panty_chap
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- Nov 17, 2022
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I have in the past referred to myself as a reluctant sissy. What I mean by that is, in everyday life I rarely have any desires along those lines. It's not that I try to hide the desire to be a sissy, it truly doesn't exist.
For years I thought it was just a kink. The lingerie, the chats, webcams, all just kinky thrills but not who I truly was. But then something will happen that makes me realize there's more to it than that. As I was being brought to the realization it's not just a kink, there was one thing that I felt exposed me the most.
I had someone on fetlife who was a cyberdom. He encouraged me to do a couple things I didn't think I'd enjoy, but I'd enjoy doing them for someone if that makes any sense. The submission would be fun. Or maybe the humiliation/embarrassment of it. After getting me to accept that I wasn't "straight" he led me down a path to being more of a sissy. One of those things was I had to start training myself to receive pleasure in ways other than direct stimulation. I was to start anal training.
I had used toys before, but the thrill wasn't in how they felt, it was in allowing myself to be penetrated. When this person suggested I needed to get stimulation only though allowing myself to be penetrated, I agreed because the idea of allowing it was exciting. I bought a remote controlled vibrator especially for the upcoming tasks, and later I added a basic plug.
The vibrator was slightly larger than other toys I had used, and at first somewhat hard to accept, but with patience I was able to get there. The feeling was strange but the main thing for me was the fact I had done it. Followed suggestion. Been an obedient sissy.
The vibrations felt nice too of course. I would post a link to control the vibrator so random people could give me a thrill. The surprise when it would jump to life was fun, as was the pattern they would choose to use with me. And that's when I realized my body would betray me. As much as I told myself that the enjoyment was in doing something I didn't like simply because I was being submissive, I found that the wet spots in the front of my panties were bigger than usual. It was hard to deny I like the sensation of being penetrated (and shaken) when my panties were getting wet.
And they were getting SO wet. I never came but there were times when they were wetter than if I had. The flow of pre-cum was so heavy I could actually feel it moving through me. I loved it. No control. My body betraying my thoughts that I didn't like it. Of course I liked it.
I liked being fucked by a vibrator. With experience it got easier to slide in. I got to the point where just inserting it was enough to force pre-cum into my panties.
After one early session, I removed the vibrator but could still it's effect. It felt good even after pulling it out. I was hooked.
So now, in my every day "straight" life I can't believe that I like anal sex, but I know that if something were to penetrate me my moan would be pleasure.
I can't deny it. The wet spot on the front of my panties would give it away. I'm a sissy who wants to get fucked. Who wants to feel a vibrator or dildo or cock sliding into my lubricated sissy pussy. I can't believe I'm typing this, I would never admit it in everyday life, but it's true.
For years I thought it was just a kink. The lingerie, the chats, webcams, all just kinky thrills but not who I truly was. But then something will happen that makes me realize there's more to it than that. As I was being brought to the realization it's not just a kink, there was one thing that I felt exposed me the most.
I had someone on fetlife who was a cyberdom. He encouraged me to do a couple things I didn't think I'd enjoy, but I'd enjoy doing them for someone if that makes any sense. The submission would be fun. Or maybe the humiliation/embarrassment of it. After getting me to accept that I wasn't "straight" he led me down a path to being more of a sissy. One of those things was I had to start training myself to receive pleasure in ways other than direct stimulation. I was to start anal training.
I had used toys before, but the thrill wasn't in how they felt, it was in allowing myself to be penetrated. When this person suggested I needed to get stimulation only though allowing myself to be penetrated, I agreed because the idea of allowing it was exciting. I bought a remote controlled vibrator especially for the upcoming tasks, and later I added a basic plug.
The vibrator was slightly larger than other toys I had used, and at first somewhat hard to accept, but with patience I was able to get there. The feeling was strange but the main thing for me was the fact I had done it. Followed suggestion. Been an obedient sissy.
The vibrations felt nice too of course. I would post a link to control the vibrator so random people could give me a thrill. The surprise when it would jump to life was fun, as was the pattern they would choose to use with me. And that's when I realized my body would betray me. As much as I told myself that the enjoyment was in doing something I didn't like simply because I was being submissive, I found that the wet spots in the front of my panties were bigger than usual. It was hard to deny I like the sensation of being penetrated (and shaken) when my panties were getting wet.
And they were getting SO wet. I never came but there were times when they were wetter than if I had. The flow of pre-cum was so heavy I could actually feel it moving through me. I loved it. No control. My body betraying my thoughts that I didn't like it. Of course I liked it.
I liked being fucked by a vibrator. With experience it got easier to slide in. I got to the point where just inserting it was enough to force pre-cum into my panties.
After one early session, I removed the vibrator but could still it's effect. It felt good even after pulling it out. I was hooked.
So now, in my every day "straight" life I can't believe that I like anal sex, but I know that if something were to penetrate me my moan would be pleasure.
I can't deny it. The wet spot on the front of my panties would give it away. I'm a sissy who wants to get fucked. Who wants to feel a vibrator or dildo or cock sliding into my lubricated sissy pussy. I can't believe I'm typing this, I would never admit it in everyday life, but it's true.
