Why?

[Secret Pleasure]

I can't help myself from asking why caring for someone always seems to end in me being hurt.

I open myself up and let them in, share myself with them. And then in the end, each time I get my heart crushed, it pulls me further and further down into that black hole and takes away what little trust I might have left for man.

Wish I could remove my heart and mind from my being so that all there was left was a shell of a person. No feelings, No thoughts.

 

[Shadowann2]

First of all...((HUGS)) and second of all...think off all the joys in life you would miss if you had no feelings! You have to take the bad with the good and make the best of it!

I hope you feel better!

 

[Secret Pleasure]

It just hurts so much this way. I want to crawl into myself and forget the outside world exists.

I know you said to think of the good things, but when it hurts, the hurt consumes everything.

Thanks for caring though.

 

[Guest]

 

[red_rose]

It just hurts so much this way. I want to crawl into myself and forget the outside world exists.

I know you said to think of the good things, but when it hurts, the hurt consumes everything.

Thanks for caring though.

The hurt will eventually fade and the happy memories will either fade along with the hurt...or remain. Each day it hurts a little less.

 

[Secret Pleasure]

The hurt will eventually fade and the happy memories will either fade along with the hurt...or remain. Each day it hurts a little less.

thanks RR

 

[MechaBlade]

Sounds like you've had some bad luck.

 

[MechaBlade]

Law of averages says good luck is in the cards.

 

[Secret Pleasure]

Maybe you're right Mechablade.

I'm off to work, the distraction there will help keep thoughts at bay hopefully.

Thanks everyone. Have a great Hump day.

 

[bknight2602]

It doesn't always have to hurt, but this indicates you have deep fellings for someone and that in itself is good. Now you need to find the *one* that doesn't make you hurt.

 

[wolfie69]

From experience

Take a long, hard, honest look at the people who have hurt you. Why did you choose them? Is there a pattern?

I know from my own experience... I was the one who chose those who hurt me... for some reason. I had to break the pattern and when I did and took control... no more hurt

 

[Secret Pleasure]

It doesn't always have to hurt, but this indicates you have deep feelings for someone and that in itself is good. Now you need to find the *one* that doesn't make you hurt.

Honestly, I'm not sure about anything anymore.

 

[capricious_chic]

"Life is pain Highness, anyone that tells you differently is selling something".


Pain fades.

Happiness and joy are eternal.

It is all about choices.

Good luck.

 

[Secret Pleasure]

Re: From experience

Take a long, hard, honest look at the people who have hurt you. Why did you choose them? Is there a pattern?

I know from my own experience... I was the one who chose those who hurt me... for some reason. I had to break the pattern and when I did and took control... no more hurt

Wolfie,

I've done exactly that all day long. It's been one heck of a long day.

This morning the only way to shut out some of the feelings was to blast the stereo in the car.

In the quiet of my day at work, my thoughts kept going back. They all seem to be unavailable in one form or another. I thought this time I'd avoided that. Guess not huh????

 

[Secret Pleasure]

It is all about choices.

Right. I've made a couple today.

Thanks.

I'm giving myself tonight and then moving on. My beauty and worth is too precious to let someone *anyone* bring me down.