I just need a friend right now

[TheHorse]

found out.. I may never walk again... my knee injury got made even worse during surgery... they said... if I did ever walk again... it would be hard going.. go figure it would happen exactly 1 year after my fiancee left me... I'm really feeling down right now... I dont know what I am gonna do... I'm crying... I'm shaking with anger.... I just... I'm confussed

 

[Mae13]

*Tight hug*

Peace to you, friend. And health. If that truly cannot be pure physical health, then may it be bolstered by strong mental, emotional, and spiritual health.

There is always someone somewhere for you. I am not meaning this in a romantic way, that's not always the most important thing. I mean support wise. Just have to know where to look sometimes

*more hugs*
Mae

 

[TheHorse]

thank you

I never thought I would end up like this.. joined the army at 17... before I was even fully graduated from highschool... I was in such physical condition.. never had much as for as inteligence... but now... I dont even have but half my physical ability... I've been sitting here wanting to pull the trigger all day... but thats not me... I just... I dont know if I can do this... so many dreams... so many hopes.. all for nothing now...

 

[T.H. Oughts]

Sending bigs hugs to you horse

 

[Mae13]

Woah...ok hun, now we're playing a whole different ball game. Nothing is the end all unless you let it be. Now, I can't talk for you, and I can't say I know how you're feeling, because I don't because I'm not you. What I AM saying is there is always something else. And it SUCKS having to find it sometimes, and having to change a path you thought was so set, but it can be done, and you can do it.
I HAVE been where you're at right now, though. I've bonded with cold steel over the course of a day, wondering if it all was worth it. And even on my shittiest days now, I am always glad I chose as I did. I chose the right way.
I think you need to call someone right now. Family member, friend, hospital, cops, I don't care. But I *would* like you to do that. I don't know you from Adam, and this may be some joke to someone down the road, but I don't play this game well.
Call someone. Please. Now.

Mae

 

[Guest]

Re: thank you

 

[Bindii]

Hey don't give up. I'm sorry that you are having a hard time right now, I'm sorry that you have been told that you may never walk again - but try to focus on all those other people out there that have proven the doctors wrong! You can do this!!!
Don't give up on your dreams, life is what you make it.
Sending and your way.

 

[Jacqline]

Believe me, I know how hard it is to lose someone special in your life; I also watched my Mom as she lost her ability to walk.......She never lost her spirit and she was an inspiration to anyone who met her..........Nurses used to fight over her in the hospital. (They all wanted to take care of her). If you choose, you never have to lose the person that you are. Maybe this is happening to you to be an example to others........I know it isn't an easy road but if you can find the positives in your life, concentrate on those ( No matter what, there is always someone who has it worse than you). Never lose your sense of humor..........Mom always kept us laughing. In the last two years of her life, she went through 21 surgeries and beat all the odds of making it through each and every one of them. She is the bravest, most loving, funniest person I will ever know. I would love to see you take up where she left off................I will hold you in my prayers and hope that you choose the high road.

 

[Black_Bird]

http://www.cdc.gov/safeusa/suicide.htm

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

http://www.befrienders.org/

http://www.yellowribbon.org/

http://www.pbs.org/weblab/living/

Here! Before you do something drastic - read these.

It isn't you - it's a disease that can be cured.

Befrenders.org has a chat section, I think... TALK TO SOMEONE. Call a friend, a nieghbor, a relative... Call your fucking boss if you need to - SOME ONE!

 

[Mae13]

Hon, I've been volunteering and/or working in some way connected to health care for about 10 years now. I've seen the most amazing stuff you could think of. I've walked patients out the door a month after they were told they had days to live. I've taken care of people that popped out of comas after being in them for quite a while, and be pretty darn close to normal. The kinda stuff you usually only read about, I've seen.

Medicine and doctors are NOT infalliable. They are NOT gods. What they ARE is wrong sometimes. Strength of spirit can overcome so many things; THAT is the stuff of "miracles"! You say you were in the Army...think of your military training experience. Think of the days when things were the worst you could imagine and you had an 'impossible' mission. Did you give up, or did you rally with your brothers in arms and get the job done? The rest of life is the same way hon. You can choose to give up the fight. That decision is solely up to you. The pride is IN the fight though. That's what being human is all about, our strength and diligence and perseverance. You can get through this. Nothing needs to be this black and white.

I don't know where you are located in the US, but if you need it, if this is real, there's a number you can call:

1-800-784-2433
-or-
1-866-334-4357

If you're talking seriously about what it seems you are.

Be Well,
Mae

 

[SilverVeil]

I can understand your fears of what life is going to be like. My b/f is looking at the same thing. It is not going to be easy, but I really think if you have made it this far, then you are stronger than what you believe.

Face this as a challenge you have to meet. Being in the Army should not have taught you to quit, look back on the resolve you had there. And coming to terms with this is not going to be easy.

But there ARE people you can talk to. If you make that first step and call them.

But you have to do that. No one here can make you. But we can send hopes and prayers to you and let you know we are thinking of you with love and caring.

 

[sch00lteacher]

1. Get all of the alcohol and or drugs outta the house. Flush them, pour it down the sink, whatever. Get up and do it now, then come back and read the rest of this message.

2. Put the damned gun away.

3. Call the local help line, dig through the phone book to find them. If you can't PM me, and I'll give you my phone number and we can talk.

4. If I can walk with two steel hips, you'll be able to walk with one steel knee. No matter how much they fuck it up, it can be replaced.

5. If your serious then you need major help right now, if nothing else, call 911. NOW.

I fucked my life up many times when I was young. I was always sure that this was it, my life was worthless. Now I have a wife, house, two kids, a dog, and four cats. I can afford to buy shit, etc. But I didn't know that was going to happen when I was 20 something and the love of my life started to fuck around on me. I thought it was over.

Call someone, pm me.

Damn it, if you don't then you should never have posted this shit for us to read, that wouldn't be 'fair'.

 

[SINthysist]

I don't know you and you don't have enough posts to establish whether or not you are jerking my chain.

For the others who read this,

"What are you doing letting 'they' decide what you can and cannot do?"

 

[Nobody Special's wife]

1.Ending your life is not going to solve any of your problems

2.You can always have a replacement knee

3.Nothing is bad as it seems ..Your in good perfect health except for your knee

4.Your never going to walk again you say .. never say never because never ever happens.

4. be proud you don't have a life threaten disease that you would lose your life

5.Put your head up high give your self a hug and you can make it ..
There are alot of people that are not able to walk yet they can make it ..SO can you


HUGs
NSW

 

[Cheyenne]

You know, there are several people who post here regularly who I know are in wheelchairs.

You said you may not be able to walk, not that it is definite that you won't be able to. Prove the doctors wrong- do it! Determination is more than half the battle.

Anyway, I was trying to remember who our wheelchair people are here and you know, I can't! Fly on the wall, I think? I wanted to point out that they are the same as the rest of us, in a wheelchair or not. The rest of their lives go on and they adapt. Guess I proved my own point because I'm really drawing a blank on who they are.

And please post again to let us know how you're doing. We're a great support group if you give us a chance! (Look at all the great people above who tried to help you last night. )

 

[sch00lteacher]

Bump

I don't want this to get lost back in the board somewhere.

 

[Guest]

And I thought I was in a bad mood.

I've spent my life in mental health. PM me any time you'd like - you've got a lot of friends, a lot of support from the fine folks here at Lit. I can help you find help in your area if you'd like - I have connections to providers all over the country. You can and will survive. I've had people slit their wrists right in front of me - I'm getting flashbacks of the horror just typing this. They survived. You will too. You will to - just never give up.

All of my best wishes. Remember, we're all here for you, praying for you.

 

[TheHorse]

Thank you... all of you

I never realized how compastionate the human race was... bt.. seeing all your repies has given me hope... I'm not gonna let this hold me down... I'm better than that... There not gonna tun this GI into a disabled... I refuse to let that happen. I'll walk again... I will... and you'l all know when I do... I'll post how my progress i going... I'll let all of you know that cared enough to respond that I'm alright... and when I get rid of this wheel chair... I'll send you all pictures of me running and jumping and Dancing... this isn;'t the end... its just a pot whole in th road of life... I'll get through this... Thank you.. all of you...

 

[Jacqline]

I am very happy to see that, with a new day and lots of caring responses, that you had a turn around. I am glad that you trusted us enough to open up. One thing I have noticed from this board is that there are tons of compassionate, caring, wonderful people here. I am so glad that I came here.

Please always remember to take good care of yourself. We are our own best friend. ( You have several friends here as well).
Make each day special. I find that, when I reach out to others, it also makes my day better. Have a wonderful day!

 

[Honeygirl]

Good on you lovey...Go well.

Looking forward to those running/jumping pics - you can do it...

 

[heterotic]

I'm not a health professional, mental or otherwise, but I do know people with titanium knees, the entire joint simply removed and replaced, and they walk fine, run, go to the gym and do squats.
I'm also not really that good at knowing the right thing to say, but I'll offer another real-life observation: Many hopes and dreams require only a little adjustment and significantly more work after being set back by an injury.

 

[Guest]

TheHorse,

If you ever need to talk, please contact me. I can be a sounding board, a verbal punching bag, and a pretty good friend.

I wish you must peace and comfort, friend.

 

[photographer]

Get your mind right - the rest will follow

Hi there
I have been involved in an armed struggle! Some called it a war of liberation, I called it a complete waste of the youth of both sides!

There were horrific injuries, and the injured fell into two distinct categories.
Those who went directly into "give-up" mode and those who resolved not to let their injuries get them down.

By talking to yourself (and others if possible) and analysing your injury, you will soon discover that life isn't so bad after all.

A knee? My God, I have seen people without legs who are so active, so full of life and so POSITIVE you would never know of their disability!

The human mind is an awesomely powerful thing. Use it.

If you are determined to get up and get going, secure in the knowledge that YOU ARE THE BEST, you will be walking, running, dancing and chasing all the lovely Literotica ladies in no time.

Hang in there, friend - and if you need a bit of one-on-one, PM me. I live too far away for a telephone conversation, but if I can help in any other way, get hold of me - don't hesitate.

Now - look out for a real cute blonde (or brunette, or redhead) and go chase her down the passage!!!!

Wishing you every success - thinking of you and KNOWING you'll be A-OK!

 

[MunchinMark]

If you need an aim in life, walking running and dancing again isn't such a bad one.

I look forward to seeing 'The Horse Story' as a sunday afternoon made for TV movie.

 

[sch00lteacher]

I would still like feel better if you told me that all the alcohol and drugs were gone from your house. Because if you get drunk again, this is all going to come back.

I would also feel better if you told us you had an appointment to talk to someone about this. The VA does it if money is a concern. But I would avoid them. Seek help. Your not going to get better until you do.

Remember you do have friends here. Look at all the reponses you got. You feel bad, need to talk? Come tell one of the people here. We'll talk to you, as long as necessary.

Get rid of the gun(s). You do not need them around right now. Let a buddy hold on to them for you. If nothing else sell the damned things.

Literotica is not a porn board. It is a community of adults, and a few kids , who care about each other. Sure people come here to tease and play, but when someone is in need it is amazing how quickly they will come to your aid.

As one disabled Vet to another, hang in there man, this ain't shit. You've seen real shit. You'll get past this, but not alone. Gonna need help bro.