I was amazed to find that there were men out there who be more than willing to provide me with oral and have no expectations of me doing anything for them. So I allowed that to happen on rare occasion for many years. That blew my mind. So when I was about to move to a new town a few years ago, I fantasized about finding an older man who was an oral FWB. About this same time a younger man came into my life. So at first I had fantasies about making either an older man or the younger man wear panties and lingerie while servicing me. And after some time, I began to imagine what it would be like to reciprocate....but it is like a needle in a haystack. It would have to be the right situation....so it might never happen.