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BeautifulBlueSky218
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Just wanted to put it out there. I don't expect anyone to understand or anything, I just had to get it out there.
I truly loved someone and gave him my all. He took me for granted. I never wanted to see it though. I think it's because I was so blinded by how I felt that I couldn't see that I deserved better. I'm sure this kind of thing happens a lot to people everyday though and many people's hearts get hurt.
I truly loved him though and I was there for him when he needed me. There was even a time I stood off of here because he said he felt uncomfortable. Towards the end I knew something changed by the way he looked at me and the way he kissed me. The sad thing is he ended up disappearing and not even telling me himself that things were coming to a end or that he found somebody else.
We had some amazing moments together and our love making was great too and sometimes thinking about it makes me cry because we connected together. It takes me awhile before I make anyone my boyfriend because I want to make sure that their going to be there for awhile and not just flake out on me or I find out that we weren't meant to be. Both of us truly loved one another. Finally things came to an end and I knew something was wrong, I chose to ignore it which was kinda silly to say the least.
In the end though, things sadly came to an end and our love was no longer there. A few days before I left to return back home, he opened up his drawer and showed me all the cards and drawing's I gave to him and he smiled. So what went wrong? I have no idea and I try not to think about it. Sometimes things just happen and I don't want to keep wondering why things went wrong.
I truly loved him though. I really did.
So now I'm focusing on me for awhile and building myself back up. Think it's going to be awhile before I date anyone or have a relationship because it's never good to rebound or anything. I don't want to look desperate or needy.
I've met a lot of lovely people here though and getting pm's daily and having wonderful conversations is helping me out. This is a place I come to distract myself and to get my sexual side out since I'm so shy. I've been shy my entire life and this is the only place I find myself coming too when I need too.
I'm watching Twin Peaks again. I've already watched the show before, but it always gives me happiness anytime I feel down. And I can't deny this. Bobby Briggs for some reason made me feel hot anytime I watched it. He's a bad boy, true but his character was amazing!
I truly loved someone and gave him my all. He took me for granted. I never wanted to see it though. I think it's because I was so blinded by how I felt that I couldn't see that I deserved better. I'm sure this kind of thing happens a lot to people everyday though and many people's hearts get hurt.
I truly loved him though and I was there for him when he needed me. There was even a time I stood off of here because he said he felt uncomfortable. Towards the end I knew something changed by the way he looked at me and the way he kissed me. The sad thing is he ended up disappearing and not even telling me himself that things were coming to a end or that he found somebody else.
We had some amazing moments together and our love making was great too and sometimes thinking about it makes me cry because we connected together. It takes me awhile before I make anyone my boyfriend because I want to make sure that their going to be there for awhile and not just flake out on me or I find out that we weren't meant to be. Both of us truly loved one another. Finally things came to an end and I knew something was wrong, I chose to ignore it which was kinda silly to say the least.
In the end though, things sadly came to an end and our love was no longer there. A few days before I left to return back home, he opened up his drawer and showed me all the cards and drawing's I gave to him and he smiled. So what went wrong? I have no idea and I try not to think about it. Sometimes things just happen and I don't want to keep wondering why things went wrong.
I truly loved him though. I really did.
So now I'm focusing on me for awhile and building myself back up. Think it's going to be awhile before I date anyone or have a relationship because it's never good to rebound or anything. I don't want to look desperate or needy. I've met a lot of lovely people here though and getting pm's daily and having wonderful conversations is helping me out. This is a place I come to distract myself and to get my sexual side out since I'm so shy. I've been shy my entire life and this is the only place I find myself coming too when I need too.
I'm watching Twin Peaks again. I've already watched the show before, but it always gives me happiness anytime I feel down. And I can't deny this. Bobby Briggs for some reason made me feel hot anytime I watched it.
He's a bad boy, true but his character was amazing!
