This is kind of sick and maybe inappropriate but I do not know who to talk to or what to do. I can't talk to anybody so maybe anonymous website is the right place.
This is about a one time incest and I'm having problems.
My mom and I live alone. My parents are divorced and I have a good relationship with both though my parents despise each other. Last winter our furnace went out and after the repairman looked he said we needed a new furnace but They had no openings for at least a week to replace it.
My mom went out and bought a kerosene heater but she got sick within a few hours of use from the smell. I called my dad and he gave me money and I went out to Walmart and bought I bunch of ceramic heaters.
The second night it got really cold and my mom plugged all 5 of them in her room and had the bed loaded with blankets. We snuggled for shared heat. It was totally nonsexual. I never even thought of my mom like that. I mean I think she is pretty and she is slender but i mean shes my mom.
During the night I dont know what time I vague remember spooning my mom with a hardon but it was more like a dream then real. I cant remember how it happened but I ended up on top of my mom with her face down and I was fucking her. It was more like a dream like I was not even there. The only thing I remember is looking at the side of my moms face and being on top of her. She was biting the end of her pillow with her eyes squeezed really tight.
I don't really remember the sex or even cumming. When I woke up my mom was not in bed and I first thought it was just a fucked up dream. I realize it was real when I got up to take a leak and my dick had a white crust on it which not being a version I knew it was sex juices.
My mom was gone and a note was on the table that I should go spend time with my dad. I spent 2 weeks with my dad and then came home. My mom acts like nothing happened but she wont make eye contact and I feel tension between us. Nothing is the same.
I don't know what to do. Do I push the issue and talk about it or act like it never happened and try to forget about it? I guess I really need to know the how, what and why it happened. I dont know if I did this while she was still sleeping and she woke up to find her son raping her or what? I know a counselor is totally out of the question. My mother would never discuss something like this with a stranger.
I want to tell her I'm sorry. I don't know how it happened. My memory is very vague. I am having trouble and I just want us to be like it was when I could give her a big bear hug without her getting tense.
What should I do?
I am troubled and lost
This is about a one time incest and I'm having problems.
My mom and I live alone. My parents are divorced and I have a good relationship with both though my parents despise each other. Last winter our furnace went out and after the repairman looked he said we needed a new furnace but They had no openings for at least a week to replace it.
My mom went out and bought a kerosene heater but she got sick within a few hours of use from the smell. I called my dad and he gave me money and I went out to Walmart and bought I bunch of ceramic heaters.
The second night it got really cold and my mom plugged all 5 of them in her room and had the bed loaded with blankets. We snuggled for shared heat. It was totally nonsexual. I never even thought of my mom like that. I mean I think she is pretty and she is slender but i mean shes my mom.
During the night I dont know what time I vague remember spooning my mom with a hardon but it was more like a dream then real. I cant remember how it happened but I ended up on top of my mom with her face down and I was fucking her. It was more like a dream like I was not even there. The only thing I remember is looking at the side of my moms face and being on top of her. She was biting the end of her pillow with her eyes squeezed really tight.
I don't really remember the sex or even cumming. When I woke up my mom was not in bed and I first thought it was just a fucked up dream. I realize it was real when I got up to take a leak and my dick had a white crust on it which not being a version I knew it was sex juices.
My mom was gone and a note was on the table that I should go spend time with my dad. I spent 2 weeks with my dad and then came home. My mom acts like nothing happened but she wont make eye contact and I feel tension between us. Nothing is the same.
I don't know what to do. Do I push the issue and talk about it or act like it never happened and try to forget about it? I guess I really need to know the how, what and why it happened. I dont know if I did this while she was still sleeping and she woke up to find her son raping her or what? I know a counselor is totally out of the question. My mother would never discuss something like this with a stranger.
I want to tell her I'm sorry. I don't know how it happened. My memory is very vague. I am having trouble and I just want us to be like it was when I could give her a big bear hug without her getting tense.
What should I do?
I am troubled and lost
