You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[Bandit58]

Re: Re: week

To be honest
I have no idea why she totally ended things
though she kicked me to the curb several times
before the last time ... the last time we were together was the last Sunday in March

I am sure that even though I had been ill for a long time before I meet her
and she knew this
that my being ill had an effect on the relationship

Hell who wants a broken down old man......

Hello Richard
I have just moved to Sydney to be with my Master....He also suffers with bad health but our love is strong and we work through the bad days He used to live alone and I am sure that my being here has set His mind at rest. I am sorry that your Rachel left you Master wanted me to be absolutely sure that I knew what I was getting into before I made the commitment to Him, so I spent 3 weeks with Him in November/December to learn what His life is like. I don't know if the fact that I am sub has anything to do with it but I find much joy in caring both about and for Him And in His arms I feel so safe and cared for myself so it works both ways

 

[Richard49]

Happy Valentine's Day

to all my friends here

may today bring you joy

I called left R a Happy Valentine's Day message on her machine

If someone finds my mind
please send it home

 

[Richard49]

Re: Hi

Hi was in Ann Arbor about 9 yrs ago the judge didn't like the way I drank and drove. I only got as far as Kadena Air Force Base Okinawa '68 '69. joined Army NG in HS in '63, then went fulltime in Air Force in'65. saw Indiana mostly then went over.I live in WNY, was doing Satellite dish installes at AMACO service stations when in you area around '93 0r 4 i think.....to much wine women and whoopy to remember that time period

Soupy
Glad you made it to Michigan
Ann Arbor is many a miles from me
though I have to go to VA hsopital there every once in a while

Them judges do tend to have there own ideas of what one should be like chemically when driving

We had a judge up here get busted for smokin pot at a concert

Come back and visit often

 

[Richard49]

How are you tonight, Richard?

SlaveT

I just got back from a hockey game.

Hockey?

 

[Richard49]

Re: Re: Re: week

Hello Richard
I have just moved to Sydney to be with my Master....He also suffers with bad health but our love is strong and we work through the bad days He used to live alone and I am sure that my being here has set His mind at rest. I am sorry that your Rachel left you Master wanted me to be absolutely sure that I knew what I was getting into before I made the commitment to Him, so I spent 3 weeks with Him in November/December to learn what His life is like. I don't know if the fact that I am sub has anything to do with it but I find much joy in caring both about and for Him And in His arms I feel so safe and cared for myself so it works both ways

It is pleasing to know you have such a relationship

What was the old wedding vows
"for better or worse
sickness and health...."

 

[Richard49]

Looks like my living room has been quite

My sister died today
from a drug overdose
she has been an active addict for years
and the %^&*&**&^^%%$ Drs gave herpain killers
and she ODed .......

 

[InnerDarkness]

Looks like my living room has been quite

My sister died today
from a drug overdose
she has been an active addict for years
and the %^&*&**&^^%%$ Drs gave herpain killers
and she ODed .......

Hello Richard.
I am so very, very sorry to hear of your loss.

Please know my thoughts and prayers will be with you as you work through this hard time.

If you need an ear, let me know...

 

[Richard49]

Hello Richard.
I am so very, very sorry to hear of your loss.

Please know my thoughts and prayers will be with you as you work through this hard time.

If you need an ear, let me know...

Thank you for caring
I can use all the prayers I can get

 

[bunny bondage]

silent, but still here!

 

[Richard49]

silent, but still here!

as always
nice to see you

 

[yourdestonie]

Hi Richard this is what I was sending you By Pm:



I'm just touching bases with those who I've been told might be interested in attending. If you've not done so yet you should drop by the thread and get a few of the particulars on this litogether. Its not the ordinary one for sure. We have lots and lots of exciting plans in the works. If you might be interested drop me a PM and I'll give you a brief run down of those plans. But you do owe it to your self to check it out and see just how many people are planning to attend and find out what you'll be missing. It will be held the weekend of May 13th - 16th. With most of the events starting around noon on the 14th. And its to be held in Charlotte NC this time. If you don't live close enough to drive we've chosen a Hotel about 3 miles from an Int. airport so flights should be less expensive than usual.

There's a link in my sig line to the thread.

((((Hugs)))) tonie

 

[yourdestonie]

Have you cleared out your sent Items that will fill your PM box up as well as those you have recieved and if you save PM's that fills it up too.

 

[Prof Bill]

At least a year late

Richard,

After reading some of your posts I finally took advantage of your invitation to get to know you better.

Well, you've certainly experienced some of the downs, haven't you? The good news, given that I'm at least a year late in writing to you, is that the bionics (or some bionics) are still working to some extent, and that life on the relationship front has not proved fatal, either.

And both please me. So I'm selfish, so what? In this regard, I think my selfishness is human and healthy. I like the stability and common sense you bring when you post.

From one of the things I do to help me negotiate life, I've learned that something good can be found for virtually everything. Sometimes I think this means that at the very least I can serve as a bad example for someone else, but most of the time it means that I can hold my hand out to someone who is struggling and suffering and let them know I've been there, that somehow I got through it, and that I believe they can do the same thing.

And you do that, don't you? Thank you.

Bill

 

[Richard49]

Re: At least a year late

Richard,

After reading some of your posts I finally took advantage of your invitation to get to know you better.

Well, you've certainly experienced some of the downs, haven't you? The good news, given that I'm at least a year late in writing to you, is that the bionics (or some bionics) are still working to some extent, and that life on the relationship front has not proved fatal, either.

And both please me. So I'm selfish, so what? In this regard, I think my selfishness is human and healthy. I like the stability and common sense you bring when you post.

From one of the things I do to help me negotiate life, I've learned that something good can be found for virtually everything. Sometimes I think this means that at the very least I can serve as a bad example for someone else, but most of the time it means that I can hold my hand out to someone who is struggling and suffering and let them know I've been there, that somehow I got through it, and that I believe they can do the same thing.

And you do that, don't you? Thank you.

Bill

Thank you Bill for stopping by and sharing
I hope you come by often

 

[erotic_writer_girl]

Re: Re: week

Hell who wants a broken down old man......

Hi Richard,

I haven't read every post here on your very personal and human thread but I did read a lot. I want to say that a man such as you can not be considered a broken down old man!

You seem, in this thread and in the others I have seen your posts, to what you say you are, a Gentleman.

To be quite honest if you and I lived closer I would even say let's meet. Sadly Sydney is a long way away from you. I know I do have this strong desire to come over and take care of your needs. (Sorry it isn't possible!)

I think I have said in a few other threads that, to me, submissive does not equate with subhuman. You have proven by your many posts that neither does Dominant.

I shall be thinking of you often and sending healthy thoughts your way.

Kind Regards

EWG

 

[Richard49]

Re: Re: Re: week

Hi Richard,

I haven't read every post here on your very personal and human thread but I did read a lot. I want to say that a man such as you can not be considered a broken down old man!

You seem, in this thread and in the others I have seen your posts, to what you say you are, a Gentleman.

To be quite honest if you and I lived closer I would even say let's meet. Sadly Sydney is a long way away from you. I know I do have this strong desire to come over and take care of your needs. (Sorry it isn't possible!)

I think I have said in a few other threads that, to me, submissive does not equate with subhuman. You have proven by your many posts that neither does Dominant.

I shall be thinking of you often and sending healthy thoughts your way.

Kind Regards

EWG

EWG

This post was wonderful to wake up to

Sydney? Ohio?

I hope you find a Dom that appreaciates you as much as I do this morning

Please come back and post often

 

[Richard49]

I had a long but wonderful day yesterday
(March 4, 2004 Thursday)

I rode with a freind on a 350 mile round trip
to be with him when he recieved his 13 year coin
for being clean and dry

We got to spend time with our sponsor and some of our sponsor family

My body is screaming
This is second trip in a week
but my sould got some fuel

 

[erotic_writer_girl]

I had a long but wonderful day yesterday
(March 4, 2004 Thursday)

I rode with a freind on a 350 mile round trip
to be with him when he recieved his 13 year coin
for being clean and dry

We got to spend time with our sponsor and some of our sponsor family

My body is screaming
This is second trip in a week
but my sould got some fuel

Richard,

I can understand to some degree how important those coins are! I was in a relationship with a man a few years ago who told me before we went into relationship.. Just dont ever ask me to stop drinking or smoking pot... I knew right from the start exactly what I was getting myself into... I also knew that I loved him so much that I could accept him addiction and all... I told him I would never ask him to give up drinking or pot... everyone told me I was crazy!! I knew I was in love... I had two dealbreakers in that relationship the first was he was never to hurt my kids... the second was that if he ever wanted to screw anyone else he would talk to me about it first....

he broke the first dealbreaker by punching my son... (son was 9) and I immediately rang his mother and asked her to come and collect him... (I know others would have or could have just tossed him out on the street I am not like that...) His mothe came as soon as I told her what had happened and he went to stay with her till he could work what to do...

My son asked that the police not be involved... I respected his wishes and yes I do believ he knew what he was saying and understood it.

The guy after three days rang me and said... "I dont know who else to ask.. I know you know about those places that help people like me... I have to go somehwhere to sort myself out..." My heart did double flips... I knew it took guts for him to make that call... I also knew I could only find a place that had a vacancy and give him the number.. he would need to do the hard work...

He admitted himself to a rehab centre the next day... ten days no one was allowed to contact him.. I prayed hard for him every one of those days...

At the end of the ten days I drove a round trip of several hundred kilometres there and back in the day... to see him..

I asked to speak to him privately and once in private asked if I could speak my mind.. he said I could and so I told him exactly what I thought of his actions but that I still loved him... but he had hurt my son and my son's safety was paramount.. he took it all in good grace...

The minute I arrived home.. and it was really late... my son flew out of bed and came running to me.. he was worried about whether my ex hated him... and he wanted me to know that he knew he had been hit because f the drugs and alcohol.. and could I please not be angry with my ex cause he just had an illness..... What A Kid!!

I threw my arms around him and reassured him my anger had passed... and that he was right my ex had an illness...

Two weeks later my son begged me to take him out to see my ex.. his anger had surfaced and he wanted to say some things... and also to ask a question....

I did that long drive again so my son could see my ex and ask his question... when we got there my son asked me to wait n the lounge while him and ex went for a walk... and they were gone ages.. but by the time they came back they were hugging each other and talking like old buddies again..... neither of them would resolve my eternal curiosity.. and to this day I dont know what they talked about... it is their 'secret mens business' I am told...

A week after that my son received a letter in the mail from my ex (who was barely literate and to whom writing was not just a chore but a shameful thing...) the letter was one of love and sincere apology and he finished off with a sad face saying that he had broken my sons trust and that he wished he could fix that.. and signed it with his name...

My son took the letter to his room and said he was going to fix it.. I didnt have a clue what he meant.. but when he came out he had turned the sad face to a smile and crossed out my ex's name and written DAD.

He then put the letter back in an envelop and posted it back to my ex...

Eight weeks after that punch... my son asked me.. Can dad come home.. he has done all the right things and everyone deserves a second chance....

It was my joy to offer my son and my ex that second chance... My ex has stayed clean & sober to this day... and I am still proud of him!!

much to my dismay he broke our second dealbreaker... he slept with a woman he had met at AA... yep I guess I could have understood if he had not done so while I was ill in hospital in a great deal of physical pain and panicking because the doctors could not find out what was wrong...

I found out about his affair with the woman when I took him to her house on his birthday as I had arranged with her for us to both bring hmi great delights for his special day... she spent the first half hour of our visit hinting around... and I loooked him in the face and asked him if he had slept with her... he said yes... and I was trying to work my way through that when I asked him when.. when he said it was hen I was in hospital.... I just took him byu the hand bid her farewell.... and said.. I think we have a lot to talks about...

I found that the only thing I could not deal with was that I had needed him so much when I was in hoispital and very scared... and he was with her.....

thanks for letting me share all this... But yeah... I reckon anyone who overcomes their addiction really ROCKS!!!!

It takes guts and determination.... and even after we broike up... he stayed straight... Yayyy..!!

Guess I am gunna be looking for a while to find a man who lights my fire the way he did... and who can be just the kind of Dom I need.... anddddd who doesnt live as far away s you do...

Hope your day continues on its merry way with many good things coming your way...

Regards

EWG

 

[Richard49]

EWG

Thank you for sharing this personal story with me and those that come here ........

I have been clean and dry for 6 years 7 months and almost a week .... not that I track it

My sponsor who is also a VN vet ..... has been clean for 20 years

I meet Rachel in NA ...... first time i saw her she had less then a week clean and was in a treatment center ...... she has touched me so deep .........

oh well

 

[trodas]

erotic_writer_girl - thanks for long and interesting story And yes, i do agree - addiction to drugs or drinking is illynes However sometimes can be cured Hope it last long

Richard49 - ha, old and broken man? You are not so old, if the 49 mean your age Broken? Well, everyone is broken, when they lost their love Because is the love, the other person you can hug and share your life with, what is the life purpose. And nothing can replace it. All the rest is just a stuff. It can go any minute, but strong relationship stays.
It's a little bit shame that your partner left you, when your health get worser - it's not the purpose of being together is to help each other even when things don't going so much great?
If the relationship don't suffer and the break come from "fresh sky" when your health got worser, then she should be ashamed.

Anyway, living into US, the land of oportunity and possibilites - Im sure that with even a little everyday effort you must meet someone to warm your heart

 

[kayte]

Looks like my living room has been quite

My sister died today
from a drug overdose
she has been an active addict for years
and the %^&*&**&^^%%$ Drs gave herpain killers
and she ODed .......

I am so sorry {{{{{{{{{{{Richard}}}}}}}}}}}


You are both in my prayers hon.

 

[Richard49]

I am so sorry {{{{{{{{{{{Richard}}}}}}}}}}}


You are both in my prayers hon.

Thank you my dear

I need all the prayers I can get

 

[kayte]

Good morning {{{{{Richard}}}}}}

Hope you had a restful night's sleep hon!!!!

 

[Richard49]

Good morning {{{{{Richard}}}}}}

Hope you had a restful night's sleep hon!!!!

I had an eventful night
My defibultor fired at about 4:15 AM
It only fired once
but
I have been up and down a lot since

Thank you coming by and giving me a morning hug

 

[kayte]

I had an eventful night
My defibultor fired at about 4:15 AM
It only fired once
but
I have been up and down a lot since

Thank you coming by and giving me a morning hug

Well hon, it worked!!! I do know it was a big "punch" in the chest wasn't it?

Hope you are able to rest and relax now sweetie.