Life changing experience

[smoothg103rd]

Well, g...I made a run at that mother of 7. She has a beautiful voice, used to be a lounge singer back home. Offered to take her to kareoke, fell flat. I looked for other options of course.

Met a girl, looks a LOT younger than she is. She has an 18 year old. I thought the vibe had potential. Got together with her. I sucked. I don't think she knows I sucked. It was OK for her and I think she made allowances for first time. I can see maybe the next time being better, but I am not sure. It had been a while and I had passed on too many "maybes" lately.

She actually knows the mother of 7 and her sisters, but doesn't know I crush on her a bit. She also knows lil kim as we call her. Lil kim is just old enough to know better than to go round and round with the likes of me. IN her younger days, maybe. Kim and I are friends, and I always wonder what she would be like.

This girl really only shares occupation and ethnicity with kim. I talked to her about this and how it was sort of weird for me in that part of the interest is the ethnicity box checking and that it felt kinda "wrong" on some level, you know? She was fine with that, and pointed out that on the flip side I am "exotic" to her. silly, really because people are people, of course.

It would've been dumb to pass just in case it was sort of check a box for me. I thought we were more on the same vibe than we were. She is an adventurous girl with a guy she knows well, and I didn't understand that the sort of stuff she mentioned liking isn't somewhere she can go on a first encounter. She was DTF, not down to make-out and cuddle and play exactly. I've met girls like that but it isn't my preference. On the other end of the continuum, she likes aggressive, but you can't go there with a timid little thing first thing.

I thought of her as a warm-up and told her so, she was cool about it all. I have a friend I flirt with that is always about to leave her guy (not!) When I left town, I was 35% sure that when i came back something would come of that, but no..she's back happy with her guy this week.

Be nice to have some maybes in town.

There are u just got to stop passing by them. She was DTF did you fuck her? Confidence gets u a long way with a female. May I ask how did u suck?

 

[smoothg103rd]

Chicago

Yeah chiraq get real.

 

[smoothg103rd]

Again. Not an insult when it's true.

But nah, my man takes care of me.

But my dad's been in the hospital.

So u is the bitch in the relationship?

 

[Que]

There are u just got to stop passing by them. She was DTF did you fuck her? Confidence gets u a long way with a female. May I ask how did u suck?

yeah, and any man would kill to have been where I was. I just wasn't working with all I have to work with. Parts of me just did not seem to understand what the rest of me had gifted it with. It got with the program eventually, but given the visuals with this girl, you would think I would be way to excited to know I was nervous. It had been a long dry spell.

It's just silly on my part to fantasize that it's going to be easy, affectionate and comfortable when its just a pick-up.

 

[smoothg103rd]

yeah, and any man would kill to have been where I was. I just wasn't working with all I have to work with. Parts of me just did not seem to understand what the rest of me had gifted it with. It got with the program eventually, but given the visuals with this girl, you would think I would be way to excited to know I was nervous. It had been a long dry spell.

It's just silly on my part to fantasize that it's going to be easy, affectionate and comfortable when its just a pick-up.

I'm only 21 so I don't have that type of problem. Next time u fuck her take two black ants and get drunk I guarantee she would love u

 

[smoothg103rd]

http://rlsmedia.com/article/overnight-shooting-newarks-west-ward-leaves-two-injured

 

[CandiCame]

So u is the bitch in the relationship?

I'm the bitch in every relationship if I can get it.

How you doing, smooth?

 

[smoothg103rd]

I'm the bitch in every relationship if I can get it.

How you doing, smooth?

I'm living

 

[Noor]

Yeah chiraq get real.

It has actually been worse in the past but it just feels so out of control right now. Like the powers that be are out of touch with reality.

 

[smoothg103rd]

It has actually been worse in the past but it just feels so out of control right now. Like the powers that be are out of touch with reality.

In order for there to be good it gotta be bad. Crime always gone happen

 

[Que]

I'm the bitch in every relationship if I can get it.

How you doing, smooth?

The whole exchange is cracking me up.

In order for there to be good it gotta be bad. Crime always gone happen

Can't have the sweet without the bitter, but I don't aim to surround myself with bad just for the contrast. At least I don't think I do. Hmmm On reflection...maybe I do seek out unsavory at times.

 

[smoothg103rd]

The whole exchange is cracking me up.



Can't have the sweet without the bitter, but I don't aim to surround myself with bad just for the contrast. At least I don't think I do. Hmmm On reflection...maybe I do seek out unsavory at times.

Got to life is short.

And candi just a fag like that

 

[smoothg103rd]

http://www.nj.com/essex/index.ssf/2...uth_ward_neighborhood_slept.html#incart_river

 

[smoothg103rd]

http://rlsmedia.com/article/several-shootings-newark-injures-five-one-fatality

 

[Que]

The killing is the city's 56th so far this year.

Interesting...

The good, all-knowing, culturally sensitive liberals on the board aren't all over these stories lamenting the losses, calling for the immediate arrest and guilty verdict of their killers.

Wonder why?

 

[smoothg103rd]

Interesting...

The good, all-knowing, culturally sensitive liberals on the board aren't all over these stories lamenting the losses, calling for the immediate arrest and guilty verdict of their killers.

Wonder why?

This year wasn't shit was had 111 last year. People just getting shot and surviving this year

 

[Que]

This year wasn't shit was had 111 last year. People just getting shot and surviving this year

Like anything else I would imagine trauma surgeons get better with practice.

I am far from a proponent of leaving citizens unarmed but even in redneckville ammo is getting hard to find for everything.. mist people used to practice with .22lr and it is almost non-existent I wonder if, in a weird way, that has reduced shootings? Gun control people would be all over it if it did.

 

[smoothg103rd]

Like anything else I would imagine trauma surgeons get better with practice.

I am far from a proponent of leaving citizens unarmed but even in redneckville ammo is getting hard to find for everything.. mist people used to practice with .22lr and it is almost non-existent I wonder if, in a weird way, that has reduced shootings? Gun control people would be all over it if it did.

Nothing gone stop the reduced shooting around these parts

 

[smoothg103rd]

I just got a feeling. I want out I want a new life. Wanna travel the world and shit. Go to different countries. It's sad I only been to four state in my life. Coming from where I'm from u feel like u trapped. Like u caged in like it's no escape and u just get content with being here. Just sticking to what u know and that's the streets. The streets do show u a lot of things. Shit that would get u thru life. But at the same time it drain your life. I'm tired of seeing the same shit. Being around the same dumb ass trouble making ass niggas. Seeing the same junkie ass dirty ass bitches. But as I got this feeling of change as feel as tho the streets won't let me leave. It's like I have no options I didn't graduate high school never gave a fuck about college. And the only way I could make enough money for me to be content is by doing illegal shit. I got 3 kids to raise and I don't wanna go back in that box. Jail wack ishell but like I said b4 boys do what they told to do men do what they gotta do.

Thanks lite for letting me vent

 

[Que]

I just got a feeling. I want out I want a new life. Wanna travel the world and shit. Go to different countries. It's sad I only been to four state in my life. Coming from where I'm from u feel like u trapped. Like u caged in like it's no escape and u just get content with being here. Just sticking to what u know and that's the streets. The streets do show u a lot of things. Shit that would get u thru life. But at the same time it drain your life. I'm tired of seeing the same shit. Being around the same dumb ass trouble making ass niggas. Seeing the same junkie ass dirty ass bitches. But as I got this feeling of change as feel as tho the streets won't let me leave. It's like I have no options I didn't graduate high school never gave a fuck about college. And the only way I could make enough money for me to be content is by doing illegal shit. I got 3 kids to raise and I don't wanna go back in that box. Jail wack ishell but like I said b4 boys do what they told to do men do what they gotta do.

Thanks lite for letting me vent

So find another locale to employ your illegal talents. Even if the risk is high it is still lower than were you live now. Never to late to get a GED and consider going legitimate in some way. Colorado is nice and pot is now legal. I'm guessing you have some expertise?

 

[smoothg103rd]

So find another locale to employ your illegal talents. Even if the risk is high it is still lower than were you live now. Never to late to get a GED and consider going legitimate in some way. Colorado is nice and pot is now legal. I'm guessing you have some expertise?

I wanna go legit I really do. But I'm not doing no bs ass 9 to 5. I mean why make 800 every month when I could make that every day plus more? Plus I'm in a power struggle with my babymothers so I just can't leave. I wouldn't see my kids like that. I gotta raise them query. I can't leave them like my father left me. And it seems like everybody I respect and really understand me is either died or locked up. The people I use to get advice from the one's I go to when I need to vent. I really feel like my window is closing like I gotta get out now or I will be stuck forever.

 

[QuantumJumping]

Being born.
Dieing.
Winning lottery and not blowing it partying.

 

[smoothg103rd]

Being born.
Dieing.
Winning lottery and not blowing it partying.

U sharing?

 

[Que]

Do it in pieces. Doesn't have to be large legitimate money to start. Keep doing what you do, work your way into something. I like places that offer lots of overtime. You are a night-owl. It's always hard to get people to work the late overtime shift.

A legit job gives you things beyond money. It gives you reasons to be places. reasons to interact with customers that actually have money for example.

I work with a guy. Got caught with $70K in petty cash at his LA stereo store. They had the idea that the money probably wasnt from stereo installs. He did 5 years for income tax evasion. Got a legit job...commutes to the middle of nowhere. Does his job great. Sometimes he has stuff to do, doesnt show. Supervisors cover for him. You can guess why.

Meanwhile I suspect he actually owns the house he lives in. All his relatives have houses paid up in non-descript but safe neighborhoods. He was smart...as he went along his money went to unlikely places.

In his case he has relatives on both sides of the border so some things are easier. Point being people do get out of the life. I have an uncle that got out and was a service manager for honda motorcycles knowing no one from the life would be pulling in there.

By the way...high school is nothing if you can fake it...employers do not check. just say you graduated. meanwhile, consider a GED, then you have the possibility of pell grant money. Even if college isn't fro you after-all.

 

[smoothg103rd]

I thought about going to the military just to get away but found out that u need a hsd. I wanted to go just to become a better me in a way. But I'm not with school I hate school. I use to just go to school to be in the hallways and fuck with the bitches. I was popular I'm handsome, tattoos, stay fresh, played sports and had a whole lot of block money in my pocket. The bitches was on my dick. Me and my friends use to bet every school year to see who will fucked the most bitches and I won everytime. We would all put up about 200. I dropped out after my freshman year. And the crazy part I was smart I never fail a test in my life. Me and my cousin went to the same school we had the same math teacher. And she told him" your nothing like your cousin your in my class everyday and fail every test he never comes to my class but pass. Math was my shit I guess because I love money and math ain't nothing but numbers. Then I started getting locked up coming home doing the same shit. As a juvenile I probably been arrested over 10 times. When I was 16 until 18 I probably only been home for a week. Good thing about it is I never been charged as a adult so my record is kinda clean. I tried working when I got out some bs ass warehouse job. I worked for only 3 days and quit. Didn't have a job snice. Query honestly I don't know who or what I wanna be out of life. I just wanna live