure it all out so you can get back to being you!

Thank you to everyone for your encouragement- it means so much to me I honestly felt much better after I wrote down what all was going through my head. I've just been so confused but I'm doing much better. I just don't want it to seem like I'm bashing him in any way. Because I'm not. I'm more upset with myself than anything. He is wonderful and loves me. He's just not ready to commit. I can't fault him for that.(well, I could but I won't LOL) At least he cares enough to be honest with me- something we've always promised we would be with each other.

But on to other topics.

When are we going to get to see pics of Jeff and Dreamy?

(no I didn't forget)

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Sometimes it's amazing just what putting something down in writing can do Gina...I'm glad you're feeling better.

SS- hon, I can feel your frustration all the way over here... *gentle hugs*

I confess that I'm mega excited about picking my son up at the airport tomorrow and spending two glorious weeks with him here. I also confess that there is a little part of me that wants him to love it here so much he decides he doesn't want to go back, but that's the selfish side of me showing.
and the new man in my life seems to be almost as excited as I am...practically begging me to swing by his place on our way home from the airport...lol. It feels good to have a man who's not afraid to become enmeshed in my life for a change.

 

[DreamOfSun]

But on to other topics.

When are we going to get to see pics of Jeff and Dreamy?

(no I didn't forget)

Hmmm... too bad I am going out of town for two weeks in the morning. And, I have no idea what you are talking about.

 

[DreamOfSun]

It feels good to have a man who's not afraid to become enmeshed in my life for a change.

I am so happy for you! Have a great visit with your son!

 

[JennyOmanHill]

A few thoughts

After reading (and knowing) what some ladies are going through lately, I thought I would share my personal experience I had with a man I had been in love with.

I suppose it's not fair to generalize any group of people, but many of the men I know seem to be "sealed off" from commitments of any kind, although they claim they want to be involved with a good partner.

Personally, I spent 8 years being in love with a man who loved me back, although he didn't want a "commitment". I was happy most of this time, but whenever he felt "cornered" or "pressured", he would back away and leave me in the lurch.

I knew my feelings for him, and I know that he loved me, but it just didn't match up. We finally shared an incident that brought it home to my muddled mind that this man was never going to allow himself to get close enough to anyone, and that I had gotten "too close" for his comfort.

Even though it took almost a decade for me to realize this (some friends of mine had more of a "hint" than I did), and my heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest, I finally made the decision that I was going to "change" the way I loved this man, and just live my life for myself.

I never wanted to get close to anyone that way, but amazingly I ran into LIT, and into the life of the 'Man I allowed myself to fall in love with. To be in love with someone who is IN love with you in return is the most glorious feeling!

That other man is still in my life, and I am actually thankful that he finally had the guts to set me straight (instead of continuing to lead me on). He loved me the best way he knew how, but just wouldn't allow himself to "commit", since he had been hurt by a woman in his past. He is still living with keeping his heart "sheltered", but fortunately, both Oman and I have kept him in our lives. I believe he'll always be our friend.

The love I discovered with Oman is so unbelieveably different than any love I had ever experienced! If I stayed with the other guy, I would have been selling myself short.

I know I'm a lucky lady, and I do believe there comes a time when we need to just let go of someone we love as they cannot always love us back the same way. We deserve to be loved unconditionally, and I believe it will happen, even if we cannot see or believe it at the present time.

Let love happen, and if we find someone who does not return that same level of love back, we should move on. It's a very hard thing to imagine doing, but I promise if you leave yourself open, love WILL find you.

whew....

okay... I'm finished for now!

 

[InLust]

Very well put Jenny. Love is one of those areas that can be painfull, confussing, soul renching and yet, it can be one of the most beautiful experiences we as humans can know.

Just doing a quick stop in this morning, have alot on my plate for today. Hoping everyone a bright and cheery weekend....and for those of you getting lucky, remember those of us who ain't....and do it twice

 

[Bandit58]

Re: A few thoughts

After reading (and knowing) what some ladies are going through lately, I thought I would share my personal experience I had with a man I had been in love with.

I suppose it's not fair to generalize any group of people, but many of the men I know seem to be "sealed off" from commitments of any kind, although they claim they want to be involved with a good partner.

Personally, I spent 8 years being in love with a man who loved me back, although he didn't want a "commitment". I was happy most of this time, but whenever he felt "cornered" or "pressured", he would back away and leave me in the lurch.

I knew my feelings for him, and I know that he loved me, but it just didn't match up. We finally shared an incident that brought it home to my muddled mind that this man was never going to allow himself to get close enough to anyone, and that I had gotten "too close" for his comfort.

Even though it took almost a decade for me to realize this (some friends of mine had more of a "hint" than I did), and my heart felt like it had been ripped out of my chest, I finally made the decision that I was going to "change" the way I loved this man, and just live my life for myself.

I never wanted to get close to anyone that way, but amazingly I ran into LIT, and into the life of the 'Man I allowed myself to fall in love with. To be in love with someone who is IN love with you in return is the most glorious feeling!

That other man is still in my life, and I am actually thankful that he finally had the guts to set me straight (instead of continuing to lead me on). He loved me the best way he knew how, but just wouldn't allow himself to "commit", since he had been hurt by a woman in his past. He is still living with keeping his heart "sheltered", but fortunately, both Oman and I have kept him in our lives. I believe he'll always be our friend.

The love I discovered with Oman is so unbelieveably different than any love I had ever experienced! If I stayed with the other guy, I would have been selling myself short.

I know I'm a lucky lady, and I do believe there comes a time when we need to just let go of someone we love as they cannot always love us back the same way. We deserve to be loved unconditionally, and I believe it will happen, even if we cannot see or believe it at the present time.

Let love happen, and if we find someone who does not return that same level of love back, we should move on. It's a very hard thing to imagine doing, but I promise if you leave yourself open, love WILL find you.

whew....

okay... I'm finished for now!

Jenny.....you and I are so very lucky, to have that unconditional love.......

After I left my husband, I met someone online who I fell in love with. We were both vulnerable at the time - he was in an unhappy marriage, I had just left one - and we just seemed to click, even though we lived 5 hours drive apart. We met in r/l 2 months later, and it was everything I had dreamed of.....but he was trapped in the marriage, she was an emotional blackmailer of the first order and manipulated him dreadfully. For those few days every few weeks though, there was just us.....when I'd drive down to stay in a motel and he would visit and take me out during the day. It was enough at the time, and he taught me about sex and making love and how wonderful it is with someone who cares and loves you.

But after almost a year, he called it off. I'm grateful he had the courage to do that now, but at the time I was devastated. But if he hadn't, I wouldn't be where I am today, in a 24/7 relationship with a lovely caring man.....even though his health is cause for concern, the love we share is so special and it's a hundred times better than what I had with someone who could not commit to me, even though he did love me.

This man came along at the right time, to show me what I had missed for all those years before. He also showed me that there was something better for me out there, and it was right under my nose all the time. We are still friends, exchange emails now and then, and he still says I am the only person to have seen the real him that he keeps locked inside. I hope one day he can be himself, it won't be with me, but one day he'll be happy

 

[InLust]

Keep this philosophy in mind the next time you either hear, or are about to repeat, a rumor...

In ancient Greece (469 - 399 BCE), Socrates was widely lauded for his wisdom. One day the great philosopher came upon an acquaintance who ran up to him excitedly and said, "Socrates, let me tell you what I just heard about one of your students?"

"Wait a moment," Socrates replied. "Before you tell me I'd like you to pass a little test. It's called the Triple Filter Test."

"Triple filter?", asked the man.

"That's right," Socrates continued. "Before you talk to me about my student, let's take a moment to filter what you're going to say. The first filter is Truth. Have you made absolutely sure that what you are about to tell me is true?"

"No," the man said, "actually I just heard about it and..."

"All right," said Socrates. "So you don't really know if it's true or not.. Now let's try the second filter; the filter of Goodness. Is what you are about to tell me about my student something good?"

"No, Socrates, on the contrary..."

"So," Socrates continued, "you want to tell me something bad about him, even though you're not certain it's true?"

The man shrugged, a little embarrassed. Socrates continued. "You may still pass the test though, because there is a third filter; the filter of Usefulness. Is what you want to tell me about my student going to be useful to me?"

"No, not really."

"Well," concluded Socrates, "if what you want to tell me is neither True, or Good, nor even Useful, why tell it to me at all?"

The man was defeated and ashamed.

This is the reason Socrates was a great philosopher and held in such high esteem.

It also explains why he never found out that Plato was banging his wife.