You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[MaryBears]

hello Richard


Good luck with the new lady.....


Just take it one step at a time things will work out...I know it is very hard

Mary

 

[bunny bondage]

wishing you luck, Richard. don't despair.

 

[Richard49]

I am leaning towards NOT continuing to date mila
It just seems so difficult with the language and culture issues

I was talking to woman about 150 south of me
via yahoo im
and something came up about a birthday spanking for her
<big evil grin>

Anyway
this is also about my heart still being with R

bb
it is good to see you
and you to Mary Bears

 

[Richard49]

I did not talk to or take mila out this weekend

I have been feeling undermotivated, tired and I sleep
all the time ...........

Such is life

 

[MaryBears]

I did not talk to or take mila out this weekend

I have been feeling undermotivated, tired and I sleep
all the time ...........

Such is life

Hey Richard I hope you get to feeling better soon....I know it is rough being down all the time....I have been diagnosed with clinical depression....so I know what it feels like...take care and *hugs*

 

[Richard49]

Long night last night
I was up to 5 AM
mostly obcessing about R

Today is my mom's 87th birthday

 

[MaryBears]

Long night last night
I was up to 5 AM
mostly obcessing about R

Today is my mom's 87th birthday

awww Richard

orry to hear about staying up so late last night....

Hope your mom had a great birthday

 

[Richard49]

awww Richard

orry to hear about staying up so late last night....

Hope your mom had a great birthday

Mom enjoyed her birthday
as she says
It is a week she is taken out ot eat everyday
though this week for her was interrupted by some very bad weather

 

[Richard49]

I tried reading and posting ot the BDSM boards here
it just stired up emotions of R

bad bad bad

Sleep has not been good
I get tired
go to bed
sleep a couple of hours and then up all night

Last night both the cats were ill

Let's see it has been since the end of March that
R kicked me to the curb ...... and I am still there

I have continues to do the Yahoo and Big Church
personals .... shacking head ......

 

[MaryBears]

I tried reading and posting ot the BDSM boards here
it just stired up emotions of R

bad bad bad

Sleep has not been good
I get tired
go to bed
sleep a couple of hours and then up all night

Last night both the cats were ill

Let's see it has been since the end of March that
R kicked me to the curb ...... and I am still there

I have continues to do the Yahoo and Big Church
personals .... shacking head ......

Richard I am so sorry your having such a rough time....I wish I could do something to take the pain away....still thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers

 

[Richard49]

Richard I am so sorry your having such a rough time....I wish I could do something to take the pain away....still thinking about you and keeping you in my prayers

Thank you Mary
You seem to be the only one that posts here anymore

 

[MaryBears]

Thank you Mary
You seem to be the only one that posts here anymore

Your very welcome

You will have to stop in to the Bears Den sometime....link in my signiture line....

 

[bunny bondage]

i'm still here, Richard. i just don't know what advice to give. i really don't have that much world experience. sure, i have more than most 21 year olds, but not enough to really help. i just wish i had something more insightfull to add.

 

[Richard49]

i'm still here, Richard. i just don't know what advice to give. i really don't have that much world experience. sure, i have more than most 21 year olds, but not enough to really help. i just wish i had something more insightfull to add.

Sometimes the best things we have to give another is
our presences and prayer

When times for one are tough
what makes them worse is the feeling of being alone

I have dealt a lot with people in the hospital
(besides me being in them)
and I have dealt a lot with families of the deseased
at funerals .........

The thing I had to give was a warm/honest smile
and to touch

BTW bb you can email me

 

[lady-kat]

I still peek in also Richard.

Sometimes the best things we have to give another is
our presences and prayer

prayer, my friend I gladly give. <smile> tho. am a jr. "budding" prayer warrior. U are in my thoughts and prayers often.

When times for one are tough
what makes them worse is the feeling of being alone

yes. and for that, my heart truly hurts for U. Lonliness I understand.... but I cannot conceive of such alone-ness, and being able to stand in the face of it.

 

[Richard49]

lady-kat

Thank you for dropping by

I do not know if you saw
but I did post here that you are battling cancer
and ask everyone ot pray for you

as always you are in my prayers and thoughts also

 

[Richard49]

I tired reading some of the threads on BDSM
some new ones and some old ones
they churned up lots of emotions
I became over whelmed with emotions

I just can't go there
not yet

My heart is heavy

I once had a bald attorney who was married to a young fox
tell me "let them into your heart but not your mind"

 

[wildsweetone]

"let them into your heart but not your mind"

I thought about this...

I think it's interesting. I learned to keep a little bit of my head to myself, just as a kind of safety net I guess. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not, but it's helped keep me steady while I healed.

I think being honest and open is a reasonable expectation within a relationship, but for one's own security sake it feels 'safe' to keep a little bit of ones self back.

At least it has seemed that way for me for the last five years.

Looking back gets easier with time or distance. When I say time, I don't mean a couple of months eh.

 

[lady-kat]

Re: lady-kat

Thank you for dropping by

I do not know if you saw
but I did post here that you are battling cancer
and ask everyone ot pray for you

as always you are in my prayers and thoughts also

Thank you Richard.
That U care and give of yourself is appreciated very much.

 

[MaryBears]

Richard

I hope all is well with you!!! Please do take care of yourself
and keep your chin up....things will work out.....And some day your broken heart will mend.

Take care!!!

 

[Richard49]

Richard

I hope all is well with you!!! Please do take care of yourself
and keep your chin up....things will work out.....And some day your broken heart will mend.

Take care!!!

I hope you are right

 

[MaryBears]

I hope you are right

Richard It all takes time and patiences (something i lack) So let your heart do what it needs to mend but do take care of yourself

 

[Richard49]

My heart needs to mend in more ways then one

Another Friday night
I m home
cold
watching bad TV ......

GGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

What's a Dom to do

 

[Richard49]

lady-kat update

I have developed many freinds here
lady-kat is one of them
and I know she has become freinds with some of you

She was not able to get her chemo yesterday and today because
her blood count is to low ...... she is also having issues with her husbands insurance company

please keep her in your prayers

 

[LadyAura]

Hi Richard,
I'm still around and checking up on you from time to time. I am not good with advice. Sometimes I think it is better to let others know you are listening and care. Just know that I wish you well. Many here care for you.

I have not been posting and spending time at literotica lately. I am about 13 weeks pregnant and I have been very tired. I have been sick since mid October. My daughter has also been having a difficult time adjusting to school this year. We spend many hours studying and doing homework.

Take care of yourself. LadyAura