What's the story, morning glory?

[SweetGigi]

I know there are lots of new folks here now-a-days and with that fact it is sometimes hard to keep everyone's story straight. I know, personally, my story has changed several times this year as have some others of you out there. So here is a place to tell us all what our stories are, how they came about and what- if any- sort of changes take place in them.

What's your story, morning glory?

 

[intothewoods]

I know there are lots of new folks here now-a-days and with that fact it is sometimes hard to keep everyone's story straight. I know, personally, my story has changed several times this year as have some others of you out there. So here is a place to tell us all what our stories are, how they came about and what- if any- sort of changes take place in them.

What's your story, morning glory?

You first. I was actually just wondering this about you!

 

[SweetGigi]

My story has always been complicated. Now is no different. Some of you know I have always been poly in some way or fashion, but formally its just never been 'claimed'. Recently I came to the conclusion that it is in my best interest to be single for a while until I can close some deep seeded issues in my life.

Now, I know I have never been able to keep such a pact with myself in the past-- God knows I've tried-- but now I have a strong support group of amazing people to keep me honest with myself and helping me stay true to what I need most.

I never thought I would ever become active within the local lifestyle community. I've always been a private player, still am really, and I always thought having you guys to bounce things off of was enough for me. However, when I was introduced to some other local kinksters, I quickly realized what I have been missing.

Through fetlife I met and befriended UmbralEchoes. We hit it off famously and even though we acknowledged a strong sexual connection we also knew neither of us want nor need a relationship. With that boundary well set, we entered into a strict FWB situation. With his DOM oriented switch personality and my submissive oriented switch personality clicking, we easily transitioned into a D/s situation still minding our non-relationship status. So far things are working out famously and we are mutually benefitting from this casual friendship with perks.

Enter Victory.

Victory, or poppet-- as she has affectionately come to be known as-- is a young lesbian woman who is toying with her inner pain slut. She and UmbralEchoes have a mutually benefical relationship where he gets to play with her flesh and she gets to find her boundaries. In meeting UE, I have come to know and care for Poppet very much. Unofficially, she has become sort of a pupil of mine as well. We are learning each other and coming to be quite fond of one another. She has become my little sister, and I her mentor in submission. I truly feel honoured.

In all this we all have inadvertantly become a family. We are learning to live together, work together and function as a unit. We have some kinks in the metal to work out, but each of us has come to realize this fold is giving us something we need. While the chances of it being a long lasting situation are slim, we aren't concerning ourselves with that. We are choosing to enjoy what we have now while we have it and learn what we can during this time.

And that's my story.

 

[marieR19]

My story? Holy mowly that could take all night. lol

From the beginning to present:

Always known I'm submissive, way before I even knew the term for it... back then I called it, for lack of a better term, wanting to be abused. I got bits and pieces of what I wanted, just enough to convince me that it was indeed who I was, by manuevering myself into certain situations (such as nearly getting my ass kicked by the school slut in 8th grade.... ooohhh the look in her eyes was delicious!).
In 9th grade my first girlfriend introduced me to nifty.org, and we had running jokes between us about certain bdsm stories on there. It was the first time I was able to put a name to what I was.

My next two girlfriends knew about my kinky leanings but we did nothing about it, for a varity of reasons.

Beth, the girlfriend I had for nearly 3 years and the one I've talked about the most here on Lit, was the one and only person I've ever actually been submissive to in real life. It was very much a small part of our relationship, and it was usually more play then anything serious, but it was wonderful all the same. The most we ever did in the bdsm-realm was her spanking me and pulling my hair, biting my lip and my ear. Usually it was less, like simply calling me her slave.... But it was wonderful.

Anyways. I am presently single and out of the bdsm scene altogether, for way too many reasons. I have issues I need to work through before I can truly persue (sp?) this any more, any further. I have serious doubts that I will ever be a submissive to the extent that I *want* to be. But whether it's an active part of my life or not, I know that I am submissive and it's what I love, and heck, if I can't be it right now I'll just write about it.


Heather

 

[sexycaz22]

OK...my turn!

Let's start at the beginning......

I have always wondered about my weird fantasies, and have never put a proper term to them, but it was making me feel depressed and sick at the thought that I was actually having them (rough, spanking etc).......until I talked to a nice man who happens to be a Dom.

We talked about my fantasies and what they meant. That was when he talked about his relationship with his submissive and that interested me very much. I slowly realised that there were a proper term - the BDSM!

I have been on Literotica for a year before I came to the BDSM forums, and from the forums, I begun to do some research on BDSM and what it meant to ME! I read the posts from real people who are involved in the BDSM in some way, and I begun to realise that I wanted to explore it...but how?

Accidentally, I came across a Yahoo group where they meet at a munch once a month, and I posted a something on it, can't remember what I typed in!! But from there, a nice man *A* (I have written about him on Lit and in my blogs) there became my friend, and we chatted on MSN, then he took me along to one of these munches. From there, he was also the one who introduced me to the OTK spankings and floggings. It was like I was going home, when I first felt his hand hitting my bum!! hee hee!!

As time went on, I begun to realise that I also wanted to be in control so in April this year, I met a nice submissive (who, since then, have disappeared!) and I had my first session as a Domme with him, and oh my god....it went extermely well!! *grins*

Now, at this time of the year, I am single, but I do have a submissive boy who I am training, both online and in real life. At the moment, we have not played with each other, but hopefully it will be soon!!!! I also have some friends who I play with occasionally, both as a scene bottom and as a Domme. However, I am now starting to want to have more, I want to have a long-term relationship, and I want to have a lover, a partner, a best friend, a soul-mate, someone who can be a switch......*sigh*

Anyway....that's my story.....at the moment!!

 

[00Syd]

MY turn And I'm glad to share because things have been changing pretty fast for me recently.

Always knew I was submissive but didn't always know the term or the "lifestyle." Discovered the word BDSM about a year and a half ago now? Two years? I pranced around online for a while, learning and talking to people, eventually coming to Lit where I really got a chance to do some real learning from some real folks. I went through a sincere effort to introduce my then boyfriend to kink, but after many failed attempts it became clear that he was not one bit kinky. I realised that kink was going to end up being an important part of my life, and so we broke up, on good terms, over the summer. We are still in touch, and good friends.

I spent the summer meeting people, going to munch's with people around my age, playing a little bit with a few people, finding out a little bit of what I do and dont like. Shortly after coming back to school at the end of the summer I met P, a recent graduate, and we started dating. I have been spending a lot of time with him P has been dominating me, and, well, it's been great! We aren't officialy in an exclusive D/s relationship yet, though that is certainly the direction we're heading in. P has helped me figure out that I am much more submissive, and much less of a physical masochist than I thought. The road has been a little bumpy, since I'm so new to this, and this is the first time he's dominated someone who never really has been before, but we're slowly figuring out how we work together best.

Anyway, that's where I am right now. Things have all been changing very fast, but I'm very happy. I think that everything is going to turn out great!

I've convinced P to join the lit forums, but he doesn't really post. Maybe he'll start and then you all could meet him

 

[UKguySW]

"Another sunny afternoon, Walking to the sound of my favourite tune"

 

[SweetGigi]

"Another sunny afternoon, Walking to the sound of my favourite tune"

???

Pardon?

 

[VelvetDarkness]

???

Pardon?

They're lyrics to the Oasis song, 'What's the story, morning glory?'

 

[SweetGigi]

*slapsforehead*

yeah, I am slow today.


duh.

 

[rida]

SweetGigi Glad to hear you have found a loving place to rest and grow.

marieR19 Good luck in your journey

sexycaz22 YEY for you! It sounds like it is an intense time of discovery for you. It is amazing how much things can change in a year, isn't it? Keep us posted!

00Syd Congrats to you! I'm sure it is an exciting time of discovery with P.

Now for my own up-date:

Let's see what happened since I joined Lit last year.

Had a sweet, intense, short lived on-line relationship with a Dom that made me realize many things about myself. Mainly that being submissive is not just a bedroom kink, is who I am. But alas, I could not offer him what he deserved and what I wished to give. He is a very sweet man and I still miss our chats.

Met few times with a nice slightly kinky young guy with whom I discovered that I cannot switch off my submissive side anymore and it will show up at sometimes inappropriate moments during sex.

Have been seeing a Sadist/Dominant for the last 6 months or so, with Hubby's approval and blessings. We are both busy so only manage to meet once a month or so for few hours, but each encounter has been an intense learning experience. Who knows where the journey will bring me/us. It is scary and exciting and ... did I mention intense?.

Hubby is still my main Dominant. Play has moved toward a more emotionally charged territory, with the inevitable pitfalls that it can cause. The good that comes out of each bump in the road is that we get to talk and re-asses where we stand.

I'm so lucky to have such a loving and understanding Husband that he feels comfortable letting me submit to someone else.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

I *am* new, so I'll have a go as well.

Like a lot of others, I knew something was missing, I just didn't know what that something was.. I remember, in high school, things not feeling right. I never got into the whole dating scene, the liking boys, the talking about which boys I liked. I didn't want to admit that while I thought a few of them were cute, I didn't feel a compelling urge to like them. I thought I was weird for feeling that way.

I discovered bdsm on the internet. Looking back now, I realise I didn't like boys my age because they were just that, boys. They didn't provide the sense of security, the feeling of being looked after, the domination I needed and wanted.

I spent a couple of years playing around online. It was one serious OL relationship that encouraged me to persue RL relationships. I joined a few sites, received a lot of emails, none of which appealed to me. Until one. I didn't reply to it straight away, but something struck a chord with me, so I saved it.

Months later, I did reply, and from there, things grew into a Daddy/lg relationship.

The early years were wonderful, despite a few hiccups and personal issues that I believed would get sorted eventually. Alas, that did not happen, and we've recently parted ways after 5 years together. It's really fucking killing me inside though. I do still love him, and care for him, but that relationship had developed into something that was not for my ultimate wellbeing as person.

So now, I'm taking some time to discover myself. I've put my life on hold the last couple of years to play nurse, and it's time to spread my wings and fly.

Right now, I'm not looking to meet anyone, relationship wise. Just looking to make friends, learn some more, and download more really hot porn.

 

[00Syd]

I like this thread

 

[Ronnie_4]

My Story :

I have been married in a monogamous relationship over twenty years. I always thought of myself as a straight guy. I have never had any type on sexual contact with another man. But as far back as I can remember their were times that I might have a momentary attraction to another man. Sometimes just a quick flash in my head, I might wonder how big is his cock? What does he look like naked? Is he gay?

Prior to the internet, I would go to an adult book store and buy skin magazines. There would be the so called Straight Area and Gay Area. I always wanted to go into the gay area just for a little while, to take a peek at those pictures. I never did, I was too embarrassed. Sometimes I would stand very close to the Gay Area and get a glimpse of the pictures on the front of the gay magazines. Latter that day I would remember those pictures and masturbate to those visions in my head.

And then we bought a computer and along came the internet. Fortunately over the years computer prices have come down so much that my Wife has her computer and I have mine. They are located in separate private areas of our house, and we don’t spy on each other. My Wife knows that when I am on my computer, most of the time I am looking at or reading sexually explicit material. Several times she has caught me masturbating and she is ok with that.

We have talked about our sexual usage of the internet. She asked me once if I would be upset if she cybered with someone. Just hearing her say that gave me an erection. I told her that she was free to chat with whomever she liked. She has asked me several times what I do, what I look at on the internet ? Maybe because I was embarrassed I never gave her a straight answer. I would just tell her, I look at every thing. The truth is I do look at everything.

Because of the instant and free availability of every possible pornographic thing you can think of, I have looked at and masturbated to almost all of it. There are a couple of things that I find disgusting and that is kiddyporn and shat . Other than those two items, I like looking at almost everything else. Gay, Lesbian, Straight, Shemale, etc. I find the porn that I’m most attracted to is male submission and feminization. I don’t care for the stories and pic’s where a tough, mean, angry Mistress whips and beats some helpless guy into total submission. What I do like is feminization where a strong forceful Woman gently leads a straight guy into a feminized world that he loves and accepts. Examples are keeping him shaved, maybe wearing lingerie. Using dildos and a strapon both orally and anally. Her cuckolding him and taking a real man boyfriend, etc. I love this type of material, pictures, videos and stories.

In real life I attribute the internet for helping to enhance the sexual relations between my Wife and me. The sex was always good. We both like to fuck and we enjoy oral sex . For years I tried to get her to dress sexy. Wear nylons, sexy panties and lingerie. To trim or shave her pussy. Absolutely not, she would have no part of it. And then thing began to change. What ever she is doing on the internet has opened her up sexually and is willing to try new things.

In the last few years our sexlife has jumped a quantum leap. My Wife has become my Mistress. Yes I really do call her Mistress. Her pussy is neatly trimmed, landing strip style. She enjoys sexy lingerie and has a little tattoo near her pussy. She wears a gold ankle bracelet and enjoys masturbating in front me. With her fingers or the dildo that she sent me to the store to buy for her. She will not allow me to have anal sex with her, but sometimes she will allow me to rim her.

As for me, I couldn’t be happier. She has allowed me to become her property. Her bitch, her houseboy. I gladly do most of the house work, cooking cleaning etc. I keep my body totally shaved. She had me tattooed where my pubic hair used to be, just above my cock. I love masturbating for her and she loves watching me perform. We rarely have vaginal sex anymore, she prefers her dildo. I love watching her use it. And she allows me to suck it when she done with it. I love hearing her whisper nasty things to me while I suck her cock. And I have my own personal set of vibrators. Several sizes, small to large. She fucks my ass with them. I love it and so does she. And I know my Wife very well, she would not do this stuff if she did not enjoy it. Whenever I cum, either through masturbation, a blowjob or vaginal penetration she feeds it to me. I truly enjoy licking it up with her watching me. She asked me why I like eating my cum? What do you get out of it? I told her that it makes me feel totally owned by her, that I am her property, her slave.

So far my Wife as allowed me to explore all of my deepest desires but one. She will allow me to masturbate with her panties. To caress my naked body and stroke myself with them But she will not allow to wear panties or any type of lingerie. If she would allow me too, within in the confines of our house I would love to dress and be a feminine as possible. Maybe someday she will allow me this pleasure.

Ronnie

 

[Anagogical]

Ahoy everyone! I'm P, 00Syd's Dom. She convinced me to post on here, so why not.

Here's my captivating story lol:

At 15, I hung around with the older goth kids at the Pit (a hangout in Harvard Square). Through several introductions, I met a Dominatrix and was intrigued. I've always had inklings to things like this, but never really had any clue on it until I met Katherine. I got to sit in on a bunch of Dominatrix phone sex calls (which at the time I found hilarious) as well as her teaching me about different toys and such.

Fast forward to 2005. I met Nicky off of a BDSM personals site. I was a Freshman going into Sophomore year in college, she was a Senior at a local Art school. That summer was nothing but debauchery. I'd visit her before my afternoon shift at work and spend the rest of the night with her. Every day was 8 hours of work, 6 hours of sleeping and 10 hours of playtime. It was great. We parted ways (after all that wonderful drama that tends to come with Doms and subs parting ways) but I learned a lot. She and I were each others slates, her being my first sub and I being her first Dom. We ran the gamut of fetishes, some we loved, some we hated, some we just found weird. My love of knife play stemmed from there.

Fast forward 4 more years and I met Syd. Things are much different being more experienced than your partner. My old sub D was inexperienced but far more a masochist than a sub. The dynamic was definitely different. Syd and I definitely have a great thing going, and while it may be a learning experience it's a great and amazingly enjoyable one. From the look she gets on her face to various stimuli or sleeping next to her holding her wrists tight.

 

[sexycaz22]

Ahoy everyone! I'm P, 00Syd's Dom. She convinced me to post on here, so why not.

Welcome to Lit! I am sure you will enjoy your time on here!

(and thank you for sharing the story!)

 

[Anagogical]

Welcome to Lit! I am sure you will enjoy your time on here!

(and thank you for sharing the story!)

Thank you. I'm always searching for better ways to spend my time at work, so this looks promising lol.

 

[Lizzie_Borden]

Thank you. I'm always searching for better ways to spend my time at work, so this looks promising lol.

That comment tickled my fancy something shocking.

hehehehehe

 

[SweetGigi]

sure wish you'd reconsider, Stag.

its a great story from what I know.

 

[PatchIsMe]

wow all of your stories are great! i am 'vanilla' as it is termed. i have always been drawn to the bdsm life style. i love to read about it and check out the toys. my husband and i have toyed with some of the aspects. life for us is wicked busy to really do much more. we have an amazing sex life for what our present is. i am eager to explore all my desires and curiousitys with being top and bottom and other girls and he is ok with that. we are content to wait for the future. i suppose i live vicariously though lit. lol

 

[BlueEyesEternal]

My story began back in my college days. I always found myself dating very domineering women. I remember one even specifically told me I couldn't kiss her for the first time until she gave me permission. I was completely miserable and unfulfilled, but I kept being attracted to the same kind of women. It took me a while, but eventually I realized I was being attracted to the power they wielded, not the person they were.

Once I found that asking for what I needed and taking what I wanted wasn't a purely selfish act, but could actually be a gift to someone that had an equally burning desire to truly give all they had to offer in service to someone they cherished and respected, I felt a joy that was greater than the sum of all my primal desires.

I've gone back and forth from vanilla and D/s relationships over the past 7 years or so, but I lose interest in the regular ones and it seems impossible to find subs that were looking for anything more serious then part-time plaything. Fortune favors the bold though, so my search will continue. I'm terribly envious of all the happy couples I see here

 

[FurryFury]

My story? It has probably be told far too often.

At first I was repressed and scared of my "sick" desires.

I experimented with mostly older men which put me in charge and kept me the virgin I'd been told to be.

Whenever I was with boys my age they never stopped when I said no. It happened so often in lesser ways I thought it was normal.

When I was date raped I surely thought it was love. The marriage was hellish to put it mildly. Ten years were down the drain and I was preggers.

At that point I started making decisions based on what I wanted for the child rather than my own self destruction. Which lead to a second miraculous marriage with a very smart, accepting, patient, supportive, loving and somewhat, kinky guy.

Over the years I heard quite a few of my closest and dearest friends talk about conventions, parties and kinks that while being close to my private fantasies just seemed a bit crazy and wrong to me. I listened. Told them I was happy for them but it wasn't for me.

At around 43 or so, I freaked out a bit. I felt frumpy, old, and done. My daughter was young and viable. It messed with my head. I started working on doing more for me.

Role playing was part of that. I tried online cause I couldn't get enough table top. That lead to an online scene decidedly power exchange (but non sexual) sort. Suddenly, shockingly I was physically turned on by power. It was something I've always avoided.

I began my research. I found Lit.

I began to cyber with my husband's permission.

We had TONS of kinky sex. I think I nearly wore him out. At that time my attitude was "If you are not a work you better plan on some sex and kink!"

He finally felt that since I was being so open he could share some of his fantasies with me and we took turns for a while. I will always be happy looking back on those times.

Eventually I got fed up with cyber and SRP. I will always treasure the good times.

I tried some online Doms but found I couldn't live up to what I wanted to give them. I will always treasure the time I spend with them.

I started to feel really guilty. Was my husband doing what he wanted or what I wanted? He wasn't a Dom but was more like me, submissive in bed. OTOH, his submission was different from mine. Mine was about pleasing and sensation. His was far, far more sammy.

My sexual creativity dried up as guilt set in. I quit writing anything sexually related and began doing children's books instead. (Not published - yet.)

I began an ill fated trial period to see what sex if any he would make a priority let to his own devices.

Sex became far less frequent. Kink even less so.

At this time, my main priority is my teens. They'll be gone soon enough. They are both working hard to have scholarships and most of my time, energy and money is going to that.

Sexually things are sad. I am too busy. He is too busy. We are almost always on different schedules. Our priorities are screwed the hell up in some ways.

*shrug*

 

[sexycaz22]

*blush* thank you.

dont know where to start.

"from the begining" hardly seems appropriate.

As far as my interest in BDSM i can hardly remember a real begining. I was never molested or anything but it's something i fantasized about in one form or another from a very young age. Peculiar fantasies when i was young but the fantasies of very young people are typically peculiar.

in anycase, i will give it more thought.

As i said, there may be multiple installments, perhaps seperated by the various facets of my life rather than chronologically. My spirituality has been a major part of my life at times, (as one example) though i'm not sure how much anyone here cares to be bored by that.

I don't think it will be boring!! But then I enjoy reading about other people's stories, if they choose to share.

So, if you want to do it in installments, and not at chronologically, then go for it.

 

[rida]

... I enjoy reading about other people's stories, if they choose to share....

Yep, me too. I'm a voyeur of people's lives

 

[rida]

Thank you for sharing Stag !

Looking forward reading the next installment