So, here is where I am at, and I guess I am asking for advice at this point.
I have sensed that there is not a lot of respect for submissive kinky males on here, so I really hope people do not judge me harshly. I am not in any long term romantic/kinky relationship (though I am open to being in one, with the right person) but I have been seeing a paid, professional domme for the past six months.
At first, it was awesome. She was good at what she did, well trained, and it was exhilarating and fun to have some of my darker fantasies satisfied. (and no, I wont go into too much detail about what took place in private- sorry but its kind of personal.) She was beautiful, really she is the whole package. I also felt like I learned a lot, too, from her as a sub.
But her sessions weren't cheap- four hundred per hour, only she would usually set the duration (so it would be up to eight hundred per session) and she would insist on it being regular, instead of a one time thing. Fair enough- I understand her wanting to be with regulars she can trust. So after about a month I would usually be out around one or two grand. That is a lot for someone who, lets just say, isnt exactly Bill Gates. You play- you pay- again I understand that. But then, after about a month, she started insisting on expensive gifts in addition to the session tributes. Regular $4-500 dollar splurges at the cosmetics shop. $400 purses. $350 boots, $300 designer sunglasses, a $400 dress, and I can't even recall what else- that is not a complete list. The last straw for me was spending nearly two grand on an Ipad she insisted that I buy for her. And when we were together, it also seems like she watches the clock and sometimes cuts the session short. (yesterday's two hour session was only about an hour and a half.) So, long story short, there were some months I would spend more than my entire monthly paycheck on her and yet still not feel fulfilled at all- only $2500 poorer.
It seems obvious she is taking advantage of me financially. I understand that being with a pro instead of a partner means that "you play, you pay," but it is more than I bargained for. I didn't intend for it to be like this. So I have found that honestly, the last few times I really have not been enjoying the sessions with her at all. I don't feel there is really any connection other than a financial one. I no longer feel the rush of arousal at doing kinky things with her that once would have really turned me on. I don't feel special, only like I'm just another client with deep pockets to her. So long story short, I want out.
But I don't really know how to end it; here is where I need advice. I have hinted strongly that I no longer want to see her anymore, and have tried telling her that my and my "Vanilla" partner are getting really close and that I would rather spend my time (and money) on her. And I've mentioned that I am saving money for things I need- cars to fix, home repairs, and so on. But she doesn't buy any of my excuses, and insists on texting me and wanting me to come see her, on top of occasionally ordering me to buy more expensive things for her. She says things like "We can do every other week instead of every week; you should just leave your S.O. if she doesn't want you seeing a pro domme, I see married men after all," etc- these are some of her excuses. I really want to break it off because to be honest, I feel like I have totally lost my kink drive after stressing about money. And stressing about wanting to break it off but yet I never can seem to be able to.
Sorry about the long post- I know there are not a lot of sub men (or sympathisers for such) on here but if you were in my shoes, or the situation was reversed and I was a female with a male pro domme, how would you go about ending the relationship? I still want to do it politely and honorably, like a true gentleman, the way a submissive would, not rudely or coldly. I just want advice.
I have sensed that there is not a lot of respect for submissive kinky males on here, so I really hope people do not judge me harshly. I am not in any long term romantic/kinky relationship (though I am open to being in one, with the right person) but I have been seeing a paid, professional domme for the past six months.
At first, it was awesome. She was good at what she did, well trained, and it was exhilarating and fun to have some of my darker fantasies satisfied. (and no, I wont go into too much detail about what took place in private- sorry but its kind of personal.) She was beautiful, really she is the whole package. I also felt like I learned a lot, too, from her as a sub.
But her sessions weren't cheap- four hundred per hour, only she would usually set the duration (so it would be up to eight hundred per session) and she would insist on it being regular, instead of a one time thing. Fair enough- I understand her wanting to be with regulars she can trust. So after about a month I would usually be out around one or two grand. That is a lot for someone who, lets just say, isnt exactly Bill Gates. You play- you pay- again I understand that. But then, after about a month, she started insisting on expensive gifts in addition to the session tributes. Regular $4-500 dollar splurges at the cosmetics shop. $400 purses. $350 boots, $300 designer sunglasses, a $400 dress, and I can't even recall what else- that is not a complete list. The last straw for me was spending nearly two grand on an Ipad she insisted that I buy for her. And when we were together, it also seems like she watches the clock and sometimes cuts the session short. (yesterday's two hour session was only about an hour and a half.) So, long story short, there were some months I would spend more than my entire monthly paycheck on her and yet still not feel fulfilled at all- only $2500 poorer.
It seems obvious she is taking advantage of me financially. I understand that being with a pro instead of a partner means that "you play, you pay," but it is more than I bargained for. I didn't intend for it to be like this. So I have found that honestly, the last few times I really have not been enjoying the sessions with her at all. I don't feel there is really any connection other than a financial one. I no longer feel the rush of arousal at doing kinky things with her that once would have really turned me on. I don't feel special, only like I'm just another client with deep pockets to her. So long story short, I want out.
But I don't really know how to end it; here is where I need advice. I have hinted strongly that I no longer want to see her anymore, and have tried telling her that my and my "Vanilla" partner are getting really close and that I would rather spend my time (and money) on her. And I've mentioned that I am saving money for things I need- cars to fix, home repairs, and so on. But she doesn't buy any of my excuses, and insists on texting me and wanting me to come see her, on top of occasionally ordering me to buy more expensive things for her. She says things like "We can do every other week instead of every week; you should just leave your S.O. if she doesn't want you seeing a pro domme, I see married men after all," etc- these are some of her excuses. I really want to break it off because to be honest, I feel like I have totally lost my kink drive after stressing about money. And stressing about wanting to break it off but yet I never can seem to be able to.
Sorry about the long post- I know there are not a lot of sub men (or sympathisers for such) on here but if you were in my shoes, or the situation was reversed and I was a female with a male pro domme, how would you go about ending the relationship? I still want to do it politely and honorably, like a true gentleman, the way a submissive would, not rudely or coldly. I just want advice.
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