Transgenderism: How Far Have You Gone?

[SolariWriter]

Everyone:

How far have you gone toward fulfilling your female identity? Do you plan on going further? Why or why not? What aspects — physical, mental or both — of being a female attracts you the most?

As for myself, I haven't done much, and likely never will. Why? Odd as it may sound, I'm actually comfortable as I am — yet, at the same time, if I were to fully transition, it wouldn't be that big a deal for me. Male or female, who cares? What counts is that which cannot be enumerated — one's soul.

Oh, I have on occasion allowed my female identity to emerge in the privacy of my own home. Even then, though, not for long. It seems that half the thrill is the "forbidden" nature of it, and of feeling what it'd be like to actually begin changing into my female identity.

One thing I've found is that those sensations help me when it comes to writing, particularly scenes involving intimacy and/or transformation.

The most I've done when expressing my female side is fairly pedestrian in nature: Worn my hair long, applied lipstick and used lip enhancers, patted on foundation, removed/trimmed areas of body hair, worn long, red acrylic nails and, on occasion, enjoyed a long, slender, all-white "woman's" cigarette — usually a Capri 120 Menthol.

So, how about you?

SolariWriter

 

[Etoile]

I love that you include the cigarettes in your transformation. I had no idea that men smoke a different type of cigarette from women, because I do not smoke, but it is a very subtle thing that still has a big impact.

 

[Tymeless]

sounds to me your more into it for the sexual thrill then anything else, but i wish you the luck in whatever you choose to do. i'm not very far yet not even on hormones yet .

 

[temp256]

I've been on hormones for a couple months. I've had considerable breast growth. They're already visible through tight shirts, and growing fast. The areolas and nipples constantly shifting into very odd configurations. They're very sensitive to pressure in a rather painful way, but not erogenously sensitive yet. They're great fun to play with.

No changes in mood yet. I'm a bit happier my breasts are finally growing, but I still can't cry.

 

[SolariWriter]

I love that you include the cigarettes in your transformation. I had no idea that men smoke a different type of cigarette from women, because I do not smoke, but it is a very subtle thing that still has a big impact.

Now here comes the oddity — I don't smoke. Really. The idea of anyone (but especially a man) addicted to a twig of tobacco comes across as, well, sort of silly.

Yet, when a woman lights up, it's a bit more tolerable. Not sure why. Maybe because a lot of women I know do smoke, or have done so in the past. So perhaps I've "attached" that image somehow to my own transformation process, and incorporate it when I begin to "change."

Which leaves me wondering: If I'd been born female, and been exposed to the women I have known throughout my life, would I have become a smoker, too? If that's the case, it's probably a good thing my female side doesn't express itself very often.

SolariWriter

 

[SolariWriter]

sounds to me your more into it for the sexual thrill then anything else, but i wish you the luck in whatever you choose to do. i'm not very far yet not even on hormones yet .

I cannot deny that there's a sexual aspect to the "transformation." And thanks for the best wishes ... odds are, though, I'll never go beyond what I'm doing now. I've done some reading on hormones and, frankly, with my family history, it might not be a good idea to go on them. It isn't worth it growing a nice pair of real, big-nippled breasts if, in exchange, you end up with heart disease.

I really feel sorry for the folks who are genuinely transgender, who *must* physically transform in order to feel whole, yet face medical hurdles that prevent them from doing so.

SolariWriter

 

[SolariWriter]

I've been on hormones for a couple months. I've had considerable breast growth. They're already visible through tight shirts, and growing fast. The areolas and nipples constantly shifting into very odd configurations. They're very sensitive to pressure in a rather painful way, but not erogenously sensitive yet. They're great fun to play with.

No changes in mood yet. I'm a bit happier my breasts are finally growing, but I still can't cry.

You've definitely taken a big step toward womanhood. Breasts pretty much anchor you to the female half of humanity, at least physically. Glad to see yours are growing, along with your nipples and aerolae.

If I may ask, how old are you? I've heard the younger you start, the better off it is for the body in terms of physical changes, such as breast growth.

Also, do the women in your family have generous bust lines? I understand that genetics play a role in a TG's final breast size. Who knows? You might have the genes for a C- or D-cup bust line, Temp256!

SolariWriter

 

[temp256]

I'm 19. I heard the same thing about age affecting development, which is why I wanted to start over a year ago.

I'm no good at judging others, but I think my genetics are good. Here's a picture of my sister. Keep in mind she's wearing a corset. Personally I'd like B-C. I think D would look a little odd on my very tall and very thin frame. Judging by my current progress, I have nothing to worry about.

 

[Wolfman1982]

temp256: your sister is extremely pretty, I must say . Please say that to her.

 

[SolariWriter]

I'm 19. I heard the same thing about age affecting development, which is why I wanted to start over a year ago.

A good move, since it sounds like you've got your heart set on attaining womanhood. The way I understand it, because the body is in transition anyway during puberty, beginning the transformation at that point in time isn't as hard on it as it might be later in life. Then again, I'm not an endocrinologist, so what do I know?

I'm no good at judging others, but I think my genetics are good. Here's a picture of my sister. Keep in mind she's wearing a corset. Personally I'd like B-C. I think D would look a little odd on my very tall and very thin frame. Judging by my current progress, I have nothing to worry about.

Good to hear. If I were to begin really transitioning, I'd probably end up with C- or D-cup breasts, thanks to the genetics in my family line. They probably wouldn't look too odd jutting out from my frame, since I'm not overly thin or overly tall.

Do you eventually plan on going all the way? Or would you just be satisfied with everything but a vagina?

SolariWriter

 

[temp256]

Surgery is a distinct possibility, but I don't really want to think about it yet. It's several years off at a minimum, and I don't want to stress myself over it. I would definitely do it if it were perfect, but it's never that simple...

I had an interesting morning. Normally when I first wake up, my though process goes something alone the lines of:
Mhmgh...sleepy...wait, I just remembered I'm trans...crap...
Today it was:
Mhmgh...sleepy...Huh, what's this? Boobies!

I love these things.

 

[SolariWriter]

Surgery is a distinct possibility, but I don't really want to think about it yet. It's several years off at a minimum, and I don't want to stress myself over it. I would definitely do it if it were perfect, but it's never that simple...

It usually isn't. Besides, with you starting your transition at such a young age, I'd think you'll end up easily being a woman not only to yourself, but to the general public as well. I'd say within a year or three, you'll be indistinguishable (in a good way) from any other woman in the crowd. Of course, you might get questions about possibly being a WNBA player from time to time.

I had an interesting morning. Normally when I first wake up, my though process goes something alone the lines of:
Mhmgh...sleepy...wait, I just remembered I'm trans...crap...
Today it was:
Mhmgh...sleepy...Huh, what's this? Boobies!

I love these things.

Obviously, I'm not familiar with the effects female hormones have on MtF folks. I assume sleepiness is a potential side effect? Lethargy?

I'm sure you're going to enjoy every morning from now on, waking up to your boobies and, in time, when they grow into full-fledged breasts complete with nice nipples and aerolae. Heh. Just wait until your body shape assumes the female form!

SolariWriter

 

[temp256]

People often think I'm a girl. Oddly it started before I even knew. I've already been questioned if I play basketball too.

You misunderstood my colourful illustration. My point is for the past year or so, the first thing to come to mind in the morning is me being trans and hating myself. Today my first thought was my breasts. I'm always tired when I wake up.

So far the only side effects have been slight dizziness when standing up (spiro lowers blood pressure), and hot flashes. The hot flashes seem to be affected by the time of day I take my pills, so I should be able to stop them entirely soon.

I think I might be developing an inverted left nipple. Or maybe it's just the weird uneven growth patterns. The right one is a bit smaller. Strange.

 

[Tymeless]

I hope to be on hormones in 2-3 months i'm still looking for a damn sperm bank though before i start any hormones. Right now i'm thinking i may go on living my male life while doing the hormones so that only myself and my SO really know about it until my family is more comfortable with the idea of me being a woman. I'm not hiding it from them they know about it and they won't disown me but to make it easier on them i may do it covertly until they are ready to deal with it.

 

[Night_Jasmine]

In a way, I understand what you're talking about Tiffany. Just do what feels right for you.

 

[Tymeless]

yeah i mean i would love to be out and flaunting it but i realize that my family has to learn to deal and cope with this is much as i do. I'm 25 years old so hormones should still work fairly well on me but not as well as they will on Temp. Temp i wish you all the world girl.

I can't wait to have titties, and i'm not even thinking on srs yet because like you said its not perfect, its expensive, etc. only things i've thought on are facial femme surgery and possibly adams apple removal as well as shaving the vocal cords or something.

 

[Night_Jasmine]

Your voice will lighten as the hormones take effect. Heck, it worked for Michael Jackson! lol, j/k. But seriously, the hormones will give you certain things. Just make sure you take enough to deal with facial hair. The doctor I once worked for had a slight issue with that.

Tiff, maybe the expense is a good thing. It'll make you take things one step at a time. Your family will adapt as each step is taken. If not, they're losing out on a relationship with a beautiful soul and that is their loss.

 

[Tymeless]

yeah i think thats a big reason the cost is so high. to get people to slow down. facial hair has to be taken care of with electrolysis it slows with hormones but doesn't stop with hormones. the voice will lighten some but not that much actually most that don't have surgeries have just practiced voice inflation enough to make them sound more femme.

yeah my parents won't abandon me or anything nor will my sister but i don't want to hurt them emotionally more then i have to is all. I can make it easier on them and they can make it easier on me by not knowing as much.

I love hearing how i'm a great person i really do and i won't deny that i am *feels conceited* I feel i have a lot to offer i just wish people in general wouldn't get so hung up on genitals to determine who and what you are. I mean even though i am a woman yes i have a cock i don't want it but i can live with it would i rather have a vagina yes but is it the end of the world that i have a cock no, but i don't feel it makes me any less of a woman. plenty of men have vaginas. I feel if your born a woman and feel your a woman be a woman if your born a man and feel your a man then be a man if your somewhere inbetween be whatever you feel you are more of and everyone else should just let you be happy to them it shouldn't matter what your genitals are or aren't but who you the person are.

 

[Wolfman1982]

Freelove

Lovely song, and that is how I feel.

And it is a great song.

 

[Night_Jasmine]

You're right. You have announced yourself as a girl, I see you as such because that's how you've shown yourself to me. *grins* You're one of the gals, Tiff, and stuck that way now.

People are who they are. That changes over time with maturity and wisdom, hopefully grace, but it's like fine wines. I will have guy friends, who will become brothers to me, but one will never grace my bed again. THat is who I am.

 

[Tymeless]

You're right. You have announced yourself as a girl, I see you as such because that's how you've shown yourself to me. *grins* You're one of the gals, Tiff, and stuck that way now.

People are who they are. That changes over time with maturity and wisdom, hopefully grace, but it's like fine wines. I will have guy friends, who will become brothers to me, but one will never grace my bed again. THat is who I am.

same here but one will probably just never grace my bed. it would take an incredibly special man like matt damon j/k to get me in the sack.

 

[Night_Jasmine]

*mock cries big anime tears* You're turning traitor!!! I thought you were lesbian just like me???

 

[Tymeless]

*mock cries big anime tears* You're turning traitor!!! I thought you were lesbian just like me???

oh i am and come with a built in strap on. just saying i won't shut the door completely but i don't see it ever happening with a man.

 

[Night_Jasmine]

Ohhh...okay. *smiles* I was being silly anyway. Of course, if Matt Damon wanted to sleep with chunky little me, I'd still turn him away. Wonder if he'd broker a deal for Jennifer Gardner to come and visit though?

 

[Tymeless]

Ohhh...okay. *smiles* I was being silly anyway. Of course, if Matt Damon wanted to sleep with chunky little me, I'd still turn him away. Wonder if he'd broker a deal for Jennifer Gardner to come and visit though?

oh mmmm ooooo! NJ your making me horny!