You can now call me the bionic single Dom

[spott]

With my health I have limited energy to be active
I believe I use it best I can

As far as I know R is NOT in another relationship

I no long am sure what I want
but am leaning strongly towards
giving up on any and all relationships

I have fought to stay alive till I won this battle with VA
it is won

OK, so here's the plan: be good to YOU.
sleep late, eat well, go listen to the birds sing.
Give yourself permission to enjoy life.

Heal up. Rest.

You will be surprised how life looks so very much different.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

OK, so here's the plan: be good to YOU.
sleep late, eat well, go listen to the birds sing.
Give yourself permission to enjoy life.

Heal up. Rest.

You will be surprised how life looks so very much different.
-spott

sleep is my enemy
I just have nightmares

Me and my cats watch and listen to the birds
Cats watch for different reason then me

I just do not have energy to cook any more
and I find little pleasure out of cooking just for me

Life on lifes terms
is just not fun

1) change will - ex is not getting this shit...opps..assets
2) get new patent rep/advocate

 

[spott]

I just do not have energy to cook any more
and I find little pleasure out of cooking just for me

Life on lifes terms
is just not fun

1) change will - ex is not getting this shit...opps..assets
2) get new patent rep/advocate

Ya..I hate cooking for one, and eating at restaurants gets so boring, especially alone. But every now and then I'll find something I really have a taste for.... and i go get it.

Life on life's terms? well, how about Life of Richard's terms?
You're entitled. You're a survivor, now be a victor. I've got a retiree at awork who says any day that goes by that he hasn't pissed someone off is a day wasted, and he doesn't waste too many days anymore

OK. That's two things you have to do. what's your deadline?
Hold yourself accountable and you'll get it done.

I still have to take ex back to court to get what he still owes me, about 40K. I just don't want to deal with it. You kick my butt and I'll kick yours....
-spott

 

[spott]

and maybe give my head something to tthink about besides R

Today I have nearly been in tears over missing her ..........

If that is what you want, and if you think she is ready, go for it.
Set down the rules, though. Be a Dom, or not. If she is unwilling or unable to obey, you send her away. And be firm about it.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

x

 

[Richard49]

If that is what you want, and if you think she is ready, go for it.
Set down the rules, though. Be a Dom, or not. If she is unwilling or unable to obey, you send her away. And be firm about it.
-spott

I have no idea what I want
and no idea what she is ready for

so I do not call

once a week I send her along with others the herb speicals
and if I send an article out to my friends I include her

other wise no contact

I even avoid any meeting she might be at

 

[spott]

I have no idea what I want
and no idea what she is ready for

then you wait until you do know.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

Ya..I hate cooking for one, and eating at restaurants gets so boring, especially alone. But every now and then I'll find something I really have a taste for.... and i go get it.

Life on life's terms? well, how about Life of Richard's terms?
You're entitled. You're a survivor, now be a victor. I've got a retiree at awork who says any day that goes by that he hasn't pissed someone off is a day wasted, and he doesn't waste too many days anymore

OK. That's two things you have to do. what's your deadline?
Hold yourself accountable and you'll get it done.

I still have to take ex back to court to get what he still owes me, about 40K. I just don't want to deal with it. You kick my butt and I'll kick yours....
-spott

God eating in restraunts alone
the worst thing most of the time

Sometimes I order out and bring it home
and eat ... other wise ... once a month church potluck is it

With my health (inlcuding depression so unpredictable)
I "fear" making any plans which includes voluntaring
I do have to be at three meetings
I have the key

My house is so bad it should be packd up
and sent to DOD as a biological weapon

Life can only be done on lifes terms
and for me lately ... life sucks

Will and new patent rep should be done thins week
I meet Monday at 4 PM with person I think will be patent rep

 

[spott]

My house is so bad it should be packd up
and sent to DOD as a biological weapon

wanna borrow the Bobcat and the frontend loader when I'm done with mine?

Gotta get this place done before Dennie moves in...argh.
-spott

 

[spott]

God eating in restraunts alone
the worst thing most of the time

I agree, but sometimes it is not so bad. It's better than eating alone in a hotel room though. I've done both. I had to travel for work and being a woman alone really rots.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

I agree, but sometimes it is not so bad. It's better than eating alone in a hotel room though. I've done both. I had to travel for work and being a woman alone really rots.
-spott

When i use to travel like this I would find 7-11 and buy junk
and eat in ... watching TV or working

 

[Richard49]

wanna borrow the Bobcat and the frontend loader when I'm done with mine?

Gotta get this place done before Dennie moves in...argh.
-spott

I live in an older moble home that I owe money on
I have thought about torching it but would still
owe money and might endanger other homes her in park

 

[spott]

When i use to travel like this I would find 7-11 and buy junk
and eat in ... watching TV or working

Nothing like a bag of Cheetos and a Mountain Dew, is there?
-spott

 

[spott]

I live in an older moble home that I owe money on
I have thought about torching it but would still
owe money and might endanger other homes her in park

I live and own with no mortgage (YAY!) a house half of which was built in 1899 and the other half in 1928. It's a real adventure.

I have two garages, one of which is a carriage house, and a basement with two parts: the poured cement laundry room and the solid rock and post dungeon area...

and I am far far away from the other houses because I have a very large lot, chain link fencing and live near the rr trax.

-spott

 

[Richard49]

I live and own with no mortgage (YAY!) a house half of which was built in 1899 and the other half in 1928. It's a real adventure.

I have two garages, one of which is a carriage house, and a basement with two parts: the poured cement laundry room and the solid rock and post dungeon area...

and I am far far away from the other houses because I have a very large lot, chain link fencing and live near the rr trax.

-spott

Did I hear dungeon?

 

[lady-kat]

OK, so here's the plan: be good to YOU.
sleep late, eat well, go listen to the birds sing.
Give yourself permission to enjoy life.

Heal up. Rest.

You will be surprised how life looks so very much different.
-spott

yep...
what she said...

 

[kayte]

Sorry the program did not provide what you needed and that you are hurting.

Rest well

Dawn


ps.......hey Kayte

{{{Richard}}}} I hope you are getting some rest today. And that the weather across the pond is as nice for you as we are having here. It is breezy and in the 70s. So nice.

Dawn ~ *hugs* Nice to see you here. Hope things are going well for you.

spott ~ Nice to see you. Hope your day is going well. Your house sounds like something...

lady kat ~ Good afternoon. Yes the word 'dungeon' does seem to get a lot of attention. Have a great day.

 

[wildsweetone]

Good morning all from a stunning autumn dawn in the land of 'Down Under'.

I'm feeling great because the school holidays are over and in about half an hour the house will be MINE again!

Sir, it looks like there's been some ups and downs over the last few days. I admit to being upset at the 'lay down' comment. I couldn't bear to look again for 24 hours. I went outside and looked around and found a measure of peace in simple creations.

I woke at 5.15 the next morning and sat on the deck with a steaming coffee and watched the sun rise. The stars paled, the sky blossomed with a pink tinge, then as the sun climbed higher I watched the first frost of autumn melt and trickle down blades of grass. Such beauty, such awe in such a simple part of life. I wish it were something I could send to you but modern technology still has its limits.

I am glad your advocate is close to becoming reality for you.

I don't believe that money is the be all and end all of life though. Yes, it does help one to live. I grant it that much. But I personally feel that 'peace' comes from within. Part of that 'whole package' thing and 'acceptance' thing that we go through when tested to our limits.

You're right in your thoughts about honesty. But along with that must come respect. Respecting differences. I reckon that's the key to having peace for oneself as well as the bigger picture.

One can spend the remaining time of ones life worrying about things that cannot be changed, worrying about how to change things, worrying about what works and what doesn't. Or, one can accept that some things cannot be changed, deal with that acceptance and then move on with life and enjoy it at a more simple level.

Typically, I have waffled on and now I have lost my point of posting. Darn lousy memory. I'll come back when I remember.

I hope you are feeling better Sir.

Tim, I hope you also are feeling okay today.

 

[Bachlum Chaam]

Hi Richard hope you are well sir,thinking of you,may I say continue the fight SHE is out there for you.
Wildsweetone I thank you for your thoughts
Bachlum Chaam (Tim)

 

[spott]

Did I hear dungeon?

yep. 4' rock walls, cement floor, exposed floor joists, and a big log center post...nice and warm in the winter because that is where the very small energy efficient boiler is. high small windows that no one can see into, and a good distance from the neighbors. Breezy in the summer.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

yep. 4' rock walls, cement floor, exposed floor joists, and a big log center post...nice and warm in the winter because that is where the very small energy efficient boiler is. high small windows that no one can see into, and a good distance from the neighbors. Breezy in the summer.
-spott

I can see your personal add now

 

[Richard49]

I know I owe several of you responses
maybe later tonight or tomorrow

I am doing a little better physically and emotionally

My sadness over R is fueling my PTSD
not good

but I have forced myself to live
(at lest at times I have had to force myself)
for 11 years .... the war is over
I have won
others win because I stuck it out

Anyway
it is done

 

[spott]

I can see your personal add now

nah. My search is over. This is it. The last one. The best one.
-spott

 

[Richard49]

nah. My search is over. This is it. The last one. The best one.
-spott

I pray you are right

 

[Bondagebunni]

i don't want you to die! *huggs* i'd miss you (even though i hadn't talked to you before today) i'd miss seeing you around lit and actually being reasonable! *gasp!* (not many people are anymore) *sniffles* you're such a great person, and i hate to think of you going away forever.