Distance Domination-Support Thread

[lil_slave_rose]

i know that im not in trouble, so it wasnt punishment
i honestly believe that there was no lesson, only him using me as he saw fit. i know better then to argue with him about it.
admittidly i sulked for a second, when i mentioned my lack of orgasm and he said "i know" and went back to what he was doing, but that passed very quickly

and note: i never asked to cum and was denied, i was never told i was not to cum, he just kept me from reaching a point that i would ask his permission to cum so i didnt recognize his much more passive version of orgasm denial until the very end of the evening

yikes orgasm denial sucks,though i've never been 'denied' i have been denied to cum with Him as a punishment for masturbating without His permission. through the whole scene He would not allow me to cum, He made me beg but told me no everytime, when it came time for Him to cum, usually He'll say "cum with me whore, or cum with Your Master, NOW' this time He did not, instead told me not to cum..and then after the scene was over, He told me i could masturbate myself to orgasm for Him, while He listened, which i did, but it was nowhere NEAR what i wanted or anywhere near intense, it was just, an orgasm, and not much of one. my own guilt played into why i didn't cum too hard..and it just sucked all around....luckily, i've never been fully denied in that i couldn't cum AT ALL for a certain period of time. i feel for you, and i'm not sure why, if you are going to be apart again, He wouldn't have wanted you to cum at His hands, but i'm sure He had His reasons *shrugs*

 

[lil_slave_rose]

not to change the subject here, but has anyone heard from Luciden?? i've not seen posts from her in a long time and Master and i were just talking about her and wondering where she went?

 

[myinnerslut]

what bullshit. i cant believe i was defending him again.

 

[lil_slave_rose]

i have. it sucks. and the fact that im allowed to masturbate freely is one of the things that makes me so sure its not a punishment.


MY REVELATION: the more i type of the subject the more spoiled i feel. i should never go into something with an expectation to cum. i just shouldnt. while imsure he didnt mean it to be a lesson, after my reflection on this i think im going to let the experience be a reminder for me in the future. its up to Sir to decide if i can cum or not. and this has brought to light in my eyes just how generous he is by letting me cum so often (usually).



no, i havnt heard anything

you're right..and it may be the very lesson He was 'teaching' and you just didn't know it. you don't have to be in trouble for Him to give you a lesson in something. either way it brought it to light in your mind even if the was not the intent, so it was a good thing. and i too, take for granted that i'm allowed to cum if i just 'beg' in every scene, that's why that one time, the guilt hit me afterwards of what i had done.though, i'm not allowed to masturbate whenever i want, i have to ask permission, and while most of the time, it's granted, i know that that will not always be the case. like tonight, i'm going to bed as He's going to work, so i will ask if i can masturbate before i fall asleep, usually He says yes to this but i have to keep in mind that He very well may say NO and that i can wait until tomorrow when we can do it with Him involved...*sighs* sometimes it's a great reminder that i am OWNED..and His property to do with me as He wishes *smiles* greatest feeling in the world even if at the time He denies me such things, i'm not happy about it....hopefully that makes some sort of sense and i'm not just rambling lol.

as for luciden i hope she is alright.....

 

[myinnerslut]

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[BeBe81]

I am lost.

Tonight...

Master and I decided to take time apart. I needed time to figure things out. I love him so much and the pain of us never being together hurts so much.

I want nothing else, but to be strong enough for him and the moments we have. To be in his arms and look in his eyes.

But, I'm so confused. He is so amazing to understand and allow it.

My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I know he is there, but I feel so fragile right now.

 

[myinnerslut]

Tonight...

Master and I decided to take time apart. I needed time to figure things out. I love him so much and the pain of us never being together hurts so much.

I want nothing else, but to be strong enough for him and the moments we have. To be in his arms and look in his eyes.

But, I'm so confused. He is so amazing to understand and allow it.

My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I know he is there, but I feel so fragile right now.

{HUG}

 

[the captians wench]

Pouting? Pouting????!!

I should ask my pet to post in here about what would happen to her if she publiclly pouted.

(It might either make you pout more to get a punishment or quietly ask for forgiveness...)

It's a reflex He's trying to break me of as well. . . . but not going so well since every time I do he laughs at me. *giggles* I don't think he minds it as much as he let's on.

 

[the captians wench]

The kind of thing that tends to get subbies in trouble, eh Wenchie?

I wish.

 

[MasterPhoenix]

Tonight...

Master and I decided to take time apart. I needed time to figure things out. I love him so much and the pain of us never being together hurts so much.

I want nothing else, but to be strong enough for him and the moments we have. To be in his arms and look in his eyes.

But, I'm so confused. He is so amazing to understand and allow it.

My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I know he is there, but I feel so fragile right now.

I hope you get it worked out bebe

 

[lil_slave_rose]

I wish.

me left alone, and bored is a bad thing. LOL when i get bored, i tend to get myself into trouble, in a bad way....so that is why He asked that i believe *smiles* a subbie's gotta find a way to entertain herself somehow when left alone..ya know? *grins*

 

[the captians wench]

me left alone, and bored is a bad thing. LOL when i get bored, i tend to get myself into trouble, in a bad way....so that is why He asked that i believe *smiles* a subbie's gotta find a way to entertain herself somehow when left alone..ya know? *grins*

The only way I could really get myself in trouble would be to text him a million times, which would end up costing me a pretty penny. At least until next month when he takes my orgasms away from me again anyway.

 

[ChromeCollar]

Tonight...

Master and I decided to take time apart. I needed time to figure things out. I love him so much and the pain of us never being together hurts so much.

I want nothing else, but to be strong enough for him and the moments we have. To be in his arms and look in his eyes.

But, I'm so confused. He is so amazing to understand and allow it.

My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I know he is there, but I feel so fragile right now.

I'm sorry to hear that Bebe, I hope that you and He work things out quickly, or that you find the healing you need to find so that you might fly again soon.

 

[nowgirl]

Tonight...

Master and I decided to take time apart. I needed time to figure things out. I love him so much and the pain of us never being together hurts so much.

I want nothing else, but to be strong enough for him and the moments we have. To be in his arms and look in his eyes.

But, I'm so confused. He is so amazing to understand and allow it.

My heart is broken and I can't stop crying. I know he is there, but I feel so fragile right now.

i went through this a couple of weeks ago - it was my indecision and uncertainty that led me to want time apart... we slowed things down and are now back together... i felt exactly the same BeBe - it was amazing that he allowed me to take some time to think.

i cried for days on end. i wasn't sure what i wanted. i still feel a little tentative but he's been there for me...

good luck BeBe - i hope you find the answers you're looking for.

 

[ChromeCollar]

Well... I made a real ass of myself last night! My Lord delights in teasing me. He is by far the more sadistic of the two. Mistress is very sweet but firm and demanding. He likes to toy with me more than she does, so He sat me down last night and happened to link some videos that He liked from the web. Well... I forgot my place, and got pretty open mouthed about my comments on said videos. The last one He showed, He mentioned it was from the same site He had got the others from. Towards the end of it, I mentioned that the man in the video was making her work awful hard for that blowjob, and we joked about it a little.

In the end, she got what she was after, He came in her mouth. My Lord made some comment, and I joked back saying something to the effect of "her taking it like a good slut." Well.... I'm sure you can all guess what is coming at this point right? His response to my comment was "Yes, Mistress is a good slut for me, and I'll be sure to pass along your opinion."

GAAAAAAAAAAH! I went to bed squirming after writing my daily journal entry on their site, and woke up squirming. Fortunately, He called me around 10:30 to settle me down, and reassure me that while Mistress would enjoy teasing me about it, and most likely punish me when I get there, that I was in no dire trouble. So yeah... lesson number one. Keep my damn mouth shut!

 

[myinnerslut]

So yeah... lesson number one. Keep my damn mouth shut!

ive had to learn that lesson a few times

 

[lil_slave_rose]

ive had to learn that lesson a few times

LOL i think that is a lesson we've all had to learn, though for me, it's still a hard one to do. *grins* my mouth just starts going sometimes and it's too late to stop it

 

[MasterPhoenix]

LOL i think that is a lesson we've all had to learn, though for me, it's still a hard one to do. *grins* my mouth just starts going sometimes and it's too late to stop it

So very true

 

[BeBe81]

My Gratitude.

Myinnerslut, MasterPhoenix, Chromecollar, & Nowgirl...

Thank you for your sincere, and kind words.

I truly appreciate the them. Thank you.



I also hope to find the happy middle between my heart and mind. I love and miss him. But, I need to figure it out in order to be the best Pet for him. It is only fair for both of us. My heart hurts, and I can only wish for things to go the best possible way. It is hard... so hard. Argh.


Once again... Thank you for your thoughts during my troubled times.

 

[the captians wench]

LOL i think that is a lesson we've all had to learn, though for me, it's still a hard one to do. *grins* my mouth just starts going sometimes and it's too late to stop it

hehehe

yup me too. We're teasing and joking and carrying on and then bam I've got myself 10 on the tacks.

 

[myinnerslut]

LOL i think that is a lesson we've all had to learn, though for me, it's still a hard one to do. *grins* my mouth just starts going sometimes and it's too late to stop it

i know what you mean... in fact, that very problem ended up cuasing me some... discomfort... last night when he was over

 

[myinnerslut]

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[the captians wench]

happened again last night.... i was frustrated and confused and got my cuorage up to (stupidly) ask why he wouldnt let me cum. and then got told off for complaining and questioning what he wanted to do. *mentally kicks myself*

I've been informed that I will most deffinitly be going back to once a month as of Feb 1. This is after 2 months of being allowd once a days. Man is that going to be hard.

But I remember when he first accepted my orgasms. There were some nights he would torture me to the brink of tears and orgasm, and usually he would let me finish myself off with one of my toys, but this night when I asked if I could finish, he said no. I was in total shock! He told me it would be another week at least before I'd be allowd another orgasm.

Lemme tell ya, the pouting doesn't help.

On another note....I tend to be very shy on the phone for some reason. I can type all the dirty words and phrazes you can imagine, but when it comes to speaking them, I just blush and lower my eyes....which may be cute in person but not so much on the phone. So anyway, I wake up this morning and it's raining something fierce. I feel the purr build up inside me and know I'm not going to get thru an hour with out cumming. So feeling brave and horney as hell I gave him a ring....saturday morning 11am his time about what I normally do....and the wanker didn't answer! I'm finally all ready to say all the dirty little things I normally just think about or type and he doesn't answer his phone.....

I don't know why I'm surprized.....he hardly ever answers.

But I enjoyed the morning anyway.

 

[lil_slave_rose]

happened again last night.... i was frustrated and confused and got my cuorage up to (stupidly) ask why he wouldnt let me cum. and then got told off for complaining and questioning what he wanted to do. *mentally kicks myself*

i question all of the time, it's not something i get into trouble or yelled at for, but if i question He will sigh or chuckle that little chuckle that drives me mad *giggles* and say 'because i can'

 

[lil_slave_rose]

I've been informed that I will most deffinitly be going back to once a month as of Feb 1. This is after 2 months of being allowd once a days. Man is that going to be hard.

But I remember when he first accepted my orgasms. There were some nights he would torture me to the brink of tears and orgasm, and usually he would let me finish myself off with one of my toys, but this night when I asked if I could finish, he said no. I was in total shock! He told me it would be another week at least before I'd be allowd another orgasm.

Lemme tell ya, the pouting doesn't help.

On another note....I tend to be very shy on the phone for some reason. I can type all the dirty words and phrazes you can imagine, but when it comes to speaking them, I just blush and lower my eyes....which may be cute in person but not so much on the phone. So anyway, I wake up this morning and it's raining something fierce. I feel the purr build up inside me and know I'm not going to get thru an hour with out cumming. So feeling brave and horney as hell I gave him a ring....saturday morning 11am his time about what I normally do....and the wanker didn't answer! I'm finally all ready to say all the dirty little things I normally just think about or type and he doesn't answer his phone.....

I don't know why I'm surprized.....he hardly ever answers.

But I enjoyed the morning anyway.

*giggles* i am the same way, i cannot talk dirty to Him on the phone, or in person, but if we are 'playing' online, i can type it all so much so that i surprise myself sometimes..LOL....sucks that He didn't answer, but i'm glad that you enjoyed the morning anyway. i didn't get to play last night because basically i stayed up all night on the computer and by the time He laid down, it was time for me to get my son up and take him to my dad's house so i am horny as hell and won't get to do anything about it until He gets home from work tonight, because i forgot to ask permission before He went to sleep *sighs*