VelvetDarkness
Polysyllable Whore x
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- May 24, 2006
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I have to return here again, Velvet.
The experience of being traded in for a new model after years of faithful service is no joke. Especially if he's used you pretty rough and pretty hard.
In my experience (and I'm almost 50 years old), this has been the hardest of the hard things to face.
It is a real fear. Very much so.
As a slave, I have given so much of myself to him, I have moulded myself to become whatever it is he decides he wants. I would find it very hard to be released.
Also, we have no children and no plans for any whatsoever. There is nothing to glue us together but us and how well we function as a couple. I'm not saying that kids are some kind of relationship insurance policy, far from it, but I do worry that as time passes we'll find it hard to keep our spark.
He could take an additional slave if he wanted to and if he ever decided to take us into polyland, I would give it my very best shot. I don't want to limit his options or stand in the way of his happiness, far from it, but I'm still selfish enough to want my own happiness and security. I would like to think that if things really weren't working, I would accept that and deal with it. The longer I remain L's though, the harder it will ever be for me to accept that we might have reached a point where we had tried our very best for each other, and still failed.
I used to say that if something happened and I became single again I would cope like an adult but these days, I just don't believe myself any more.