I've had a really rough time this past year and a half or so... lots going on, too much to mention here now. In the course of everything I had to make a very difficult decision, we surrendered our cat of 10 years to the humane society. (Please don't yell at me, I know it was awful!!) It was not an easy thing to do and I still feel terrible over it. I just couldn't care for her anymore in the way she deserved. This was about a month ago.
Tonight, out of the blue, hubby gets a text message about the cat. It took a few texts back and forth but we find out the cat was adopted and the new owners somehow saw our number on the paperwork and decided to contact us.
This has stirred up a whirlwind of emotions.
At first, I was very defensive towards the new owners, I felt they were questioning our very personal and private reasons for abandoning the cat. (Felt like harassment, to some extent.) To, anger and almost rage at the humane society for disclosing our personal information. (Be it intentional or not.) I now feel grateful to know she has been adopted and hopeful she will now be receiving the love and attention she so deserves. But I also feel so sad to know she has been living in a tiny cage this long, she must have been so scared, hurt and lonely.
After I had hubby surrender her, I honestly just tried to block it out. I have too much else going on, emotionally, and I just couldn't handle it all. Not now anyway. Tonight it was thrown in front of me, caught me off guard and has really overwhelmed me.
Tomorrow I think I might call the humane society and ask them about how the new owners saw our personal information. I'm not sure if adoptions are open ended to the new owners? I don't know what to do, its bitter sweet. It is nice to know about our cat, but at the same time, its so very, very hard.
Sorry for rambling. Thanks if you read this.
Yes.
I'm hoping they are just so excited they wanted to learn more about her and just tell us? Maybe they were thinking we would thank them?
I'm sure they didn't mean to send me into emotions overdrive, but they did.
For all they knew I could have been hostile toward them. For all I know they could become hostile towards us. Its quite unsettling. My mom told me to just let it go. Hubby doesn't see why I'm making a big deal about everything either, although he is being nice about it. Neither of them quite get it, so now I'm bitchin' to you guys.
Today was not as good as yesterday. I broke down right after work. But thanks for all the hugs and such. I know it's gonna be a daily process.
*hugs* to those who need them and want them.
*hugs*
I'm stubborn sometimes.
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I hear ya.
(You can PM me, if you need some one to talk to.
Today was not as good as yesterday. I broke down right after work. But thanks for all the hugs and such. I know it's gonna be a daily process.
*hugs* to those who need them and want them.
Yes.
I'm hoping they are just so excited they wanted to learn more about her and just tell us? Maybe they were thinking we would thank them?
I'm sure they didn't mean to send me into emotions overdrive, but they did.
For all they knew I could have been hostile toward them. For all I know they could become hostile towards us. Its quite unsettling. My mom told me to just let it go. Hubby doesn't see why I'm making a big deal about everything either, although he is being nice about it. Neither of them quite get it, so now I'm bitchin' to you guys.
*hugs* 'm gonna sleep soon to catch up. Thank Providence it's the weekend.
Thank you. Night.
Yes stress.
Nails. Arms only. The feeling of the pain to take my mind off things.
The conditions is I'm left alone in a protective bubble where no one can hurt me! I've been hurt a lot.
Yes stress.
Nails. Arms only. The feeling of the pain to take my mind off things.
The conditions is I'm left alone in a protective bubble where no one can hurt me! I've been hurt a lot.
Yes stress.
Nails. Arms only. The feeling of the pain to take my mind off things.
The conditions is I'm left alone in a protective bubble where no one can hurt me! I've been hurt a lot.
