calypso_21 said:
Caly...sometimes I don't know whether to hug you or swat you.
Damn, you chiccies are awfully stubborn.
I do agree, in fact, I said as much in a thread I started last night, but...but....ahh heck. I'm tired and my brain is not workin at its usual half capacity. Just know I'm agreeing with you just a bit, OK?
I don't feel great admitting this, but for some reason its harder when your appearance is attacked and your pics are used against you, versus when your mind and spirit are attacked, or you're just not liked. So yes, my initial reaction was more than I care to admit to....but on the other side of that was the realization that I never should have gone as far as I did because I laid myself open to many negative aspects of the internet and a sort of person/people that I just can't handle, and refuse to even try to. My pics could now be anywhere at all, and used against me in horrible ways. Its all perspective and context, I know, but life is not always fair, or kind.
I have no regrets with regard to "taking and sharing" the pics, I have no shame in that. I was pleased, and I know that others found pleasure in me. But I really should not have handled it in the manner I did, I was too free and too open in posting my web site and posting here and that will haunt me. I just never truly believed anyone would wish to hurt me with them, I mean I'm just some chic posting pics of myself undressing. Big deal, its not a terribly juicy thing. I'm a nobody...or so I thought.
I did it, and I have to live with it.
I do realize how immature I'm being...all was fine as long as no one abused my pics, and now I'm crying foul. I know, I know....but in the end, I learned a lesson and its one i wish I hadn't needed to learn, but this IS the real world, no matter how much it seems so far away and remote. There are consequences for every action, and these are mine. Actually, something tells me i got off easy. Well, so far.
Thanks ladies.
