Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

I’m getting a chunk of my freedom back today. My car has been in the shop for about 10 days. I pick it up today. I’m no longer at the whim of someone else to be able to leave. Our resources often determine our ability to cope with what life throws at us.

Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[Wetkitty09]

Yesterday was a good day. But it ended on a sour note. Why do we focus on the negative aspects of our lives? Human nature? Idk. I’m doing my best to remember the best times from yesterday and move forward from the negative.
Wish me luck.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I spent the day reading yesterday. I haven’t done that for a while.
I feel guilty for not getting anything done. Why do we beat ourselves up for taking a rest?
Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[dkak001]

I feel guilty for not getting anything done. Why do we beat ourselves up for taking a rest?

Welcome to my world!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Enjoy your weekend as much as you can.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Well. As usual things are changing. Sometimes the uncertainty is paralyzing.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[cutcrystal899]

Feel a lot better for writing today. It really helped me.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Yesterday was a quiet day. As sundays often are. I hope you had a good weekend and that your Monday goes smoothly.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Here’s to another day. I hope it goes smoothly.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[LexiSmiles92]

Good topic and post.

I'm "prone to darkness". For me, darkness = depression. Mine is more circumstantial than chemical ... but the circumstances are more ingrained (maybe even implanted) than something current. It comes from a pretty terrible childhood. I have been to counselors and counselors and more counselors. It / they / whatever didn't help me. I've learned to try and focus on what is true about me and about my "circumstances" through journaling and my own version of "mapping" ... I've found that to be most helpful but also exhausting sometimes. But the alternative to not doing the work and fighting for "light" is less appealing. Not sure that is helpful to anyone lol ... but I just came across the post and appreciated the attention to a worthy topic.

Smile

 

[Wetkitty09]

Yesterday was spent with friends. The kind that brings out your true self and loves and accepts the good and bad in you. A rare gift.
I hope today goes smoothly.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Strixaluco]

There’s very likely a medicine out there for each person.

No, there isn't. There's a med for many, but not all. I'm one of those for whom there's none. They don't work, or they have too much side effects, or both. Most don't work. The very few that work to an extent have too much side effects even at the smallest dose - and not all can be cut to pieces. I've tried all the different antidepressant groups already.

Thank goodness I've found my way out, and also know the causes so I can work on keeping depression away in the future. Had my neurodivergence being diagnosed when I was younger, I might have avoided most, if not all of my depression episodes to begin with.

BTW, neurodivergent people may react differently to drugs. Need much smaller or bigger doses. Get weird side effects. Have the medication work totally differently than expected - even in an opposite way. You never know really.

 

[DeerTrace118]

Good topic and post.

I'm "prone to darkness". For me, darkness = depression. Mine is more circumstantial than chemical ... but the circumstances are more ingrained (maybe even implanted) than something current. It comes from a pretty terrible childhood. I have been to counselors and counselors and more counselors. It / they / whatever didn't help me. I've learned to try and focus on what is true about me and about my "circumstances" through journaling and my own version of "mapping" ... I've found that to be most helpful but also exhausting sometimes. But the alternative to not doing the work and fighting for "light" is less appealing. Not sure that is helpful to anyone lol ... but I just came across the post and appreciated the attention to a worthy topic.

Smile

I completely understand. My darkness stems from some military experiences. Most of the time, I manage it fairly well, but every now and then it hits hard—and I still don’t fully understand why I respond the way I do.

When it does hit, I tend to withdraw and isolate myself from everything. It’s unpredictable, which is frustrating, and unfortunately, it’s impacted some relationships and friendships over the years.

I’ve tried journaling before, but consistency has been a challenge. I just started back a couple of weeks ago—dedicating some quiet time each morning with my coffee to reflect and write.

Progress, not perfection—right?

 

[LexiSmiles92]

I completely understand. My darkness stems from some military experiences. Most of the time, I manage it fairly well, but every now and then it hits hard—and I still don’t fully understand why I respond the way I do.

When it does hit, I tend to withdraw and isolate myself from everything. It’s unpredictable, which is frustrating, and unfortunately, it’s impacted some relationships and friendships over the years.

I’ve tried journaling before, but consistency has been a challenge. I just started back a couple of weeks ago—dedicating some quiet time each morning with my coffee to reflect and write.

Progress, not perfection—right?

Mine is fairly predictable. I journal "with purpose" ... highly focused on lies I'm believing or hearing or telling myself. I dissect the lie and then journal about what is true. I don't do that every day because not every day is covered in "darkness" ... but I do journal every day so as not to get out of my rhythm. Rhythms, for me, are important. For me, that's how the unpredictable things don't leave me crushed.

But I get it ... I'm sorry for your own darkness ... and for what caused it.

And yeah .. no such thing as perfection! Thankfully!!!!

 

[jsmiam]

No, there isn't. There's a med for many, but not all. I'm one of those for whom there's none. …

The bolded part to me, says we weren’t saying anything that different.

It sounds like you tried many different ones. It’s good that you did that. It’s unfortunate in your case that none did the job. And it’s fortunate that another answer existed for you. Everybody is different. Things aren’t always simple and easy.

My point is:was that everyone who is suffering should try and try, and not give up after trying just one med and summarily saying “they don’t work” or “too many side effects.”

 

[Strixaluco]

The bolded part to me, says we weren’t saying anything that different.

Ah, so your

for each person.

doesn't actually mean for each person = for everyone. My bad, I, assume people mean their words literally, exactly.

 

[Strixaluco]

What doctors fail to tell us is that the ratio of patients getting help vs patients treated is 1/7 dot antidepressants. The likelyhood for a person to be be in the rest 6/7 for every type of medication is not low.

Just checked: 6 basic types of antidepressants. Meaning statistically you can expect at least 1/5 to not get help from any of them. That's not too reassuring really.

 

[jsmiam]

Ah, so your

doesn't actually mean for each person = for everyone. My bad, I, assume people mean their words literally, exactly.

The one speaking in absolutes is you you you. Thank you and good night

 

[Strixaluco]

The one speaking in absolutes is you you you. Thank you and good night

Well maybe you better not write in absolutes when you don't mean them.

 

[Wetkitty09]

This thread is for the sharing of personal experiences and general information. If there are differences of opinion please take it to your PMs. The rest of us don’t want to see it and it may discourage others from reaching out.

Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning. I hope you’re having a decent day.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[LexiSmiles92]

Morning. I hope you’re having a decent day.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

same to you!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Yesterday we had to put my son’s dog down. He’s been with us since he opened his eyes. The hole his passing leaves will never be filled again. His presence kept my son alive at his lowest moments. He was never “just a dog”.

Be safe out there.
Love you

 

[LexiSmiles92]

I'm not sure an emoji captures the response I want to give .... I'm just sorry for you and yours. Be well.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I'm not sure an emoji captures the response I want to give .... I'm just sorry for you and yours. Be well.

Thank you. It’s going to be rough for a few days.