SissyKatie
Really Really Experienced
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- Mar 24, 2011
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I don't like to rant and rave and bother people, but I have no one else at all I can talk to about this, so today a Literotica forum gets the brunt.
Since 2010 I have gone through NHS (UK) and work funded counsellers and countless talks with various GPs. Today after a six month wait I finally got to speak to a psychiatrist, and feel completely dismissed and ignored. I have worked at CBT many times before, and that is what they have referred me back to again.
There is no help in the UK for transgendered people who are in need. Or if there is, then I can't find it. I was depending so much on this appointment. I was asked a few times over the hour what I expect them to do. I have no idea how to answer that question. I know it seems petty and childish, but I would not be asking them for help if I had any idea what it is I need in the first place.
I am sure things will seem better tomorrow, and I will still be here, and the day after and the day after. But it still really hurts to get up each day and try to go on, and now what I thought was the last hope is shattered. It really is my own fault for putting so much hope into something, but I thought it was where I might finally find someone to understand. I don't really know what to do now except just fight harder and keep out of everyone's way as much as possible.
Since 2010 I have gone through NHS (UK) and work funded counsellers and countless talks with various GPs. Today after a six month wait I finally got to speak to a psychiatrist, and feel completely dismissed and ignored. I have worked at CBT many times before, and that is what they have referred me back to again.
There is no help in the UK for transgendered people who are in need. Or if there is, then I can't find it. I was depending so much on this appointment. I was asked a few times over the hour what I expect them to do. I have no idea how to answer that question. I know it seems petty and childish, but I would not be asking them for help if I had any idea what it is I need in the first place.
I am sure things will seem better tomorrow, and I will still be here, and the day after and the day after. But it still really hurts to get up each day and try to go on, and now what I thought was the last hope is shattered. It really is my own fault for putting so much hope into something, but I thought it was where I might finally find someone to understand. I don't really know what to do now except just fight harder and keep out of everyone's way as much as possible.