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Sami Jackson
The craving was still there. Day and night...
It was never going to go away.
At least that's what I was told. And so far, they had been right...
Who were 'they'? They were the assholes from my drug addiction group. And to tell you the truth, they were starting to get on my nerves. All this talk about how God is the answer.
It's God's will.
So, OK, I can blame God for letting this happen to me? Blame Him for letting him choose this path for me? Great! Now I feel better.
This must what it feels like to sin all week and go to church to beg for forgiveness.
Idiots.
All I was trying to do was get through each day by trying to ignore that craving for drugs---weed...coke...X...
But here I was, pretending everything was good in life...my my friends at school didn't know the internal struggle I was going through to get through each day, so I just pasted on a fake smile upon my features and politely turned them down on their offers to include me in their after-school activities...such as happy hour or partying during the weekend. No, I couldn't even go do that for fear of something happening to where I ended up addicted again.
I had made it through another day of living and now, I found myself at another meeting at the drug rehab clinic...here to talk about how we made it through another week of not using drugs...
One day at a time Sami...one day at a time...
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