Thoughts on this??

[Xander]

Inadequate
October - 2001



1.
Dark...surfaced thoughts
and doubt in my mind
That I can do this

2.
Loneliness, strikes my heart
Almost makes me crumple
at a single thought

(chorus)
And I feel so Inadequate
Feel like I'm fighting in vain
Only you.....only you
can set me free

3.
Following, a lifetime dream
Falling in love
At the same time

4.
Always bee, on top of things
Suddenly
I feel so helpless here

(chorus)
And I feel so inadequate
Feels like I'm fighting in vain
Only you......only you
can set me free

 

[Adoratrice]

I think it is sweet ...in a co-dependency kind of way.



The passion of being torn between wants & needs comes through. Did you write it?


edit: "Sweet" isn't exactly the right word.........heartfelt is better

 

[Xander]

Yeah I wrote it Adoratice.

 

[Adoratrice]

I really like it....I have felt that way ,years ago when for various reasons I could not be with my now husband . I thought I was going to go insane with heartache.

give me a rhythm....is it fast ....slow.....


And I take back the co-dependency remark I was just being snide. I think it feels more like a poem than a song...I know I know songs are poetry

 

[Xander]

I really like it....I have felt that way ,years ago when for various reasons I could not be with my now husband . I thought I was going to go insane with heartache.

give me a rhythm....is it fast ....slow.....


And I take back the co-dependency remark I was just being snide. I think it feels more like a poem than a song...I know I know songs are poetry

Its a moderate power beat.

 

[April]

Xander, I don't know what to say. You know I'm always here. Don't give up. I know it's hard, but don't.

 

[Xander]

I'm trying April, I'm trying.

 

[Guest]

What's wrong, Xander? Did Misti dump you for another on line or did she go back with the B/F that can support her?

 

[Xander]

What's wrong, Xander? Did Misti dump you for another on line or did she go back with the B/F that can support her?

You know, why dont you go back into whatever hole it is you came from, and die??
Do everyone a favour and dont reproduce.
No one really need a Osama Bin Laden Junior.

 

[Guest]

BINGO. I guess I was right.

 

[April]

Fuck off, you evil creature. I really mean that. There is something fundamentally wrong with people like you.

 

[Guest]

Awww....darn, I love it when I'm right

 

[Xander]

An unregistered troll.

How about that...who are you
A KR croonie, Tiggs, Are you MM or someone else that has a beef with me...c'mon Coward identify yourself.

 

[Natalie Nessus]

I'm trying April, I'm trying.

There are times when life is very dark and you must keep telling yourself that life can be sweet, is sweet.


Ignore the fools.

 

[Guest]

Just thinking of her with someone else must drive you mad.

 

[Xander]

Nukbskull, as I said in KR's thread, same thing apply for you as for him...bring it on..and i will kill your ass, or die trying.

Somehow I doubt you'll have the guts to actually name a time place and date for something like that.

 

[Guest]

Damn death threats now.

 

[Simply Me]

Xander. Walk away from this. Don't let this piece of trash bring your and Mistresses personal life to the board.. Hugs to you both.

 

[Guest]

That's right Xander, walk away. Everyone knew it was only a matter of time.

Poor baby.

 

[Xander]

No I wont walk away SM..I wont to see if they can stand by their words...the dare is out there, and if they want the chance I am more than willing to give it to them. Its up to them.

 

[Guest]

Dance some more, Xander. You are so easy to play.

 

[Xander]

Dance some more, Xander. You are so easy to play.

Who's playing, I gave you a genuine chance...even gave you the possibility to have it reffed, so no one back out.

Again who is playing, besides you??

 

[Guest]

Reaction speaks loudly. And you react so well when the truthcomes out.

 

[Debbie]

Xander, we all have times like you are feeling now. I am so pleased that you can express your thoughts and feelings in words. It is painful but in some small way a release. Don't give up. *hugs*


Darkness take my hand
by debbiexxx


Darkness takes my wasting, weary hand
Leading me from where I always stand
Dragging me to the vast,open unknown
From where I was so very, so very alone
To where? I am not always sure I know
I only follow, there to follow, once to go
Black, bleak, blind ,fumbling in the dark
Going to places, forlorn, ebony and stark
Then I am not alone, but amongst company
Where there were few there are now many
Where am I you may ask, and certainly do
I am in deepest darkest Hell; there with you

 

[Guest]

Xander got played.