*True Confessions*

[naughtygirl]

Good morning TC gang!!! Its been forever since I have been here. There's been a lot going on and I've been pretty busy...mainly with working on this festival. It will all be over at the beginning of October....

I'm praying that all of our Florida friends are safe and that Ivan dies off in the Gulf. And I was happy to read that all of you made it through Frances safely.

CF -- congrats on the new job! Woo hoo! I hope you are enjoying your first week!

Oman, have a good, safe week! *smooch*

Lusty, I loved the hurricane tips, too funny!

Dreamy, I'm so excited and thrilled for your new journey! I'm glad you are enjoying your new job. A part of me is envious, I miss doing that kind of work. Enjoy it!

Babydoll, your post really worried me. I hope that the past few days have offered you hope as every day is a new beginning of sorts. Please seek help from your therapist and from those around you that you can trust and rely on for support. Take care of you and please remember, as I have learned from my own experience, these days will pass. One moment at a time, breathe deep, and take care of you.



Have a good week, my friends!

 

[nrcma98]

Things I ponder

1. If you have a bunch of odds and ends and get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?


2. If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?


3. How can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same, while a wise man and a wiseguy are opposites?


4. Why is it when the stars are out, they are visible, but when the lights are out, they are invisible?


5. Why is English the only language in which your house can burn up as it burns down?

 

[tonitits]

This is officially the worst time of my life. After being without a job for 3 years I finally got one. I was driving a school bus and I was really happy. Not the fake happy that I was playing to most people but honestly happy. I had the man I love, great friends, and a job. That lasted about a week. There was a mechanical problem on the bus and the gas pedal stuck down and I got in an accident with a tree. It was completely not my fault but because I was within my probationary period they had to fire me. I was so depressed. Then I thought I had good friends but it turns out that they are all backstabbing assholes who wanna talk shit about me. My one "friend" is cheating on her husband and a few of us know. Yet she sticks her nose in shit that doesn't concern her and lies about shit. Then the girl who is supposed to be my best friend listens to her lies and believes them. Now she is pissed at me. I should be pissed at her and I am. So now it is me and Brian. At least I have him. We are going to be moving to Florida. We are staying with my mother until we get jobs and a house. I just need to get away from these people and start somewhere else. I don't need this shit in my life. Constantly wondering who is my real friend and getting depressed over all this shit. In the past 2 weeks I have contemplated suicide. Thank God for Brian. But I have resorted back to my cutting. Which is really bad. I haven't done it too bad but a few cuts. I feel bad about it now but then it felt soo good. I am back seeing my therapist. Maybe she can help me. All this right around the year anniversary of when my dad died. Well I didn't mean to bring everybody done. Please conitue with you normal conversation.

((((((((((((Babydoll))))))))))))) continue to go to the therapist and get the hope that you need. We are here for you always. Don't hurt yourself. If they are assholes then you are better off without them, but don't hurt yourself. Hang in there sweetie. Good luck with the move and finding a new job. Any time you need to talk or have someone to vent to we are all here for you. Hope things are getting a little better for you.

 

[tonitits]

Dreamy and CF glad that the jobs are going well. Take care and it looks like Ivan might pass FL by this time. Hope everyone is doing well. Sounds like everyone is having busy times right now.

Jeff good luck on the trip! I am sure that you will be ok by then.

Oman miss ya, have a good week. Are you planning anything with the time off for your anniversary?

 

[JennyOmanHill]

Oman update

Hi TCer's!

Sending good wishes to all those in the hurricane zone this season! LOL @ InLust's posts, especially since Nebraska is in tornado alley! (six of one; half dozen of another!) Plus, I love the idea of Holiday Inn retirement!!

Special wishes sent to Babydoll! Hang in there! I believe, and participate, in therapy myself, and there will be a time when things will be much better. Unfortunately, life hits hard sometimes, but getting through the pain, then letting it go, is the thing to strive for.

Hugs to everyone else from me and Oman!

He's safely back in Chicagoland, and, hopefully, will be back in the big O! a week from Thursday! Sounds so far away right now, but time does pass along quite quickly. Learning to enjoy something each and every day is a challenge, but helps a great deal.

Since his time off is not yet definite, Oman and I are hoping to get a few days' trip to Arizona, where he will finally meet my family!! Hope he realizes what he's in for!!

Hang in there, everyone, and have a good week!

 

[Curious_Fem]

Thanks to everyone that wished me well on my new job. I started yesterday, very excited and extremely nervous. After today, my brain is officially on overload. But I'm liking it so far, and once I get the hang of everything (oh in about a year ) I have no doubt that I'll love it. It feels good to be busy after sitting around doing practically nothing for so long. It also feels good to be paid for the work I'm doing. Life is good.

Glad to hear from our Florida friends.

Dreamy! Congrats on the new place and I'm glad to hear that you like your job. Sending many hugs and kisses your way, beautiful.

Babydoll - I'm very sorry to hear about all the trouble you're having recently. Keep going to your therapist and get it all out. Take care of yourself.

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Re: Frances Survivor...

Checking in! Thank you all for prayers for all of us in Florida.
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Fiesty, I hope you're enjoying the hell outta yourself this weekend. Looks like we're clear from Ivan...although I almost wish...well ok, I can't go that far, but I was really hoping to see you again this week. <snip

I was hoping to see you too...I had all kinds of ideas of what we could do to wait out the hurricane too. But I'm very, very glad that it's going to miss you. I'm sure we'll get to see one another sometime in the not too distant future.

Babydoll- it was good to see you posting, but not good news about the cutting. I know it's a lot like eating disorders (which I have experience with) and that it is hard not to fall back on it when things become overwhelming. But please, please try hard not to do it again, promise to tell someone...anyone...someone here etc. when you get the urge to do so. I hope the move is just what is needed for you to start healing again emotionally. You know you have a place to come to if you need to. *hugs*

To everyone else...

Oh and Oman? That Tim McGraw song is one that is close to my heart. I try to live like I'm dying every day since my dad passed, so his song just spoke to me. Thanks for sharing the lyrics here.

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Thanks to everyone that wished me well on my new job. I started yesterday, very excited and extremely nervous. After today, my brain is officially on overload. But I'm liking it so far, and once I get the hang of everything (oh in about a year ) I have no doubt that I'll love it. It feels good to be busy after sitting around doing practically nothing for so long. It also feels good to be paid for the work I'm doing. Life is good.

Glad to hear from our Florida friends.

Dreamy! Congrats on the new place and I'm glad to hear that you like your job. Sending many hugs and kisses your way, beautiful.

Babydoll - I'm very sorry to hear about all the trouble you're having recently. Keep going to your therapist and get it all out. Take care of yourself.

I'm glad things are going well C_F...I'm just a teensy tiny bit jealous since I've still gotten nowhere. *sigh* that's ok...if I have nothing by next week I'm going to resort to a temp agency...less pay but at least I'll probably have work.

 

[Curious_Fem]

I'm glad things are going well C_F...I'm just a teensy tiny bit jealous since I've still gotten nowhere. *sigh* that's ok...if I have nothing by next week I'm going to resort to a temp agency...less pay but at least I'll probably have work.

I'm still keeping my fingers crossed for you, fiesty. Keep your head up, the right one will come your way.

 

[InLust]

Morning all....doing a fast check in. Nice the hear from NG, Fiesty, Jenny and Babydoll.....was wondering happened to you guys

DoS, looks like maybe you finally be able to start moving! I had neighbors move in last weekend before we knew Ivan was going elsewhere and I just couldn't beleive they were doing that.

Classes are going pretty well this term...nothing really stressfull. Spending my last week on campus as an assistant; start a new job next week. Going back into engineering for a while, $$$ is soooooo much better and the company is willing to work with my class schedual. One of those things that appeared out of the blue...they came looking for me. When something like that happens, figure the universe is speaking and I need to listen

 

[naughtygirl]

I'm glad things are going well C_F...I'm just a teensy tiny bit jealous since I've still gotten nowhere. *sigh* that's ok...if I have nothing by next week I'm going to resort to a temp agency...less pay but at least I'll probably have work.

Hi honey. I know the idea of temping sucks, but its a way to get your foot in the door. As you know, after 4 months of being unemployed when I first moved here, I started as a temp, then I was FINALLY hired on permanently in July. But then yesterday, I found out I am gettting a promotion! WOOO HOOO! I am starting a new position October 1st!!!

So...although the idea of it sucks, and the pay definately sucks, it does put your foot in their door, and after you have proven yourself, when they decide to hire permanently, you have more bargaining room for salary because they know what they are getting. Turn your thinking around on it....it could be a really good thing. My advice is to go for the temp-to-hire positions.

Hang in there sweetie. Believe me, I feel your frustration; I was there not too long ago. Things will work out.

 

[nrcma98]

Thanks to everyone that wished me well on my new job. I started yesterday, very excited and extremely nervous. After today, my brain is officially on overload. But I'm liking it so far, and once I get the hang of everything (oh in about a year ) I have no doubt that I'll love it. It feels good to be busy after sitting around doing practically nothing for so long. It also feels good to be paid for the work I'm doing. Life is good.

Glad to hear from our Florida friends.

Dreamy! Congrats on the new place and I'm glad to hear that you like your job. Sending many hugs and kisses your way, beautiful.

Babydoll - I'm very sorry to hear about all the trouble you're having recently. Keep going to your therapist and get it all out. Take care of yourself.

Gld the new job is going well!

BBD- In my thoughts....Hang in there

Fiesty- You are also in my thoughts. Good luck!

 

[babydoll_73]

Thank you everybody for supporting me. This is just a really hard time. I have not cut since the other day. I am seeing my therapist regularly again. I think that this move will be good for me. I think that I just need to be by my mother and away from all the bullshit here. Cuz if there ain't no bull, there won't be no shit. So before Christmas we will be heading down there. She is near Clearwater, which is a nice area. So I think we will be ok. Thanks again for all the support.

I would say hi to everyone individually but I don't have the time right now. I am sooo tired and have to get up in the morning. So tomorrow I will do my individuals.

babydoll

 

[tonitits]

Thank you everybody for supporting me. This is just a really hard time. I have not cut since the other day. I am seeing my therapist regularly again. I think that this move will be good for me. I think that I just need to be by my mother and away from all the bullshit here. Cuz if there ain't no bull, there won't be no shit. So before Christmas we will be heading down there. She is near Clearwater, which is a nice area. So I think we will be ok. Thanks again for all the support.

I would say hi to everyone individually but I don't have the time right now. I am sooo tired and have to get up in the morning. So tomorrow I will do my individuals.

babydoll

((((((((((((((Babydoll))))))))))))) good to hear that things are better than the other day. Hang in there sweetie. Sometimes we just have to get away and return to our families to make a new start. I hope that everything works out for you. Remember we are here for you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Fiesty - hang in there. I know you will find a wonderful job. It just takes a little time. I was always told that anything worth having was worth waiting for. So it sounds like you are in for a really great job!

All the Floridians glad ya'll are ok and hopefully finally get a break from all these storms.

Dreamy - good luck with the move.

CF- glad that the job is going well and I understand about feeling overwhelmed, but in no time it all you will be fine and loving the job.

IL - good luck with the job and school. Sounds like things are going well for you.

Jenny - hang in there. You know you are always in my thoughts and prayers, sweetie! Hopefully Oman's time in Chicago will fly by. I am sure that meeting your family will be great. Besides with you by his side ya'll can do ANYTHING!!!!!!!!!!

To everyone - Have a great day! Take care. Hugs to all.

 

[Sappholovers]

True Confession

I lost my virginity at the age of 24 in a threesome with another couple. When I was separated from my wife who had asked me for a divorce, I confessed to her the story about how I lost my virginity. The confession turned her on....and we had sex...and it led to our reconciliation. I've drawn upon this experience for a story on Lit: "Screwball Love: A Virgin, a Threesome, a Reconciliation."

 

[1fiestyredhead]

Confession

Ok...confession time... I really, really hate wind. I can handle thunder and lightning. I can handle downpours, even hail. But something about hearing the wind blowing so hard outside of my window really bothers me. This is when living alone really sucks! I don't think I'm going to get much sleep tonight.

C_F, toni and Jeff- thanks so much for thinking of me. I suppose I'm just impatient, but I hate being unemployed, you'd think if one wanted to work as much as I do, it would be no problem finding a job.

NG- honey thank you. I remember when you were going through this same thing. And you're right, the more I think about it, the better the temp agency sounds. It not only allows them to see what I have, but if I absolutely hate the position I have the option of trying out something else. Thanks for pointing out that I maybe needed to think of it in a different light.

Babydoll- hang in there, you have friends here.

and welcome Sappho!

 

[tonitits]

Hey TCers hope that ya'll have a wonderful weekend. Take care.

 

[nrcma98]

Truisms

1. After a quarrel, a wife said to her husband, "You know, I was a fool when I married you."


The husband replied, "Yes, dear, but I was in love and didn't notice."


2. At a cocktail party, one woman said to another, "Aren't you wearing your wedding ring on the wrong finger?"


The other replied, "Yes, I am. I married the wrong man."


3. A man inserted an 'ad' in the classifieds: "Wife wanted." The next day he received a hundred letters. They all said the same thing: "You can have mine."


4. Marriage is the triumph of imagination over intelligence. A second marriage is the triumph of hope over experience.

 

[InLust]

Secret to a long marriage

A couple was celebrating their golden wedding anniversary on the beach in Montego Bay, Jamaica. Their domestic tranquility had long been the talk of the town.

"What a peaceful & loving couple". A local newspaper reporter was inquiring as to the secret of their long and happy marriage.

"Well, it dates back to our honeymoon in America," explained the man. "We visited the Grand Canyon in Arizona and took a trip down to the bottom of the canyon by horse.

We hadn't gone too far when my wife's horse stumbled and she almost fell off. My wife looked down at the horse and quietly said, "That's once."

We proceeded a little further and the horse stumbled again, this time causing her to drop her water. Once more my wife quietly said, "That's twice. "

We hadn't gone a half-mile when the horse stumbled for a third time. My wife quietly removed a revolver from her purse and shot the horse dead.

I shouted at her, "What's wrong with you, Woman! Why did you shoot the poor animal like that? Are you crazy??"

She looked at me, and quietly said, "That's once."

"And from that moment we have lived happily ever after".

 

[DreamOfSun]

Hi everyone!

I just wanted to let you all know that I am officially moved! Thanks to two wonderful friends, I was able to have the movers come on Wednesday while I was working. We are settling in nicely, and I only have about three or four boxes left to unpack! In my haste to get things done, I broke my toe last night... but I can live with that!

I am feeling very good about things, and this just feels so 'right' to me. Things are good.

Hope you are all doing well.

 

[InLust]

There were three Eskimos in Alaska, and one time while they were at their local bar, they got to talking about how cold it was outside, and how cold their igloos were.

They could agree on everything but whose igloo was the coldest, so they decided to determine who indeed had the coldest igloo.

They went to the first Eskimo's igloo, where he said, "Watch this!" and poured cup of water into the air.

Well, the water froze in mid-air and fell onto the floor solid.

"Not bad," said the other Eskimos, but each maintained their igloo was colder still.

So they went to the second Eskimo's igloo, and he said, "Watch this!" and took a big breath and exhaled, whereupon his breath froze into a big lump and fell to the floor.

"Wow, that's colder than mine!" said the first Eskimo.

But the third Eskimo exclaimed his was colder still. So they ended up at the third Eskimo's igloo.

He said, "Watch this!" and went into the bedroom, threw back the thick furs, and retrieved one of several small balls of ice there. He took it, put it in a spoon, and held a match under it.

When it heated up enough, it went "FFFAAAARRRRTTT!"

 

[nrcma98]

Smarter than we thought

"Hello, is this the FBI?"


"Yes. What do you want?"


"I'm callin' about my neighbor, Billy Bob Pavon. He is hiding marijuana inside his firewood."


"Thank you very much for the call, sir."


The next day, FBI agents descend on Billy Bob's house. They search the shed where the firewood is kept. Using axes, they bust open every piece of wood, but find no marijuana.


They sneer at Billy Bob and leave.


The phone rings at Billy Bob's house.


"Hey, Billy Bob! Did the FBI come?"


"Yeah!"


"Did they chop your firewood?"


"Yep."


"Happy Birthday, buddy!"

 

[sortacurious]

A few friends here have helped me through many hard times with my brother in the past and know his situation. We are going through the worst of times now.

He was in a major car accident (the days are blurred, but I think) Wed. night. His demons were apparently so bad he chose to drive himself into a concrete pole. He was airlifted by helicopter from the crash site a few miles away to the hospital and taken immediately into trauma surgery. There were three different surgeons working on different parts of him for approx. five hours.

His injuries are multiple and severe: Compound facture of left tibia, numerous fractures from right ankle down, broken ribs, both collar bones broke, facial bones and frontal lobes broken, laceration to liver...and the worst of them all, an extremely severe brain trauma. He is bleeding from two places in his brain, and they drilled a "bolt" in his skull for monitoring. He has no movement at this time on the left side of his body. He's running a fever which is not uncommon under the circumstances. On the three criteria tests for rating the injury (1-5, one being the worst) he is a ONE on each, putting him at 3/15 which is the very lowest scoring a head injury can get. The cranial pressure continues to spike, but not maintain extreme levels.

It's bad, really bad. We've all been praying for mercy at this point. But, as time passes, I don't think this will be merciful.

We still have no idea of any sort of outcome. We are in as much of limbo as his condition.

Normally I'd be here asking prayers and good thoughts from all my wonderful friends. But honestly, I don't know what to pray for. I fear losing him, but way more than this fear, I'm terrified he will survive only to be severely incapacitated, and still haunted by the demons, possibly worse. I'm not leaping to worst case scenarios, I'm trying to be extremely realistic here. There are no good solutions. It's all fucked up and there's nothing that can fix it.

So, mostly...I guess I pray for Danny, my mom, and I to have the strength and stability to cope no matter the outcome.


My friends here, I just want you to know how very grateful I am, have always been for the amazing support you've each given me in trying to get my brother in the best place possible. In trying to make sure I continue to take care of myself so that I can be able to continue in these efforts, and in helping me sort through so much confusion. I want you to know, it's help. Were it not for all the words of wisdom (that really did stick) I would not be able to deal now in the worst of times. I'm stronger and more emotionally prepared for this, and it's because of each of you, and my amazing Danny.

Thank you.

 

[MT_Pitcher]

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Can't say anything that would help you, but take the hugs and my hopes that it will work out.

 

[tonitits]

A few friends here have helped me through many hard times with my brother in the past and know his situation. We are going through the worst of times now.

He was in a major car accident (the days are blurred, but I think) Wed. night. His demons were apparently so bad he chose to drive himself into a concrete pole. He was airlifted by helicopter from the crash site a few miles away to the hospital and taken immediately into trauma surgery. There were three different surgeons working on different parts of him for approx. five hours.

His injuries are multiple and severe: Compound facture of left tibia, numerous fractures from right ankle down, broken ribs, both collar bones broke, facial bones and frontal lobes broken, laceration to liver...and the worst of them all, an extremely severe brain trauma. He is bleeding from two places in his brain, and they drilled a "bolt" in his skull for monitoring. He has no movement at this time on the left side of his body. He's running a fever which is not uncommon under the circumstances. On the three criteria tests for rating the injury (1-5, one being the worst) he is a ONE on each, putting him at 3/15 which is the very lowest scoring a head injury can get. The cranial pressure continues to spike, but not maintain extreme levels.

It's bad, really bad. We've all been praying for mercy at this point. But, as time passes, I don't think this will be merciful.

We still have no idea of any sort of outcome. We are in as much of limbo as his condition.

Normally I'd be here asking prayers and good thoughts from all my wonderful friends. But honestly, I don't know what to pray for. I fear losing him, but way more than this fear, I'm terrified he will survive only to be severely incapacitated, and still haunted by the demons, possibly worse. I'm not leaping to worst case scenarios, I'm trying to be extremely realistic here. There are no good solutions. It's all fucked up and there's nothing that can fix it.

So, mostly...I guess I pray for Danny, my mom, and I to have the strength and stability to cope no matter the outcome.


My friends here, I just want you to know how very grateful I am, have always been for the amazing support you've each given me in trying to get my brother in the best place possible. In trying to make sure I continue to take care of myself so that I can be able to continue in these efforts, and in helping me sort through so much confusion. I want you to know, it's help. Were it not for all the words of wisdom (that really did stick) I would not be able to deal now in the worst of times. I'm stronger and more emotionally prepared for this, and it's because of each of you, and my amazing Danny.

Thank you.

((((((((((((((Sortacurious))))))))))))))))) So sorry that this happened. Like MT, I don't really know what to say. I am praying that God will give you, your mom and Danny the strength that you need during this time. And pray that God will do whatever he feels is best for your brother. I understand the frustration of not wanting to lose him, but also not wanting him to live if it is going to be worse situation in the long term. So just know that I am thinking of you and keeping you and your family in my prayers. May God Bless you all. If you need someone to talk to feel free to pm me. I don't know you that well, but willing to help anyone who is hurting and in need. Hang in there sweetie! x12