Confessions: What are yours? V2.

ICT I miss what it is like to be wanted by a woman. Or at least to think that I am. There is a comfort to it, an energy that is felt when it is lacking. It quickly drains when there is no source to sustain it. I probably shouldnt post this.
 
ICT I miss what it is like to be wanted by a woman. Or at least to think that I am. There is a comfort to it, an energy that is felt when it is lacking. It quickly drains when there is no source to sustain it. I probably shouldnt post this.
This is probably something I shouldn't post as I try to stay away from 'serious' as much as I can on here. But...

ICT that kind of resonates with me in the context of Lit. On the face of it, sure, Lit is a great place for a woman to get attention. But it's so incredibly superficial. I'm wanted because of the flirt I'm happy to throw, I'm wanted because (hopefully) I have the anatomy of a woman. I'm wanted because I enjoy sex. I feel like I'm rarely wanted for being *me* beyond these things. I try to be upfront about who I am, and what I want and still I seem to disappoint and frustrate. I envy the people who I see on here who have achieved deep connections. I've tried and failed at that so many times over the years.

I've become used to this, to the point that I struggle to bother trying to make new connections any more. So, yeah, whilst the chase is frustratingly addictive, the catch often fails to sustain. I think it may have even become a self-fulfilling prophecy for me now, that I set up new connections to fail. And I hate that about myself. So, it's easier for me to keep things at a surface level now.

I hope that one day you find that woman you desire, and that that energy sustains. And I hope that this happens in RL, rather than here on Lit where the ground under you can shift from solid to cracked in the blink of an eye. You deserve happiness. :rose:
 
ICT even though I know it’s a lot better for Drew’s health to stay somewhat skinny, I can’t help wishing he’d gain a few more pounds.
 
This is probably something I shouldn't post as I try to stay away from 'serious' as much as I can on here. But...

ICT that kind of resonates with me in the context of Lit. On the face of it, sure, Lit is a great place for a woman to get attention. But it's so incredibly superficial. I'm wanted because of the flirt I'm happy to throw, I'm wanted because (hopefully) I have the anatomy of a woman. I'm wanted because I enjoy sex. I feel like I'm rarely wanted for being *me* beyond these things. I try to be upfront about who I am, and what I want and still I seem to disappoint and frustrate. I envy the people who I see on here who have achieved deep connections. I've tried and failed at that so many times over the years.

I've become used to this, to the point that I struggle to bother trying to make new connections any more. So, yeah, whilst the chase is frustratingly addictive, the catch often fails to sustain. I think it may have even become a self-fulfilling prophecy for me now, that I set up new connections to fail. And I hate that about myself. So, it's easier for me to keep things at a surface level now.

I hope that one day you find that woman you desire, and that that energy sustains. And I hope that this happens in RL, rather than here on Lit where the ground under you can shift from solid to cracked in the blink of an eye. You deserve happiness. :rose:
ICT I love this post

Superficially we can end up only being what others allow us to be.

Many people on Lit can achieve a level of attention here that’s very different to their real life experience.

There can be a mismatch between both of these and the person we feel we are.

And also a miss-match with the experience we feel we deserve.

It’s nice to hear someone describe their experience, and in a well intentioned way.
 
This is probably something I shouldn't post as I try to stay away from 'serious' as much as I can on here. But...

ICT that kind of resonates with me in the context of Lit. On the face of it, sure, Lit is a great place for a woman to get attention. But it's so incredibly superficial. I'm wanted because of the flirt I'm happy to throw, I'm wanted because (hopefully) I have the anatomy of a woman. I'm wanted because I enjoy sex. I feel like I'm rarely wanted for being *me* beyond these things. I try to be upfront about who I am, and what I want and still I seem to disappoint and frustrate. I envy the people who I see on here who have achieved deep connections. I've tried and failed at that so many times over the years.

I've become used to this, to the point that I struggle to bother trying to make new connections any more. So, yeah, whilst the chase is frustratingly addictive, the catch often fails to sustain. I think it may have even become a self-fulfilling prophecy for me now, that I set up new connections to fail. And I hate that about myself. So, it's easier for me to keep things at a surface level now.

I hope that one day you find that woman you desire, and that that energy sustains. And I hope that this happens in RL, rather than here on Lit where the ground under you can shift from solid to cracked in the blink of an eye. You deserve happiness. :rose:
ICT that Tal needs to lay off on the gin and tonics 😜

Really a nice post tbh. 🙂
 
I confess that on many different occasions I’ve considered leaving here. On many different occasions I’ve found reasons for staying. Right now, I’m thinking I need something more constructive to channel some time into (like real life responsibilities). I’m still conflicted in my choice. Being responsible in how my time is spent is needed. If I wasn’t such a procrastinator, I wouldn’t be thinking like this.

I’ll see what comes about in the days ahead. Managing my time wisely is definitely a concern though.
 
I confess that on many different occasions I’ve considered leaving here. On many different occasions I’ve found reasons for staying. Right now, I’m thinking I need something more constructive to channel some time into (like real life responsibilities). I’m still conflicted in my choice. Being responsible in how my time is spent is needed. If I wasn’t such a procrastinator, I wouldn’t be thinking like this.

I’ll see what comes about in the days ahead. Managing my time wisely is definitely a concern though.
It's helped me to only log in when I'm in a good mood. Not that I'm getting anything else accomplished, but it helps my attitude. LOL
 
I’ll admit that I just had a meet and greet with a high level official and all I could really think about was her décolletage.
 
I confess that on many different occasions I’ve considered leaving here. On many different occasions I’ve found reasons for staying. Right now, I’m thinking I need something more constructive to channel some time into (like real life responsibilities). I’m still conflicted in my choice. Being responsible in how my time is spent is needed. If I wasn’t such a procrastinator, I wouldn’t be thinking like this.

I’ll see what comes about in the days ahead. Managing my time wisely is definitely a concern though.
Been there, and I often go back for visits.
But sometimes it's just good to step away for a while. ♥️
 
I fucking hate all things related to the royal family. I’ve pretended to be neutral on the topic for way too many cute women.

The monarchy sucks. I don’t get the false celebrity. Kate Middleton could get it. But I bet they all hate good dance music.
 
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I’ll admit that I just had a meet and greet with a high level official and all I could really think about was her décolletage.
ICT I had to Google "decolletage".

Boobage is the preferred nomenclature. It covers all of it.
 
ICT when I was being prepped for the stent, I had a huge feeling of take this you bitch when my doctor's office called and told me all my labs were fine and I said oh really, I'm in the ER and I'm fixing to get a stent. I knew the labs weren't normal, but hadn't had the chance to follow up on them.
 
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