Bunny's Stuffie Corner

[M4titties]

Well, we have to go back today.

I wish running away to sea were still a valid option!

I'm sorry that sucks. Could always buy a boat. And cruise the sea.

 

[BiBunny]

Ok, y'all, I'm home. Gonna go pass out for a little while now. I'll post a few more pics from yesterday later.

 

[M4titties]

Ok, y'all, I'm home. Gonna go pass out for a little while now. I'll post a few more pics from yesterday later.

Have a good pass out sess!

 

[Tallcajun]

Looks like a good trip, Bunny.
Where was that?

 

[BiBunny]

Looks like a good trip, Bunny.
Where was that?

It was! It was in Gulf Shores, Alabama.

 

[BiBunny]

So here are the pics from Saturday that I promised last night, but didn't manage to post because my nap turned into sleeping all night, lol.

The water is not as pretty as it could be. It was kinda murky and green because the tide was low, and there was some seaweed. But that's ok. The ocean is where I belong, so I don't care that much about what it looks like.

Ok, these are all I'm posting now. Like I posted on FB yesterday, I'm back home now, so no more blurry pics of the ocean with Jimmy Buffett lyrics attached, lol. Thanks for humoring me, guys!

 

[FrenchLopBunny]

Thanks for humoring me, guys!

Such a pretty smile!

 

[BiBunny]

Such a pretty smile!

Thank you!

 

[BiBunny]

I had high hopes for all I was going to get done today. I've done nothing but hold the hands of people who couldn't stand it that I got a few days away from them and their bullshit, so they had to pop up and demand their share of my attention today.

My bp has not dropped below 160/90 today, and at the moment, it's 179/95, despite the fact that I've taken all my meds and have been avoiding sodium to the best of my ability.

The amount of emotional labor a lot of people fucking demand from me is absurd. And they wonder why I'm sick/exhausted/in pain all the time. It's because these motherfuckers are bleeding me dry. And they're always the first ones to tell me to cut all those OTHER people out of my life because they're taking advantage of me, like they're not doing the same thing themselves.

I can tell the bp is insane because my eyes won't stop watering. I know that sounds crazy, but every time it gets pretty high, that happens.

I have to work tonight. I have zero dollars, and the pay period ends Wednesday morning at 3 am Central time. I need at least $400, and it's not gonna happen. They may turn my Internet off tomorrow.

I can't work a lot of the time because I'm either exhausted /sick from the energy vampires in my life or actively dealing with them instead of handling my own shit. And everybody has an opinion on how I should live my life, but none of them mind taking advantage of me whenever they fucking can. "Well, you need to cut out so-and-so." Broseph, if I'm cutting out people who drain my energy, your ass is at the top of the list!!!!

This shit is actively cutting my life shorter. My mother called today to tell me her cousin's husband's kidneys are failing to the point that he has to either go on dialysis or die. And she was all, "Well, I worry about you with the diabetes and the blood pressure." Well, maybe stop dumping all your emotional shit on me, and that'd probably help more than anything.

I listened to my father bitch all weekend. I have dealt with three separate people (one of them twice!) today on the phone for a total of about four hours of conversation, and not a single one of those conversations made me any money. I am TIRED, and this shit is going to kill me. But these people don't give a damn, as long as they have someone to dump on.

 

[BiBunny]

And I'll be goddamned, the second I posted this, one of my earlier energy vampires wants to call again for round two today. I'm about to throw my phone to the bottom of the river.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Have some internet hugs and sympathy. Sadly that's all I can do to help.

 

[BiBunny]

Have some internet hugs and sympathy. Sadly that's all I can do to help.

Thank you, that actually helps more than you know.

 

[BiBunny]

I follow some Gulf beach pages on FB because, well, I like to look at the pictures. Of course, it's calm and beautiful now that I'm not there.

 

[BiBunny]

I took three (technically four; one is a combo pill) bp meds about an hour and a half ago. My bp went UP.

What is the point of any of this shit if it just does what it wants to, anyway? *Sigh*

 

[NuclearFairy]

I felt the need to check my BP while shopping because I kept getting dizzy and nearly fainting and was extremely clammy. But I couldn't get through all of the questions without needing to lay down. I still don't know if my BP was crashing or soaring. What's the difference feel like?

 

[BiBunny]

I felt the need to check my BP while shopping because I kept getting dizzy and nearly fainting and was extremely clammy. But I couldn't get through all of the questions without needing to lay down. I still don't know if my BP was crashing or soaring. What's the difference feel like?

I'm no expert, but that sounds more like low bp than high. High bp often doesn't even have symptoms at all. I don't know about low bp because I don't think I've ever had that problem, but for me, high bp presents with a dull headache with pain in the back of the head and at the base of the skull and eye watering. I don't think I've ever been dizzy or clammy with it.

How long had it been since you'd eaten anything? Low blood sugar can also present with dizziness and feeling faint and being oddly clammy.

I'm sorry that happened to you. Sounds really scary! I hope you feel better, and if the problem persists, that you can see a doctor.

 

[BiBunny]

I felt awful earlier, so I laid down and took a nap. One of my energy vampires texted while I was asleep. Obviously, I didn't answer it or view it because I was asleep. I guess because I didn't answer or view it, this person called me, to "check on me." It had not even been an hour since she texted.

Now, she naps often, so if I send her something and she doesn't view it or answer, I assume she's sleeping or busy and will get back to me later, then I leave her alone. But I'm not afforded the same courtesy because she wants someone to talk to, and if I'm busy or sleeping, well, fuck me, right?

To her credit, she did let me go when I said I was napping. But for what? I was already awake at that point. The damage had been done.

I wonder how hard it'd be to fake my own death....

 

[NuclearFairy]

I'm no expert, but that sounds more like low bp than high. High bp often doesn't even have symptoms at all. I don't know about low bp because I don't think I've ever had that problem, but for me, high bp presents with a dull headache with pain in the back of the head and at the base of the skull and eye watering. I don't think I've ever been dizzy or clammy with it.

How long had it been since you'd eaten anything? Low blood sugar can also present with dizziness and feeling faint and being oddly clammy.

I'm sorry that happened to you. Sounds really scary! I hope you feel better, and if the problem persists, that you can see a doctor.

We ate lunch on the drive to the store. But, I did feel tremendously better after getting car sick and then napping in the car on the way home. But, I did warn my doctor when she put me on my BP meds that it can be a bit of a yo-yo. However, she said that it was too high for that to be true...

Maybe I shouldn't of forgotten my iron today though...

I tend to get headaches, and the ability to hear my pulse in my finger tips when my BP is too high and extremely dizzy.

Ah, honestly, I was too out of it to be scared. But my SO and roommate were pretty scared, and I apparently worried several people around us enough for them to come offer some help.

I am feeling much better right now, and I hope you feel better soon too.

 

[BiBunny]

Lord help me, I've gotten into essential oils out of desperation, lol.

Also, I slept a lot last night and feel much better today. My bp is also way down. So that's great news. Going to work now that I feel halfway human again.

 

[BiBunny]

Also, I gotta clean up some. House is not extremely dirty. But it needs to be clean for Diwali, the festival of lights, which is Monday.

 

[BiBunny]

Not doing so great right now.

I have persistent nausea that I'm blaming on my new bp med, but it could be anything, really. I'm so exhausted and have no energy to do anything. That could be because, of my three psych meds, I only have one right now because I have no money to get them filled. Fatigue is also a side effect of the new bp med, so who knows?

Haven't been working and am way behind on everything. Just feel like ass in general.

 

[NuclearFairy]

Not doing so great right now.

I have persistent nausea that I'm blaming on my new bp med, but it could be anything, really. I'm so exhausted and have no energy to do anything. That could be because, of my three psych meds, I only have one right now because I have no money to get them filled. Fatigue is also a side effect of the new bp med, so who knows?

Haven't been working and am way behind on everything. Just feel like ass in general.

When I first started taking BP meds, I felt absolutely terrible, like my blood pressure was just way too low. Even though it was still reading as slightly too high. Hopefully you'll start feeling better as your body adjusts to the new normal.

 

[BiBunny]

When I first started taking BP meds, I felt absolutely terrible, like my blood pressure was just way too low. Even though it was still reading as slightly too high. Hopefully you'll start feeling better as your body adjusts to the new normal.

Thank you.

I know it's not advisable, but I'm sorely tempted to just quit taking the shit. It's not helping keep my blood pressure down, and it's making me feel awful.

I think it's bullshit, too, that at a sliding scale low-income clinic, they won't let you even call and talk to a nurse and ask a question or possibly get your meds changed over the phone. You have to go in and pay each time you have a question you want answered. I can't even afford all my fucking meds. How am I supposed to pay for another visit, too? And why should I have to when this could easily be resolved over the phone?

 

[NuclearFairy]

Thank you.

I know it's not advisable, but I'm sorely tempted to just quit taking the shit. It's not helping keep my blood pressure down, and it's making me feel awful.

I think it's bullshit, too, that at a sliding scale low-income clinic, they won't let you even call and talk to a nurse and ask a question or possibly get your meds changed over the phone. You have to go in and pay each time you have a question you want answered. I can't even afford all my fucking meds. How am I supposed to pay for another visit, too? And why should I have to when this could easily be resolved over the phone?

That's terrible.

You should try looking up your meds before you stop them though. Do some research on side effects and how long they take to be properly effective. Like did you know that IBprofen takes two weeks to reach full effectiveness, but most doctors don't recommend taking it for more than a week at a time.

 

[BiBunny]

So I did some research, and I've come to the conclusion that I'm stopping this shit. My current bp is 173/95. That is not a bit lower than it was before I started it. So it's not actually helping the problem at hand. It's simply creating more problems for me, and since I can't talk to anyone at the clinic without spending money, I'll make the call myself.

Hopefully, I'll feel a little better tomorrow. This nausea and exhaustion is for the birds.