Depression. It's a silent killer.

[Wetkitty09]

Can I tear something up. More I do, the more I have more to do. I need to decompress a lot and I can't. Hope everyone else doing good today.

Tear away. We’re here.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Something about the ocean calms me.

 

[graysilver]

Haystack is so calming!

 

[ccs29745]

Tear away. We’re here.

Thanks, but I tend to destroy too much when let loose.

 

[Bassytian]

Thanks, but I tend to destroy too much when let loose.

Damn, I can relate to that. I have lost friends due to oversharing my problems, both online and irl. But there is no such thing as oversharing on this thread.

 

[fshnassman]

Evening you all. This Christmas season is really starting to kick my ass. There are so many people who take from my cup with out filling it, and even when it's apparent my cup is empty they want more. I am able to help folks, but it seems that when people learn you can help, they forget the helpers need to feel appreciated and need something to come back to refill the cup. This place and folks have been so helpful with the ability to escape for a few minutes or occasionally hours. I even occasionally feel desired in ways I haven't been in a decade. Thank you for the support and because I know it will come back in spades, please reach out if I can help you. I know what kind of site this is, but support, no judgement, and desire are essential to feeling intimacy and love and it really is incredibly beautiful. Thank you all, and feel free to reach out!

 

[Wetkitty09]

There is a saying that pain shared is pain halved. I don’t know if it’s halved but, in my experience, it does relieve the pressure caused by keeping it in.
I know that checking in here, sometimes I’ve had to force myself, has given me an outlet to relieve some of my pain.
Share what you’re comfortable with and see if it helps.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Lovethatbigass]

I would like to chat about a big problem that not too many people discuss. Sorry to be a downer. But there are too many people out there who are dying because they are depressed. I suffer from depression (not sure why) but I wouldn't think of killing myself. I've always been told that is a perminant solution to a temporary problem. I think it would do a good service to discuss what has worked for you to overcome your depression or what has helped someone you know.

I suffer from severe depression AND anxiety. I could start crying without being around anything that is supposed to be uplifting. The sadness is ALWAYS there. I'll laugh at something. I haven't loss my sense of humor (thank goodness)

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to off myself. But I deal with so much between my disability and pain, I think I'm done.

That's why I came here. Talking to people does help a little.

 

[Helpme01]

This year I lost my wife my mom mother in law uncle and god father. I got really comfortable with the numbness and thought I would just stay in it mentally until my kids starting healing the problem is now I’m almost a shut in I hardly talk to people I just try to stay alone so loved ones don’t notice that I’m empty inside now. My sadness turned to depression and now it’s almost at critical crisis level and it sucks!!

 

[ccs29745]

This year I lost my wife my mom mother in law uncle and god father. I got really comfortable with the numbness and thought I would just stay in it mentally until my kids starting healing the problem is now I’m almost a shut in I hardly talk to people I just try to stay alone so loved ones don’t notice that I’m empty inside now. My sadness turned to depression and now it’s almost at critical crisis level and it sucks!!

Sorry for your losses. The numbness takes a while to go away. Time will heal, just never forget them.

I took care of my mom for her last 13 years just to have her tell me I was never a good son. I reminded her of which of the 4 kids took care of her and which ones had to be called to let them how she was. To this day they think I took the money she left in her will for the 4 of us and ran. The money was used for her bills and to bury her. We all got a 1/4 of what was left. I shut everyone out, almost including my wife over everything that happened and it took a year to settle things out between her and I.

It will eat you as I fight it everyday, just don't let it define who you are. You have friends to vent to .

 

[Wetkitty09]

My motto is “if it’s not one thing it’s all the rest.”
That’s the way it seems to work in my life and nothing is the same as before.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I suffer from severe depression AND anxiety. I could start crying without being around anything that is supposed to be uplifting. The sadness is ALWAYS there. I'll laugh at something. I haven't loss my sense of humor (thank goodness)

I don't want to be here anymore. I don't want to off myself. But I deal with so much between my disability and pain, I think I'm done.

That's why I came here. Talking to people does help a little.

We’re here. Please talk to someone.

 

[Wetkitty09]

I revived this thread to help people understand that depression and mental health is a common issue and to create a safe-ish place to share and support.
Most people that have posted here have been supportive and helpful to others and me.
There have been those that use this thread to manipulate people into talking to them when all they are looking for is an opening for sexting.
I get it. This is a sight that is geared towards sexual gratification but if that is all you’re truly looking for then find it on a different thread and let those of us that care about having more have this thread.

 

[smtst5]

This time of year is brutal. Especially when it gets dark by 5 pm. Sunshine therapy is real. When it’s dark and cold it makes things worse. November and December are filled with birthdays, anniversaries and holidays tat are supposed to bring joy. But for me they bring pain. The 3 most important people in my life, were my brother, my grandfather and my mom and all of their birthdays are in December. My brother’s birthday was last week. My grandfather’s is Christmas Eve and my Mom’s is Christmas Day. Throw in the anniversary of my Dad’s passing a few days before Christmas and it makes for one hell of a depressing month. I try to avoid holiday gatherings and shopping. I’d rather be alone with my dog. I’m struggling more this year than in years past. Lots of changes in my personal and professional life. I don’t feel like being social. I’d rather sleep.

 

[ccs29745]

Day felt like I could do no right. Found 35k of 36k in missing plants/ inventory money and they seemed more upset at how I found it than they were in the fact that I found it. No thank you, good job, kiss my ass just how did I do it and how I missed it before.

 

[Wetkitty09]

Spent the day yesterday with my headphones on just to keep the noise in my head from driving me to anger and despair.
Be safe out there. Love you.

 

[ccs29745]

Spent the day yesterday with my headphones on just to keep the noise in my head from driving me to anger and despair.
Be safe out there. Love you.

 

[Bassytian]

Dear god what a day, customers everywhere as far as the eye could see! Glad to be off the next two days, but it'll be over before I can begin to relax. Got my next appointment with the doc tomorrow, looking forward to that.

Stay grounded and strong folks, keep up the good fight!

 

[Wetkitty09]

Yesterday I had quite an adventure that thankfully turned out ok. Fortunately I was with my son who was able to stay calm and keep me calm as well.
We are safe now and will be fine. I’ll be making a few changes to avoid this happening in the future.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

 

[Norfolkguy49]

Yesterday I had quite an adventure that thankfully turned out ok. Fortunately I was with my son who was able to stay calm and keep me calm as well.
We are safe now and will be fine. I’ll be making a few changes to avoid this happening in the future.
Be safe out there.
Love you.

Glad to hear you both ok

 

[wallstreetguy]

I have had several online affairs with women that suffered from this. Sometimes, I was able to help (non sexually) and other times, the depression is so despairing that they cut me off. That is the worst - not knowing if she is well.

 

[summer_reine]

Sometimes I get lost being sad about the past, about the wasted or lost experiences. This mentality helps me, maybe it will help someone else too *No idea if a monk actually said this

 

[ADIDAS00]

I just wanted to add some thoughts….

I struggled with periodic depression for years and one thing that helped me was hormone therapy. I started getting testosterone replacement therapy and it literally completely cured my depression. I’ve been on it for 10 years or so and I haven’t been depressed since starting.

What I think it is….
When you’re depressed, it may be because you’re stressed, tired, overwhelmed. That leads to less sleep, racing thoughts and more stress. It’s kind of like a snowball. And It takes a lot of energy to be stressed and thinking all the time.

For me, the testosterone gave me the energy to combat the stress and the day to day grind. I think it’s an energy thing. If you’re full of a lot of energy everyday, you can handle a lot more. It almost feels like a crutch in a way. I know when things get hectic, I can depend on the testosterone to give me the energy to deal with it all.

It also helps me sleep so good!! Anyway, those are a few of my thoughts on it. I think more people(men and women) should try it to see if it helps. If it does, great! If not, on to the next thing to see what else might help.

My wife is on it too and it keeps her so happy and upbeat on a daily basis.

 

[Deadfreak]

Lit doesn't have a care emoji so I respond with like to your posts, what I really mean is care.
I appreciate everything you share and click like to show you are seen and heard and I sympathize, that is all I can do in most instances.
I am not diagnosed depressed but I know. Your sharing helps me and I hope it helps you too.

 

[Deadfreak]

This helps me