Depression. It's a silent killer.

[ccs29745]

I just want to shoot myself some days. Between work not helping, people mad we are sold out of stuff, not slept thru the night in months, stress of being invaded and volunteered to help on stuff, I have kept too much pent up for too long and am snapping at things. I won't be able to decompress until at least April, probably may. Bear with me sometimes.

 

[Purple_Fronds]

Something about the ocean calms me.

Beautiful picture, for me it’s the power and the beauty. I like to think of the eons that have gone by and how nothing has changed, the waves keep crashing into the shore, the tide ebbs and flows. It helps remind us that it’s often the simple things from life that are the most important.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning.
I ended up turtling most of the day yesterday.
I think I can face the day today.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Leglover1234]

I have ALS and he been bedridden for 5 years now. A ventilator is keeping me alive. I’ve been depressed with anxiety and sadness for all these years. I’ve finally decided to pull the plug in February. It’s best for everyone

 

[Wetkitty09]

I have ALS and he been bedridden for 5 years now. A ventilator is keeping me alive. I’ve been depressed with anxiety and sadness for all these years. I’ve finally decided to pull the plug in February. It’s best for everyone

I wish you a gentle passing into the beyond.

 

[Leglover1234]

Thank you

 

[forgotmyantidepressants]

This time of year is brutal. Especially when it gets dark by 5 pm. Sunshine therapy is real. When it’s dark and cold it makes things worse. November and December are filled with birthdays, anniversaries and holidays tat are supposed to bring joy. But for me they bring pain. The 3 most important people in my life, were my brother, my grandfather and my mom and all of their birthdays are in December. My brother’s birthday was last week. My grandfather’s is Christmas Eve and my Mom’s is Christmas Day. Throw in the anniversary of my Dad’s passing a few days before Christmas and it makes for one hell of a depressing month. I try to avoid holiday gatherings and shopping. I’d rather be alone with my dog. I’m struggling more this year than in years past. Lots of changes in my personal and professional life. I don’t feel like being social. I’d rather sleep.

My brother bought one of those lamps that people can sit under and it really helped him with his seasonal depression.

 

[forgotmyantidepressants]

I have ALS and he been bedridden for 5 years now. A ventilator is keeping me alive. I’ve been depressed with anxiety and sadness for all these years. I’ve finally decided to pull the plug in February. It’s best for everyone

That's so brave of you. Mad respect

 

[Leglover1234]

Thanks. I have two young daughters. I’d rather die peacefully while they aren’t home than it be a dramatic death with them here I haven’t had any type of intimacy in 5 years but coming here to chat and flirt really takes my mind off of things

 

[ccs29745]

I have ALS and he been bedridden for 5 years now. A ventilator is keeping me alive. I’ve been depressed with anxiety and sadness for all these years. I’ve finally decided to pull the plug in February. It’s best for everyone

you'll be missed and remembered by your family and friends. May each day be less painful than the pervious.

 

[Leglover1234]

you'll be missed and remembered by your family and friends. May each day be less painful than the pervious.

Thank you

 

[Wonderer67]

I’ve really had to work hard not to fall into a pit of despair the last few weeks.

I am irritable af, short w my colleagues and wife. My sleep has been for shit since the time change over a month ago. I hate the fucking time change and this year it’s fucking w me.

Lack of light is bad for me - I try to get outside every day.

What do I do to try to stay out of the hole?
-excercise.
-getting outside
-connecting w friends
- good sleep habits
- stretching/exercises
- eating helathy

This fall has been a struggle.

 

[Kaushiki]

I suffer from severe depression AND anxiety. I could start crying without being around anything that is supposed to be uplifting. The sadness is ALWAYS there. I'll laugh at something. I haven't loss my sense of humor (thank goodness)

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to off myself. But I deal with so much between my disability and pain, I think I'm done.

That's why I came here. Talking to people does help a little.

So much of pain. I hope you are doing well.

 

[Kaushiki]

Thanks. I have two young daughters. I’d rather die peacefully while they aren’t home than it be a dramatic death with them here I haven’t had any type of intimacy in 5 years but coming here to chat and flirt really takes my mind off of things

you are everything to your daughters. And they are lucky to have such a strong dad.

 

[ccs29745]

Having a good day until I went for oil change. Dealership didn't put enough coolant back into motor when the replaced the thermostat, rear differential almost empty cause they didn't check it before I bought the truck. Damn its always something when I think things are going smoothly

 

[summer_reine]

Having a good day until I went for oil change. Dealership didn't put enough coolant back into motor when the replaced the thermostat, rear differential almost empty cause they didn't check it before I bought the truck. Damn its always something when I think things are going smoothly

I hope you can find a small happiness today. It might be hard to see but it will be there

 

[ccs29745]

I hope you can find a small happiness today. It might be hard to see but it will be there

Thanks Summer, nice to unwind at dinner a bit.

 

[ccs29745]

I hope you can find a small happiness today. It might be hard to see but it will be there

How are things progressing on your stuff? You don't have to answer if you think I'm intruding on personal space.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I hope you’re well and having the best weekend you can have.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

One thing that destroys my confidence and makes me depressed even more is when somebody goes to me. Especially after such a nice conversation. I never know if it's me, if it's them, or what.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

Maybe I'm griping too much, and I know I'm a sucker for a every time. Why on Earth was somebody give you a great conversation, and then just disappear. And after they contacted you first. Sorry I'm just terribly upset about this.

 

[Corbie]

Im always there for my wife, yet she says she doesn’t feel happy around me. I don’t know what to do. I would love some suggestions and help.

I'm sorry to hear that

 

[Lovethatbigass]

I'm sorry to hear that

Thank you. I'm feeling a bit better now.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Morning here. Have the best day you can have.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

I hurt my own feelings at work today. We were talking about children who do that loud, almost demonic screaming that they do in public. As a joke, I said “It used to make me depressed that no woman will ever want to sleep with me or have my children. But thanks to these kids that come in here, I feel like the luckiest man on Earth!” We all laughed, but on the inside, I felt as though I put a knife in my own heart.

While yes, I am committed to a life of solitude, I would be lying if I said that loneliness wasn’t a constant companion of mine. I do sometimes wonder if my solitary life is really my choice or is it me simply accepting the hand I have been dealt.