Aging guy depression...Anyone else go through this?

[razor33a]

Have a litany of mh issues but hitting 50 pushed harder into the depression. On testosterone and adhd meds so I keep walking on the path of existence. "Just waiting for the alarm to go off" is my mode, just now I'm not changing the time ahead for now. 50 wasn't a magic number where things kicked in like how some react to turning 30, but a milestone where I looked back and thought, "nah, done with it." Not that way currently, just in neutral. Tried meds for years and all that.