You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[spott]

I pray you are right

so do I...believe it or not, that is how he came to me...through prayer. God and me have this understanding, and I told Him/Her that unless he sent me someone decent and right for me, I was going to go with what was available so make something available....

soooo....
-spott

 

[Richard49]

ah Richard.

may i add to your list only a bit?....

get the check in your hot little hands, make sure it doesn't bounce, and then spend the money for your own enjoyment.

You fought long and hard for this victory. Please, my friend, take some time to savor it, because it is well earned & deserved.......

Sevral people have suggested I enjoy the money

I am not sure what I would do with it

R and I had planed a train tour of the US this summer
with S .... well there is no R so..........
and I can not think of anyone else to go with

I have a crouse I planed on going on this fall
(It also has herb classes involved)

Go alone?
NOT

So anyway...other then getting my house organzed and cleaned
Maybe go out to eat with others when I have had to say no because of money ........... I can not think of anything to do

 

[Richard49]

Honesty is a wonderful thing, when you can reach the place in your life that you no longer feel you have to make everyone happy and can just be yourself.

The problems with Doms? I'm strong willed, intelligent, a very deep thinker, I know what my worth is and I have a demanding life.

Bending my will to meet a dominants at times is not an issue, but not always. My professional life doesn't allow it and my professional life is one that can and does go everywhere with me.

Recently someone told me that my need for emotional validation did not meet with a true submissives main focus which, in his opinion, is service. My initial thought to that was "I spent too many years in college to be your domestic help, get a maid"

I have a big mouth too.

Maybe it would be easier for you to state clearly what your wants and desires are .... then you can find someone that matches your wishes more closely

 

[Richard49]

What is keeping you from living, wringing every last bit of joy and happiness from what life has to offer? you've hada number of relationships, which means that you are capable of loving and being loved. Think about that.
-spott

All it proves is that some woman was crazy enough to get inolved with me ... that I pick poorly

What is stopping me now
1) desire
2) resourses

 

[Richard49]

Its all there Richard, the core of submission, the desire to serve, the pleasure I receive from serving but before you reach that place there are layers of hurt and damage done from the past.

Trust takes time, its not something that I can rush and I know that for me trust in so integral, it is part of the foundation but also the load bearing walls of any relationship.

Getting past those things, letting down the walls or perhaps giving someone the key to get past the wall is something that takes time and patience.

But thats just me.

It takes caring, respect, knowledge and responsiblity

 

[Richard49]

hey, perhaps there will be some ladies there as well! i'll keep my fingers crossed for ya, Richard! ^_^

Great program...... herbal cancer treatment

Turn out was poor

no ladies that were attractive and available

 

[Richard49]

ummm... why don't you let the woman pick YOU next time?

-spott

R did pick me

Since I go few other places besides recovery meetings
not many place women can meet me

 

[Richard49]

Good morning all from a stunning autumn dawn in the land of 'Down Under'.

I'm feeling great because the school holidays are over and in about half an hour the house will be MINE again!


I hope you are feeling better Sir.

I am doing better today ---- Monday here-------
then I was Sat night and Sunday ..........

Glad you have your house back if that makes you happy

Autumn? It is spring here

 

[Richard49]

i don't want you to die! *huggs* i'd miss you (even though i hadn't talked to you before today) i'd miss seeing you around lit and actually being reasonable! *gasp!* (not many people are anymore) *sniffles* you're such a great person, and i hate to think of you going away forever.

Me reasonable?

You sure you do not have me confused with another?

 

[Richard49]

so do I...believe it or not, that is how he came to me...through prayer. God and me have this understanding, and I told Him/Her that unless he sent me someone decent and right for me, I was going to go with what was available so make something available....

soooo....
-spott

It sounds like you have a good relationship
with your higher power

 

[Richard49]

Monday Morning

I think I have caught up responding to everyones posts
If I miss you let me know

I had a very restless night, again.
However I am doing better then yesterday

The lady who I have been talking to about being patent rep/advocate was suppose to meet with me this afternoon. She needs to go get a tooth cap put back on. So that is postponed till Wednesday.

Life is life

 

[spott]

It sounds like you have a good relationship
with your higher power

i'd like to think that I do, after a long period of self-inflicted estrangement...long story, big mess...
-spott

 

[Richard49]

i'd like to think that I do, after a long period of self-inflicted estrangement...long story, big mess...
-spott

I pray and hope he is listening and will act in a way that causes me the lest amount of pain

 

[Richard49]

Have I missed anything ?

Below is a list of things that I want to make clear with person who I am talking to about being my patent rep/advocate

Do any of you see anything I have missed?

Patent Rep/Advocate
Expectations


My desire is for this person to assisting me in insuring that

1) my medical care is the best available
2) my medical care is as natural as possible
3) drugs I need are given me
4) drugs that I do not need, have had allergic reaction to or those that a recovering drug addicted should not have not be given to me (this includes those that Drs cover up by calling them habit forming rather then addictive
5) That if I can not make discions for myself that I be a no code and that extreme measures not be taken

 

[bunny bondage]

i wouldn't be able to notice if you did leave anything out, i'm afraid i'm just not experienced with this sort of thing....i really wish i could be of more help. but i keep you in my thoughts, Richard, though i wish i could do more.

 

[Richard49]

i wouldn't be able to notice if you did leave anything out, i'm afraid i'm just not experienced with this sort of thing....i really wish i could be of more help. but i keep you in my thoughts, Richard, though i wish i could do more.

Your presence helps !!!!

 

[kayte]

Richard ~ Thinking of you !!! *hugs* and a gentle kiss. Hope your are doing well with the woman you were to be seeing as your advocate.

Please let us know how the meeting goes.

 

[Richard49]

My summer vacation

There is a very intense herb school in Utah this summer
It lasts six days ... then you got to come home and do home work etc. Then pass 6 tests.

As I have posted here R and I had planed on doing a tour of the USA by train and that I did not want to do this alone ..... we thought it would teach S so much ......

Anyway .... I have decided I can go to this school and go by train
It is not the whole thing I had wanted but ........
and it means I have to keep kicking untill middle of July

So that will be my summer vacation .....

Now I need to figure out cruise in fall

 

[lady-kat]

Re: My summer vacation

There is a very intense herb school in Utah this summer
It lasts six days ... then you got to come home and do home work etc. Then pass 6 tests.

As I have posted here R and I had planed on doing a tour of the USA by train and that I did not want to do this alone ..... we thought it would teach S so much ......

Anyway .... I have decided I can go to this school and go by train
It is not the whole thing I had wanted but ........
and it means I have to keep kicking untill middle of July

So that will be my summer vacation .....

Now I need to figure out cruise in fall

Richard.
sounds like an excellent vacation for U.... and by train too.... will be beautiful......pictures, to share please? when U return?

 

[bunny bondage]

ooh! sounds like fun, Richard!

 

[kayte]

Re: My summer vacation

There is a very intense herb school in Utah this summer
It lasts six days ... then you got to come home and do home work etc. Then pass 6 tests.

As I have posted here R and I had planed on doing a tour of the USA by train and that I did not want to do this alone ..... we thought it would teach S so much ......

Anyway .... I have decided I can go to this school and go by train
It is not the whole thing I had wanted but ........
and it means I have to keep kicking untill middle of July

So that will be my summer vacation .....

Now I need to figure out cruise in fall

Sounds like a great summer time trip. Have a great time. Please share the pictures with us.

Now an Alaskan cruise is great !!!

 

[wildsweetone]

Re: My summer vacation

There is a very intense herb school in Utah this summer
It lasts six days ... then you got to come home and do home work etc. Then pass 6 tests.

As I have posted here R and I had planed on doing a tour of the USA by train and that I did not want to do this alone ..... we thought it would teach S so much ......

Anyway .... I have decided I can go to this school and go by train
It is not the whole thing I had wanted but ........
and it means I have to keep kicking untill middle of July

So that will be my summer vacation .....

Now I need to figure out cruise in fall

Sounds kinda fun to me. Want a hand with your luggage?

Watch out for the cruise though... all boats sink. Bloody awful alternative methinks.

On the other hand... maybe the mermaids will be worth the trip

Middle of July eh. hmm Well heck, if you can hang out that long Sir, I'll bet you can hang out ohhhhh.... wellllll.... at least until Halloween.

You know, there was a cruise liner down here recently... Hmm The Sea Princess I think it was. Big huge cracks in her hull. I think they filled the cracks up then sent her back on the seas. You want to make sure that whatever you cruise on has no cracks eh.

Can you tell I really HATE sailing?

 

[spott]

Re: My summer vacation

Now I need to figure out cruise in fall

You will adore cruising! Such interesting people. Good food. Scenery changes every day. The boat staff waits on everyone like they are royalty.

We are planning to fly to Hawaii, spend a week or ten days island hopping and then cruise back to the States.

Alaska is awesome, Western Carribean is fun. Panama canal Transit is a blast, as is any repositioning cruise.

I've never cruised the Atlantic or Europe. I would like to visit India some day.
-spott

PS. get ssome cruise brochures and dream. There are even Friends of Bill W mtgs on board.

 

[spott]

Re: Re: My summer vacation

Can you tell I really HATE sailing?

My dream is to live onboard...a 42' Carver yacht. Motor from port to port.

That is, if I had that kind of money. I buy a $1 lottery ticket every week and dream.

-spott

 

[spott]

Re: My summer vacation

As I have posted here R and I had planed on doing a tour of the USA by train and that I did not want to do this alone ..... we thought it would teach S so much ......

A better plan would have been to put the kid in summer camp, and have an adult travel experience on the train

-spott